It's Been A While

I am looking forward to this school year being over! It has been one thing or another. It seems like nothing is going right. Do you ever feel like you can't get a break? Well that is how I feel. I have completely lost focus and it feels terrible.

My results for my genetic testing came in but they can't get me in until the 15th. So I said well why did you call me then?? So on the 15th I will have a better idea of what I am dealing with. I have my next oncology apt on the 5th. I will be going back to Greenville for both of these apts. My prayer for these two days are that the Lord continue to keep me protected. I am praying for my results to be negative so my girls do not have to worry about this ever. I pray that my oncologist can guide me on what is next. How do I build my immune system? I feel like a am having to fight against some of the side effects from radiation. Pray for my body. I have been feeling muscle tighten, swelling in my ankles and sometime it seems like popping in my lungs.

Just a little lost right now. I know you all will know what to say to help me back on track.

Cindy

My birthday pictures

Here I am surprise! Sorry I did not have these sooner. Thanks Teri for taking pictures:)

My Mom and sisters...Stephanie and Sunnie

Stacy and Mary ....Friends from Charlotte....Mary is Madison's second Mama-Thanks for filling in:)

Mimi (my blog friend who surprised me first time meeting her)

Debbie and Me

My sister

My girlfriends since we were all 4 yrs old! Keri and Carrie...We grew up together in Miami and now all live in NC.

Mimi and Nicki (three girly girls) help keep me focused

Sharon and I became great friends because of Savannah and her daughter Madison. Love their entire family

My cousin...single and looking....any takers!

My cousin's mom and awesome friend. She has been a great angel in my kids lives thanks to Jeff (my cousin who is deeply missed)

Me and Carrie (came during treatments to help)

Midi and Me...my girlfriend from HS. We are still very close.(came to help during treatments)

Teri and Me. Thanks Teri for everything you are truly part of the fam!!

Madison(my baby) and Me.....Not sure how Mike and the girls missed the camera???

Great Memories....I am working on my thank you notes now. Thanks for all you support and prayers. God sent all of you to me and I feel so blessed.

Cindy

fighting like a girl

Relay For Life Pictures-No Words Too Many Emotions

Pictures :) Going home to see my kids

Do you remember when I talked about God giving me a sign during one of my apts at radiation and when I went into one of the rooms I looked up and saw this blue butterfly. I love this picture. It seemed whenever I needed some encouragement I was sent in this room.

This is the room I ended up in today. I have been released from radiation until 6mons from now. The dr said that if I am going to have any side effects it will happen in the next 6months.

While I have been home I have been enjoying my roses. I love taking care of them. It is one of my favorite things to do.

The back of my house. Lots of roses everywhere. It was nice to be home.

This what I woke up to on Mothers Day! Did you see me traveling from Charlotte to Greenville????

I will be on my way back to Charlotte in the morning. I have a prayer request. My back has been hurting for about 2 weeks. I am a little worried so if you can pray that God touch me.

Cindy

It was Amazing-Relay for Life

Thanks for all your comments. It was a great show on Friday night. I am in Greenville and I left the camera in Charlotte so I will post pictures over the weekend. You all would have been proud of me. I wore my purple while giving God all the Glory! I even went w/o my wig towards the end of the night. You all know how hard that was for me. So you will get to see some great pictures. Thanks to all of you who came out to support me. Hemby Bridge had a fabulous tent. Thanks for being so great to me and the girls. Ms. Stanley it was great to meet your Mom. She is a fighter! To all the teachers and staff you all are wonderful and you represented your school with honors. I am proud to be a part of HB. I am still fighting like a girl!!

Tonight was awards night at Alexa's school in Greenville. I attended and little did I know she was getting a trophy:) It could not have come at a better time. She is going to be so happy on Friday when I can hand it to her. She just found out that she did not make the squad here in Charlotte. So lots of tears:(

The girls are feeling better and Mike is starting to feel bad so thanks in advance for you prayers.

I went for genetic testing today and I will get the results in 2 months. Pray for my results to come back negative. It will lower my girls risk for this terrible disease.

I owe you all a lot of pictures. So I will be back in Charlotte on Friday to work on that.

I have my radiation follow up on Thursday. Praying that he gives me a good check and that everything is fine.

Nothing on the sell of the house. I am leaving in God's hands!!


Much love
Cindy

Happy Mothers Day Late to all of you wonderful Moms

My first Relay for Life! PURPLE

So today is the day that I have been dreaming of for a while now. It is my first relay for life. I will be walking at 6pm today with my purple survivor shirt on:) I am nervous and excited! My family and friends will be there with me too. All of you in blogland will be with me too. I hold every message, letter, card and call in my heart. This has been a scary journey. So thank you for all your support and prayers. I AM A MIRACLE!

I know that the next 3 yrs are going to be the most risk for me. I am up for the challenge. I love you all. Remember 9 pm lights out with all the candles burning. Light one for me (where ever you are) and say a prayer. Lord continue to HEAL ME. It is working.


Cindy
fighting like a girl

Lost Puppy

So I am in Charlotte still. I am trying to keep up around here. I feel like a lost puppy pulling out me hair. The only thing is my hair is not long enough to pull out:) I am going to ask for a few prayer request. Alexa and Savannah have not been feeling well. Pray for a quick get well.

Alexa has cheer leading tryouts tomorrow. She has worked hard and really wants it. So say an encouraging prayer for her.


I miss everyone and cant wait to catch up on your blogs and catch you up on me.

Cindy
relay for life May 8 & 9

Surprise to me and Praising God for friends and family

Sorry I have not been on in a while but I have been trying to get organized and get the girls on a schedule. I am doing fine. My skin is looking good. I go back to the Dr on the 13th for a check. So I am feeling pretty good. I have been staying busy and I guess so busy that my family and friends had me thinking that I was going to a birthday party for a little girl yesterday....well to my surprise it was my party. I was in shock because I am not one for liking surprises. I must say it was a lot of fun and it was so great to see everyone. I was very emotional. I know all of you have been pulling for me and praying for my daily. I would have pictures today but I did not bring my camera so I will have to wait to get them from my friends.

One of my surprises was I got to meet one of my bloggy friends!! A dream come true. Sorry I do not know how to link yet but it was Mimi. You can go to my side bar and go to her blog to see the pictures. If you have never been there you will be blessed for sure! It was so wonderful. It meant the world to me. She has prayed and followed me from the beginning. I knew immediately when I saw her and her husband. It was too awesome. Of course I feel like I know all about her and her beautiful family. Nicki from Three Girly Girls help set this up so thank you Nicki. Nicki has also helped me stay focused from the start:) Make sure you stop by her blog too. It was neat to see my family who reads when they comment get to meet them.

Thanks again for all the effort everyone! I love you all tons. I hope to have pictures up soon. Thanks for celebrating with me.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Thanks!

Hey there I am in Charlotte and have not been able to get on the computer. I know a lot of you are looking for me. My facebook is gone for now. I received a ugly virus on my computer. So here is my email until I get another made:

micialsa@aol.com


Yes today is my birthday and I am praising GOD for this day!! I am proud to say that I am 38:)

Thanks for all your support and love.

Giving God all the Glory, Honor and Praise!!

Cindy
fighting like a girl

THE WINNER IS.......

MY ADHD ME

Let me know what your initials and address are so I can send you your car monogram:)

Love Cindy

New Graