Update

Mike had his procedure this morning and is doing fine. I am happy to say that the doctor said that this was caught early enough that the medicines they have been giving him reduced the blockage by 30%. So now with diet, exercise and medicine he should be able to turn this around. Praise God! Mike is going to have to follow up with a Cardiologist in a few weeks. Having a heart attack this young is not good. So he is going to have to stay away from stress. Well as you all know our life has been all stress for a while now. So pray for our family to be able to continue to fight.

The girls are doing fine. The poor things have been through so much. They are in Charlotte and being taken care of by family and friends. Thank you so much for being there.

Your praying worked and I am so thankful. When he is up and about I can wait for him to read the comments.

Now for you Satan I guess you must have not been happy with my results Friday so you thought you could mess with my man! Well I hate to break it to ya. We are fine:)

Cindy

fighting like a girl and thankful for my husband

Pastor Reggie, pat, Ken,Sue thanks for coming

Quick Prayer for My Husband

The girls do not know yet!



Mike had a heart attack last night and we are in the hospital in Greenville. I will update after his procedure tomorrow. Thanks in advance for you prayers.

Cindy

Apt Today with Oncologist

Ok the Dr says I look good and my counts are good! I ask tons of questions. It seems that I just need to get through the next 6 months. I see her again in Sept. It is time to start adding vitamins, calcium and vit D to my diet. It seems that the medicine that I am on makes the bones weak. So I will have a bone density test next time. Still waiting on my test results from the genetic testing. Another apt out of the way. Lord I am claiming this! Looking forward to seeing that 3 year mark!!!

Send up a Praise for me tonight thanking God for getting me to this point! Not a day goes by that I am not thankful for everything.

Sending blessing to all of you

Love Cindy
fighting like a girl

My teacher, mentor and friend

I have been so excited to blog about this but it was not the right time until now. When I was a little girl about Alexa's age I had a Math teacher who I loved. She was a young, energetic, positive young lady. She was always smiling and working the classroom. She knew how to keep us focused and keep us in line. A few years after I had her as my teacher she helped me during my parents divorce. She was very good to me. I remember her telling me when it was time for her to get married she was going to have me in her wedding. I guess about 5 years later I was asked to be in her wedding. It was a blast. She has kept up with me all these years. I have called on her when I needed advice. I have called on her when I needed help with teaching the girls Math. She has been a great friend. Why she picked me to take under her wing? Over the years she has worked hard and now has her doctrine. I am so proud of her. She has a gorgeous voice and gives all the Glory to God. She has written her own songs and has her own CD. She has a passion for loving the Lord. During the last 9 months she has been there for me. Sometimes I would just call her and ask her to pray for me. She did not allow me to feel sorry for myself. She knew when I needed a push. So back in April she can to stay with me for a week. She shared my life, went to my church (which I love so much) and prayed with me. It was an amazing time. I want to thank God for bringing her into my life.

Dr. Mary J. Woolridge-you are an angel from God and I am blessed to know you. I pray for God to protect you. I pray that God continues to use you.

I love you-Friends Forever

If you want to hear her sing look at my sidebar

Dont have the energy to hang

It is the end of the year for school and boy is there a lot going on. Friday I did field day with Savannah, Sat the carnival with the girls school and today field day with Madison. I can not hang like I use to. The sun and the heat...I just can not do a long day. It is really hard for me not to be able to do everything that I use to. My prayer tonight is please allow me to become stronger and healthier.

Thanks for you comments last week. I am starting to get uptight about my dr apt on Friday. I know this is probably normal.

Tomorrow I am going to share my visit with a friend. I have been wanting to blog about her for about a month. Just so much going on. Miss the blog world and plan to catch up over the weekend.

Looking forward to school getting out and Summer fun with the girls!

Praising God for continuing to heal me. Thanks for praying for me:)
Cindy
fighting like a girl

It's Been A While

I am looking forward to this school year being over! It has been one thing or another. It seems like nothing is going right. Do you ever feel like you can't get a break? Well that is how I feel. I have completely lost focus and it feels terrible.

My results for my genetic testing came in but they can't get me in until the 15th. So I said well why did you call me then?? So on the 15th I will have a better idea of what I am dealing with. I have my next oncology apt on the 5th. I will be going back to Greenville for both of these apts. My prayer for these two days are that the Lord continue to keep me protected. I am praying for my results to be negative so my girls do not have to worry about this ever. I pray that my oncologist can guide me on what is next. How do I build my immune system? I feel like a am having to fight against some of the side effects from radiation. Pray for my body. I have been feeling muscle tighten, swelling in my ankles and sometime it seems like popping in my lungs.

Just a little lost right now. I know you all will know what to say to help me back on track.

Cindy

My birthday pictures

Here I am surprise! Sorry I did not have these sooner. Thanks Teri for taking pictures:)

My Mom and sisters...Stephanie and Sunnie

Stacy and Mary ....Friends from Charlotte....Mary is Madison's second Mama-Thanks for filling in:)

Mimi (my blog friend who surprised me first time meeting her)

Debbie and Me

My sister

My girlfriends since we were all 4 yrs old! Keri and Carrie...We grew up together in Miami and now all live in NC.

Mimi and Nicki (three girly girls) help keep me focused

Sharon and I became great friends because of Savannah and her daughter Madison. Love their entire family

My cousin...single and looking....any takers!

My cousin's mom and awesome friend. She has been a great angel in my kids lives thanks to Jeff (my cousin who is deeply missed)

Me and Carrie (came during treatments to help)

Midi and Me...my girlfriend from HS. We are still very close.(came to help during treatments)

Teri and Me. Thanks Teri for everything you are truly part of the fam!!

Madison(my baby) and Me.....Not sure how Mike and the girls missed the camera???

Great Memories....I am working on my thank you notes now. Thanks for all you support and prayers. God sent all of you to me and I feel so blessed.

Cindy

fighting like a girl

Relay For Life Pictures-No Words Too Many Emotions

Pictures :) Going home to see my kids

Do you remember when I talked about God giving me a sign during one of my apts at radiation and when I went into one of the rooms I looked up and saw this blue butterfly. I love this picture. It seemed whenever I needed some encouragement I was sent in this room.

This is the room I ended up in today. I have been released from radiation until 6mons from now. The dr said that if I am going to have any side effects it will happen in the next 6months.

While I have been home I have been enjoying my roses. I love taking care of them. It is one of my favorite things to do.

The back of my house. Lots of roses everywhere. It was nice to be home.

This what I woke up to on Mothers Day! Did you see me traveling from Charlotte to Greenville????

I will be on my way back to Charlotte in the morning. I have a prayer request. My back has been hurting for about 2 weeks. I am a little worried so if you can pray that God touch me.

Cindy

It was Amazing-Relay for Life

Thanks for all your comments. It was a great show on Friday night. I am in Greenville and I left the camera in Charlotte so I will post pictures over the weekend. You all would have been proud of me. I wore my purple while giving God all the Glory! I even went w/o my wig towards the end of the night. You all know how hard that was for me. So you will get to see some great pictures. Thanks to all of you who came out to support me. Hemby Bridge had a fabulous tent. Thanks for being so great to me and the girls. Ms. Stanley it was great to meet your Mom. She is a fighter! To all the teachers and staff you all are wonderful and you represented your school with honors. I am proud to be a part of HB. I am still fighting like a girl!!

Tonight was awards night at Alexa's school in Greenville. I attended and little did I know she was getting a trophy:) It could not have come at a better time. She is going to be so happy on Friday when I can hand it to her. She just found out that she did not make the squad here in Charlotte. So lots of tears:(

The girls are feeling better and Mike is starting to feel bad so thanks in advance for you prayers.

I went for genetic testing today and I will get the results in 2 months. Pray for my results to come back negative. It will lower my girls risk for this terrible disease.

I owe you all a lot of pictures. So I will be back in Charlotte on Friday to work on that.

I have my radiation follow up on Thursday. Praying that he gives me a good check and that everything is fine.

Nothing on the sell of the house. I am leaving in God's hands!!


Much love
Cindy

Happy Mothers Day Late to all of you wonderful Moms

My first Relay for Life! PURPLE

So today is the day that I have been dreaming of for a while now. It is my first relay for life. I will be walking at 6pm today with my purple survivor shirt on:) I am nervous and excited! My family and friends will be there with me too. All of you in blogland will be with me too. I hold every message, letter, card and call in my heart. This has been a scary journey. So thank you for all your support and prayers. I AM A MIRACLE!

I know that the next 3 yrs are going to be the most risk for me. I am up for the challenge. I love you all. Remember 9 pm lights out with all the candles burning. Light one for me (where ever you are) and say a prayer. Lord continue to HEAL ME. It is working.


Cindy
fighting like a girl

Lost Puppy

So I am in Charlotte still. I am trying to keep up around here. I feel like a lost puppy pulling out me hair. The only thing is my hair is not long enough to pull out:) I am going to ask for a few prayer request. Alexa and Savannah have not been feeling well. Pray for a quick get well.

Alexa has cheer leading tryouts tomorrow. She has worked hard and really wants it. So say an encouraging prayer for her.


I miss everyone and cant wait to catch up on your blogs and catch you up on me.

Cindy
relay for life May 8 & 9

Surprise to me and Praising God for friends and family

Sorry I have not been on in a while but I have been trying to get organized and get the girls on a schedule. I am doing fine. My skin is looking good. I go back to the Dr on the 13th for a check. So I am feeling pretty good. I have been staying busy and I guess so busy that my family and friends had me thinking that I was going to a birthday party for a little girl yesterday....well to my surprise it was my party. I was in shock because I am not one for liking surprises. I must say it was a lot of fun and it was so great to see everyone. I was very emotional. I know all of you have been pulling for me and praying for my daily. I would have pictures today but I did not bring my camera so I will have to wait to get them from my friends.

One of my surprises was I got to meet one of my bloggy friends!! A dream come true. Sorry I do not know how to link yet but it was Mimi. You can go to my side bar and go to her blog to see the pictures. If you have never been there you will be blessed for sure! It was so wonderful. It meant the world to me. She has prayed and followed me from the beginning. I knew immediately when I saw her and her husband. It was too awesome. Of course I feel like I know all about her and her beautiful family. Nicki from Three Girly Girls help set this up so thank you Nicki. Nicki has also helped me stay focused from the start:) Make sure you stop by her blog too. It was neat to see my family who reads when they comment get to meet them.

Thanks again for all the effort everyone! I love you all tons. I hope to have pictures up soon. Thanks for celebrating with me.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Thanks!

Hey there I am in Charlotte and have not been able to get on the computer. I know a lot of you are looking for me. My facebook is gone for now. I received a ugly virus on my computer. So here is my email until I get another made:

micialsa@aol.com


Yes today is my birthday and I am praising GOD for this day!! I am proud to say that I am 38:)

Thanks for all your support and love.

Giving God all the Glory, Honor and Praise!!

Cindy
fighting like a girl

THE WINNER IS.......

MY ADHD ME

Let me know what your initials and address are so I can send you your car monogram:)

Love Cindy

New Graduate of Radiation 101

Finally finally finally!! The radiation machine was fixed over the weekend. So on Friday I was treated on a different machine and then yesterday and today I finished. Hallelujah!! Of course the doctor was in a procedure so I have to go back in the morning to get released until I see him again in 4 weeks. Oh well. I made it. A little over 7 months. Can you believe it. Yes that was the key to this all. Even when I could not see or did not know what direction to turn. BELIEVING was the answer.

Thank you Lord for getting me through 6 chemo treatments, thank you for getting me through a double mastectomy and removal of my lymph nodes, and thank you for getting me through 30 radiation treatments. Giving you all the Glory.

Thanks to all my family and friends. Thanks to all my blog friends for guiding me and keeping me focused. Thanks to my girls for telling me that I was beautiful and that I was the coolest Mom with my bald head. Thanks to my husband for loving me.

Continue to pray for me to heal and detox my body. Now it is time to celebrate. If you have not left me a comment on my giveaway you still have time. I will pick the winner tomorrow at 9pm.

The girls are doing great!

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Laurie and Tracy did you get your koozie?
Cindy waiting for my order still:)

GIVEAWAY TIME-I Love Monogramming

Well the radiation machine is still broken. I have never heard such a thing. They are hoping to be able to treat me tomorrow. So we will see. Mike and the girls are traveling tomorrow to come home. So I am super excited. I was wanting to celebrate being done with radiation with another giveaway so I am going to continue. So here we go. Monogramming on the car is very popular here. I think it is very cute. So all you have to do is leave me a comment for one entry and mention it on your blog for another entry. Thanks so much for all your support. It means so much.

Continue to pray for me during these next few days. I know that God is in control and I will follow.

Happy Spring Break

Cindy

fighting like a girl

How do you deal with stress?

I go and buy a wig:) So what if I cant go to radiation today!

RADIATION MACHINE IS BROKEN:(

I am getting ready to walk out the door when the phone rang. Mrs. Summers our radiation machine is down. It will be down all day because they are flying in parts from somewhere else. Oh and not sure if it will be ready tomorrow. We will let you know. AARRRRGGGGHHH....NO NO NO NO I wanted to be done on Friday. This a real bummer. I did go to the gym though and walked an hour so I could chill out.

Be back later

3 more days of Radiation

I am a walking drug store right now. What am I using? Well I am using pure Aloe (not the green or blue we always use after we go to the beach) because it does not have alcohol. I have learned that the other stuff actually dries out your skin. So try pure aloe from the health food store it is a great healer. I use polysporin on the parts that are raw. I use vitamin E pills (pop them and pour on the skin) and cooling lotion without parabins (toxic chemicals). I also am stretching and trying to fight the tighten of my skin. It is a lot but I rather do more than not enough. Continue to pray for me during this last week.

3 more days, 3 more days! I cant say that enough today.

The girls are coming here on Thursday and I am so excited. Thank goodness for Spring Break:)

Friday will be time to celebrate so I will have a giveaway. So pop back and help me celebrate the end of a long 7 months. I know that I still have a long time ahead of me but it is nice to see the end of this chapter. Racing to the finish line and fighting like a girl.

I love you Mike, Alexa, Savannah and Madison Belle

You would have thought I have been somewhere tropical

First off I just got home today from seeing my girls! It was a fun weekend. They all look great. Thanks to all my family and friends for helping out. Without you ALL I would be having a much harder time here. Mike you are doing a great job.

So now it is time to celebrate only 4 days left of radiation. I am so sunburned and I can not even say that I have been to some exotic and tropical island. Oh well I will just pretend. One thing that they told me is that it will keep burning for sometime after because of the accumulation. I was not happy to hear about that. So just say a little prayer for my body to heal from all of this.

First showing of my house. Come on buyers get out there!

I know that I have missed bunches of calls in the last few weeks. Sorry between radiation, PT and the gym I have had little time. The dogs have filled in the rest of my resting time. Spoiled little monsters.

Have a wonderful day I am looking for the finish line:)

I LOVE YOU ALEXA, SAVANNAH AND MADISON

Your blog is Fabulous Award

So here are the rules: Copy and paste the rules and instructions in your post. When posting on receiving the award, make sure you include who gave you the award and link it back to them. Post five winners and link back to them as well. Post FIVE of your addictions. Add the award image. Let your winners know you gave them an award by leaving them a comment on their blog.

I know this is way over due:) Thanks to Cindy at Consider It All Joy and Mimi at Mimi's Memories I can pass this on to blogs that I think are FAB!

Five addictions :

1) Spreading the WORD

2) Shopping with or for my girls

3) Blogging/Blog Friends

4) Chocolate covered Strawberries

5) And Last Being Cancer Free

(I have no idea how to link back so here we go)

And now I must pass this on:

Three Girly Girls

Living My Life On Purpose

Our Journey

Prayer Gifts

The Patterson 5

Make sure you stop by and check these Godly Women who have been a wonderful support in my life from day one:) Congrats to you all!!!

Of course I love you all as you can see that I follow you often. Mimi and Cindy thanks for walking this journey with me from the beginning.

Sorry I did not post this weeks giveaway but I will next week. I have been pretty uncomfortable with my burn but 6 more treatments to go. So continue to pray for me. Tomorrow is Friday and you know what that means. My turn- off to Charlotte after PT to see my three babies.

Love Cindy

fighting like a girl

Random fun pictures-Day 22 OUCH

Madison cheering on her sister! Savannah taking sailing lessons last summer-so cool

Alexa's game

Alexa's 1st place competition!

Fun weekend

Here they are after tons of hugs and kisses! Saying bye until Friday:)

Apostle Hope Carpenter

Church was awesome tonight. The guest speaker was Hope. Her husband has a big church in SC. She really spoke to me tonight. She reminded us that God does not always work the way we want Him to. That He is always good. She reminded us how important it is to study the Word. She said we have do what His word says and live by it everyday. To be obedient. She said to know what God promises and follow His guidance. She said to wake up everyday waiting on the devil so we are not surprised. She said to become more intimate with God by reading His covenant which is our agreement. We need to read it for ourselves and not hear it from others. I encourage you to start a daily journey of building a relationship with Him. I will pray for you:)

AS I stood at the alter, Hope placed her hands on me while praying for continuing healing I sang this words. It was amazing.
Love Cindy-fighting like a girl


You hold my every momentYou calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fireAnd heal all my disease
I trust in YouI trust in You
I believe You’re my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You’re my Portion
I believe You’re more than enough for me
Jesus, You’re all I need
My HealerYou’re my Healer
Nothing is impossible for YouNothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for YouYou hold my world in Your hands
Jesus, You’re All I NeedJesus, You’re All I Need

AMEN

Day 20 We have 3 winners

I am so glad my husband was wrong this morning. On the way to radiation my husband so you will have 15 treatments today and I said "O No You Didn't" I said no I have 20 down today so we went back in forth no 15 no 20 no 15. So I thought maybe I was wrong?? Well I saw the doctor today. He said your skin looks good. I was thinking are you crazy if this is good I don't know what bad would look like. So give God Praise for my skin looking good. He also said that I had 10 to go. So yes I am glad you were wrong Baby!

Today is Friday and you all know what that means! I see my girls tonight. Continue to pray for them during their travels in the rain. Miss you girls:)

And the winners are:
winner #1 koozie-Tracy @ Our Journey
winner #2 koozie-Laurie Love, Hugs and Prayers
winner #3 fight like a girl T- Cindy @ Consider It All Joy
send me your info micialsa@aol.com

Congrats and thanks for playing with me. Next weeks giveaway will be fun too.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Day19 Radiation

Check out those eyelashes and eyebrows growing-happy girl

Well this week radiation is getting to me. I have been so tired first thing in the morning. So I have been resting a lot. Here is a picture of the burn that I am getting. Not liking that too much. I look forward to having a break over the weekend.

I have had a lot of question about how my weekend was. It was fabulous. The girls and Mike were very excited. I am looking forward to them coming here tomorrow. Please pray for them to have a safe trip. It is suppose to rain.

Winner for the first giveaway will be posted tomorrow. I hope you enjoy wearing it. It is very popular here. Everyone is always asking me where I got mine from. It was one of the first things I got when I was first diagnosed. Next week will be something monogrammed so make sure you visit soon.

I am thankful for all of you! Please pray for my last few weeks of radiation.

Cindy

fighting like a girl and missing my babies

GIVEAWAY TIME-Good Luck!

So it is time to party and give PRAISE! This is my first of many giveaways so make sure you stop by often. I am celebrating my clear scan. I am giving HIM all the GLORY AND PRAISE!

You all know that I have been fighting like a girl:) So I feel it is only appropriate to give away a fight like a girl t-shirt. There will be one winner for the t and 2 winners for the fight like a girl koozie.

So all you have to do is leave me a comment and say a little prayer for God to continue to make me HIS miracle. That will count as one entry. If you mention it on your blog (please let me know) It will count as two! You have until Thursday at midnight! I am so thankful for everything. So I will be doing many giveaways in the next few months. Help me celebrate.

Thanks for praying for me.

Love Cindy

fighting like a girl

*I will be giving a blog award soon

*different t-shirts to support breast cancer

*monogram stuff

Praise God

I want ever one to PRAISE GOD right now. ALL scans are clear!!! I can not even type. I am so excited!!!! Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you all
Cindy

Almost finished today

Well I have had the scan of my head, chest, tummy and pelvis:) The contrast was yucky!! They sent me home to let the injection work for the bone scan. I am suppose to be back at 130 for that. Thanks for praying for me.

Off to radiation now. The machine is broken this morning so here we go. Long day today but in the end I see my girls!!!

Cindy
fighting like a girl-praying to be cancer free

Bone Scan and Total Body-Pray Hard

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I will be having a bone, head, pelvis, abdomen and chest scan. I asking if are praying, starting to pray or never have prayed for me to please pray for me tomorrow. I will be starting at 1045 until 2. Thank you so much for walking this with me. Please pass around:)


The girls are doing great and I can not wait to see them tomorrow night.


Cindy
fighting like a girl with the support of all of you

Missing my babies

I LOVE YOU GIRLS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICHOLE-LOVE YOU

JUMP OVER TO LIVING MY LIFE ON PURPOSE AND WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I PROMISE YOU WILL BE BLESSED:)

It is time to kick this

First of all I want to thank all my family and friends for stepping in and helping out with the girls. They all seem to have had a nice day today. I am looking forward to hearing it in detail.

Kim thanks so much for taking care of Alexa. Sharon thanks for taking care of Savannah and Madison. You both are great Moms and I feel confident that you can handle it for me:) It takes a lot of worry off me.

Steph and Jonny O thanks for opening your house and looking after the girls.

Mike thanks for being flexible for the girls. I know it is going to be tough but you can do it.(maybe not as good as me HA)

Day 11 of radiation is come and gone. Praise God for that! I have PT tomorrow after radiation.

Pray for the girls and Mike to continue to get settled.

Pray for me. I have a few things that are bothering me and I hope they are nothing. So tonight if you will give a Praise for getting me to this point and Pray for complete healing please.


Hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I am so behind on everything. I think I may have missed some one's birthday so I am going to check on that right now.

Now that I am by myself I am going to work on me a lot. It is time to kick this cancer in the butt:)

Love Cindy
fighting like a girl

First Day of School

I am putting the girls to bed. Tomorrow is a new day:) Thanks for all your support! Heading home in the morning after I drop the girls off.

Love Cindy

Alexa's decision and we support her

So after our meeting as a family Alexa made the decision to withdraw from school here in Greenville and start school in Charlotte on Monday. Yes I said MONDAY! I tried everything I could to get the county to make an exception. Answer is NO! So I have been running like crazy getting the girls ready. OK so I said GIRLS! This cap on the schools effects all three of them. So Mike and I decided to enroll all of them to get their spots. They all were enrolled 2 yrs ago and it was a wonderful experience. So we will see. Mike is going to have his hands full. He will be taking on working and taking care of the girls. I am going to stay back here and finish my treatments and sell the house. I am so going to miss the girls. I have never been away from them for more than a week. They are going to come home on the weekends. So what do you all think? Are you shocked? I am. It hit me when I saw Alexa's friends crying today. It breaks my heart. My girls have been through so much. Lord please watch over them.

One more thing thrown in my lap! I am being pushed and tested but I am pushing through.


Lord give me the strength.

Day 9 of radiation is done!! I am beat from a very busy week. Pray for our travels tomorrow after radiation. Sending much love!

Lord I Pray that you touch my skin and tissue.

Lord I am sending Praise to you for all my friends who are stepping up and helping out with the girls. I love you all.

Cindy

We had our meeting

This a long and crazy story. So I hope I can explain this right. You all know that the Army transferred Mike. We have the house up for sale. So the plan is move over the summer and get the girls ready for school. Well we had something thrown on our plate. I am so often compared to someone in the Bible and his name starts with a J! Lord give me the strength The county in which we are moving to is over capacity and they are not enrolling anymore students after the 18th of March. They are not giving enough time for families to react. So all along I have been telling my daughter that everything is going to be OK .You are going back to your friends. Well now I have had to tell her that she will have to go to another school that is farther away and start fresh and pick up her life her and leave it behind. Or she can stay here. She has friends, A student, loves her teachers and has a little boyfriend. So what is a girl to do.......

To be continued!


Day 8 went fine. I did not get to see the doctor yet. Thanks for praying and I look forward to Praising God tonight at church for getting me this far.

Cindy

Day 7 Radiation

I finished day 7. I think I see the Dr tomorrow. I have some questions. Why did I get x-rays yesterday and today? It so freaks me out. Is something being hit that is not suppose to or it is just routine? So far I am doing fine. I had PT today. It is a great time because I am trying to keep stretched because radiation tightens the skin. Thanks for praying for me. Pray that radiation does what it is suppose to do and nothing more.

Going to rest

Cindy

ITS THE LITTLE THINGS

I was so not going to post until tomorrow or Monday. Mike is on his way here and we are going to have our family meeting but....


My eyelashes are growing back and I am about to go crazy. I am so excited I can not stand it! I want to jump. I want to sing and dance. Yippee for me. Its the little things that make me happy:)


Have a beautiful weekend
Cindy

Hoorary Yippe Haha....

I am done with Day number 5 and done for the week. Thanks so much to Pat and Sherry for helping this week!

Radiation feels like how you feel after you have been in a tanning bed. It has been 15 years since I have been in one but I remember that feeling. Your skin feels hot. You have that tiny bit of sunburn feel and you have the chills a little because the wind is hitting you. So that is how I feel right now. I am putting pure aloe from health food store on every hour and I am also stretching. Not sure if it is going to help from getting too burnt and loosing the elasticity from my skin but it is worth a shot.

I am having to make big decisions this week about moving and the girls. So please pray that I be lead in right direction. I will blog about it tomorrow.

Thanks for standing with me and fighting for me. You all are the strongest Prayer Warriors and I am glad you are fighting this battle with me. Off to PT now:)

Love Cindy
enjoy the weekend

Radiation Day 3

Another day down:) Thank you for your praying. I love you all.

Praise on my lips and song in my heart.


Pray that my home will sell. I will be by to visit and catch up on every ones blogs soon. Thanks Joy for remembering me.

Cindy

Radiation Day 2

Day 2 of 30 treatments. Well I feel fine. I did take a short nap today. I am trying to keep my strength. I do feel a little sunburned. It has been so cold here so being outside has been very uncomfortable. If you have ever been sunburned and you get the chills that is the way it feels. So I can not imagine how it is going to be if this is only number 2?

I go to my oncologist tomorrow after radiation. So I have bunch of questions. I have not seen her since Dec 31. I will be getting my port flushed. Icky-Yucky- I am such a wimp:)

Thank you for praying for me and walking with me everyday. Praying for complete healing. Praying for protection during this next few weeks.

Love Cindy

Radiation Day 1

Not sure what to think. It does take longer to get set up then the zap itself. I am keeping aloe on the area right now. I figured if I kept aloe, drank a lot of water and stretched maybe it would make it a little easier. I am not sure though? So if you know anything or have some advice for me...speak up:)

Mike is in Atlanta for a meeting this week. My sister-in-law and mother-in-law are here to get me use to my new journey.

Pastor Reggie thanks so much for coming to radiation with me. The Power of Prayer is what I needed so thanks for coming to pray for me.

Thanks to all of you for praying for me and believing. I am praying for complete healing. Lord thank you for giving me everything that you give me. I thank you for everyday.

So continue to pray for me as I start this journey.

Love Cindy
fighting like a girl

Feeling so much better!

I love you all so much. I know that you prayed for me! I will post in the morning. My first radiation treatment is tomorrow at 1:45:)

We had a wonderful time in Charlotte.

Cindy

Feeling Bad

Just a quick request. I have not been feeling well today since this afternoon and it is scaring me. Please pray that I feel better. I am suppose to leave for Charlotte after my Dr apt but I am not sure that I will be able to. My head hurts so bad and I feel very off tonight.

Thanks for praying
Cindy

Happy Birthday Lee over at Prayergifts:)

Hmmmm Hmmmm Hmmmm waiting.....

Well I was waiting to hear from the Dr about when I start simulation before I blogged again. I still have not heard and they said that they would call me Mon or Tues. So of course "little miss bundle of nerves" yes that is me starts thinking maybe something is wrong with my ct scan. You know what I am going to pause and call them.....


OK here we go I have to run after them. So tomorrow at 9am I will get my final marking and go through simulation. Pray for me.

Alexa and I had a great time last week. I was glad the girls got home safely and we have been homeschooling hard this week already. If the weather warms up off to the park with the other Hschoolers in the area:)

Thinking we may hit Charlotte this weekend for quick hey before radiation. Then back on with the pink gloves. Boy I never thought I would be going through this. It was been a rough road but I am fighting hard. I will stop by and visit soon. Looks like a lot of fun things going around. Keep blogging!

Cindy
fighting like a girl

I have a cross in the middle of my chest

I went to the radiation center today. I was measured and marked today. I felt a little weird when a cute, tiny, blond early twenties comes and gets me. Ms Summers? Come with me and put this gown on. She had to fit me for the CT scan. I was thinking "I wonder what she thinking when she is looking at me." I still have some stitches. I am very insure about the double mastectomy still. When I got home to look at the markings I see a cross in the middle of my chest. I took it as a sign that God was with me. I know it must look scary because it still is for me but I am push and fighting on. Thank you for all of your support and praying. Love you dearly.

As for my news. You all know that the Army has transferred us to Charlotte. (if anyone is attending She Speaks remember to let me know) Well since we move so much we have always sold our home by our self. Of course it is different times but I was planning on sticking with it. I had an open house for Realtors. One of the realtors approach me and said she wanted to help me. I thought of course everyone wants to help me. Realtors are hungry so everyone wants to sell me house. She said again no I want to help you! I look at her and said do you know me? She said I talked to your husband and I know you have cancer. She said that I have been passing your house for weeks now and I know that I am suppose to do this. I wish I could do this for everyone but this is the place I need to be. I am looking at her. She said that I want to tell your house for $0. I will not make any commission and the owner will not charge you anything. She said we need to take care of you and sell your house and get you to Charlotte with your husband. So I was brought to tears. So last night she had a stager come and work on my house. It was weird seeing 5 people moving stuff around. Alexa was feeling bad and not too thrilled with what they were doing. Anyway God is good and I can not wait to see what happens.

In the next few weeks I am going to be Paying Forward, Passing on a blog award that was giving to me by Mimi and Cindy(sorry I am behind) and a few Give Aways:) So lets have some fun. Make sure you check back.

My babies come back tomorrow! Miss you Savannah and Madison.

Love Cindy
fighting like a girl

Back tomorrow for markings

I have no idea what is going on or what to expect?? I went to today thinking I was going to get marked but I was wrong. It seems they like to meet with you a few times to talk and examine you. So are they making sure this is what I want? Shoot yes! Lets get this party started. I found out some news though. They told me that I am not a candidate for implants. I was confused because my breast surgeon knew that is what I wanted from the beginning. I did not know about the other option until I met August and Gayla. So he was telling me if I wanted implants that I would have to go through another surgery and wait 4-6months for radiation because my skin would need to stretch. I guess after radiation your skin gets tight and it makes it hard to insert implants. So that was news to me. I have learned a little about having the fat or muscle moved from your tummy and reconstructing to your breast. I may not be saying it correctly? I thought that would put me a risk. I have heard that is wrong. Anyway he said if I did not get radiation it would compromise my therapy. So here I am??? Lord gave me the direction to say OK. So tomorrow I will proceed. Radiation should start the first week in March.

Yesterdays appt: Edie to answer your question. I can not have my blood pressure or shots in my left arm anymore. Nothing medical on that side. I do not have lymphedema in my left arm but I am high risk. So no hot tubs (my is forsale now) no hot showers. No weights or heavy arm swinging. Dont carry anything heavy. She said to get use to not carry my purse on that arm. No tight clothes. Since the lymph nodes filter the lymph fluid. It normally can regulate all of these things we normally do. In my case it cant so I have to care for my arm. I learned how to stretch so that I do not lose range of motion but of course not over do it which can cause lymph edema. The PT was great and very helpful. If anyone has advice feel free:)

I do want to tell you something that happened to me. God is taking care of me. I just want to make sure that I am not being taken advantage of first. Having cancer can make you vulnerable. So tomorrow I will share my story.

Pray for me tomorrow as I go back.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

PS-Nichole you were right I was not alone. As I sat in the room before anyone came in I was quietly praying and when I raised my head I look up at a black and white picture of a pair of hands reaching to the sky letting go of a beautiful blue butterfly. God was showing me that I was STRONG and that I can do this. So he is "cool like that"

Say a prayer

Todays PT appt was fine today. Lots of info to read and lots to learn. I have to learn how to care for myself. Living w/o lymph nodes on my left side. I am glad I went.

Tomorrow I am not sure what to expect. I think they are just going to mark me and get me ready. I am so nervous. This will be the first time that I will be going to the drs alone. Please pray for me. Lord protect me and keep me safe.

Savannah and Madison- I miss you

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Empty Nest

So this feels strange. Well I am not old enough to have an empty nest( it is just temporary) but Savannah and Madison left yesterday to stay with Mike's Dad until Friday. They are having a mini vacation. So I am missing them tons. Mike just pulled off a minute ago to head back to Charlotte. Today was a holiday for them. It was great to see him. The girls loved Valentines with him. He has always took the girls out on dates so they all got their time. Alexa is at school right now. It is just going to be the two of us. We are thinking of checking out a movie or two. I bet you can guess: Confessions of a Shopaholic and Fired up (cheerleading) I just need to see the rate and check them out first. So it will be a girls week around here. We have lots to catch up on. Seeing that she has a crush and they call each other bf/gf. It is the perfect time to chat. Yes Mike is about to die. His first born has a little more love to share other then him:) This leaves me with an empty nest during the days for the rest of the week.

I have an appt with the PT tomorrow. I am having problems with my arm and shoulder. I do not have full range and it is hurting something bad! Wednesday I will go to radiation. I believe I get marked and ready to go for the next week. I am getting nervous. So I am requesting all my Prayer warriors to give me a boost on Wed. Lord please continue to heal me and lead me to Victory.

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend full of love
Cindy

Daddy's on the way

Daddy is the on way home for the weekend!

Giving Thanks

The girls are doing pretty good. Savannah has a touch of a cold so say a little prayer for her.

I wanted this post to thank some people. First I wanted to thank my Mom for everything. I know it has been tuff but having you during my chemo treatments and surgery was wonderful. I wanted to thank my sister for walking the race for a cure several months back. I wanted to thank all my friends and family for their donations. I wanted to thank my girls so much for their positive out look on everything. I am fighting for you! I want so bad to continue to have the awesome privilege of raising you. All three of you make me very proud. I wanted to thank my in-laws for coming to stay with me. I wanted thank my doctors for doing what you do best. I wanted to thank my friends for coming to visit and for all the cards and gifts. You dont know how much it means to get a card. I want to thank all my blog friends. The most Godly women I have ever met before. Each one of you mean a lot to me. The encouragement has pulled me through. The praying has been strong and I thank you. Keep praying when two or three pray together I feel He is with me. Mike thank you for working as hard as you do. Thank you for being positive when I am falling a part. Everyone has been doing their part. I thank you. Last but not least I want to thank GOD! Thank you for bring all these wonderful people in my life. I pray that you protect and bless them all. Sometime today please Praise Him for getting me this far. Please pray that I heal from the surgery and that radiation is effective. Please pray for complete response to all the therapy and allow me to live a life with purpose(Nichole:))


Sending love your way
Cindy
fighting like a girl

Leigh thanks for the card!
August thanks for listening and guiding me!

Mike is safe and girls are fine

This morning was OK. Mike made his way to Charlotte today. It was strange but everything went fine. I figured the girls would be fine the first few days. It seems to be the 3rd or 4th day when it affects them. Thanks for praying for me:)


So today is the first day that I have not been all bandaged up. I saw myself for the first time. It is a wow factor. I can not explain what it looks like. I think the long scar full of stitches is the most overwhelming. It is just another unbelievable experience that I for some reason am having to go through. Thank you for praying for me.

Tomorrow I have a lot of thanking that I would like to do. So it will be all about you.


Miss you Daddy:)
Cindy

Savannah's letter to Daddy

I will love and miss you forever and ever. Have a safe trip Bye P.S. see you in a week

I will miss you-Love you very much much much!

Dear Daddy,
i love you! I will always be your baby. Even though I am not a baby. I will love you forever and I will miss a lot. Hope you have a good trip. Text MG tell her you are using my phone and HAPPY BIRTHDAY and have a good party. Sorry I could not make it. Thanks! I love you very much Have a safe trip! P.S. I will clean up after the sloppy Joes and take care of mommy

Love your best daughter
Savannah

Last Day with Daddy:(

Not too much to blog about today. Mike is leaving for Charlotte tomorrow. The day has been gorgeous. Lots of family time:)


Wishing everyone a day of love
Cindy

Doctor appt

Yesterday's appt went fine. My drains can out and I was happy about this. Now all I have to do is heal from surgery and I can start radiation. I am scheduled to have 30 treatments. My prayer request is to be cancer free. I know they took the lymph nodes out and I had my breast removed(sounds weird) but the fact that the chemo did not kill the cells complete is very unsettling. I need and pray so much for this to work. Continue to pray hard for me.

Next appt is Feb 18 with the radiation. Mike is leaving on Monday. I have my house up for sale. Lots to lift up and pray about.

Praises: Primary cancer gone, successful surgery, lymph nodes removed

Thanks for remembering me always. If you need a bracelet let us know. It seems 2 did not make it again. NH and I think NY


Cindy

The new Savannah and Madison

You all know that I sensitive to hair. They have been begging to get their hair cut. So it was all them and exactly what they wanted.

Its late and your sleeping

Dear Cindy,
Its late and your sleeping and Im thinking about you BIG TIME!!!! Im SOOOO lucky to have found you and was able to start a life with you 18 years ago. You have been my best friend that has always been there for me and our girls no matter what! Im as confussed and concerned as you are now but have peace that you will be ok! You are doing so well with all the test/treatments/surgerys/Dr visits(each one with new news and twist). I couldnt be prouder of you! I know as you are thinking aboout the past and future, you are scared and it must be over whelming! I want you to know that I love,respect, and cherrish you for who you are and who you have been and what its taking you daily to fight off this awfull cancer! emotionaly I try to stay strong,focused and confident.. Sometimes I have taken the trash just to be able to breakdown by myself because I dont want to upset you anymore than you are inside already. I know and the girls know how much you love them! We love you too! Getting my things ready for Charlotte has not been easy, it has just helped me stay busy. I feel so sad yet encouraged for June to get here! We will never have to be seperated again after this final chapter in our Military service!(unless we decide to keep on after feb 2011....) That will be your call at that time! sometimes I have a hard time getting to emotional with you> I want you to be able to feed off my strength and me yours! IM CONFIDENT IN YOUR FIGHT!!!!! you are a good woman and a great friend, and mother and I look forward to growing old with you!!!! As far as your friends, and our families, I want to thank you for being there for us and motivating us and being a support channel. Even though I will be in Charlotte, your always on my mind and never futher than a 4 hr drive! I miss you when your sleeping and Im awake.

Love, Mike

Remember them here...Major changes:)

I will post later today how they look now.

More snow?

They say it may snow again? I wonder...I have been praying for a sign. A sign to let me know where, what or why? Something.

Since I blogged last it has been a few days of confusing and unclear feelings. I did talk to my Dr on Friday. She seem to not be surprised that I had 11 nodes positive. She said since the Dr missed it a year and half ago. She told me that I was not done until radiation and the medicine I have to take is complete. She said that the chemo did work but just did not give me a complete response. It is scary to know that it could be floating around or in the tissue were the lymph nodes were. I did want to make something clear. During my surgery the doctor removed my lymph nodes. I guess I may have not been clear. As far as the surgery I feeling much better. I go back on Thursday to get checked again. Please continue to pray for me by name. I need for this therapy to work. I need radiation to clean up and sterilize my tissue. Please pray for me to be cancer free. Tomorrow I will be going were I will be having radiation. I will be learning what to expect for my next journey.

Thanks so much for leaving me comments. I need to surround myself around Scriptures of healing. Thank you for praying. Praising God for the tumor being gone.

I am trying to stay focused.

Love Cindy
Nicki-thanks for lifting me up on the mountain:)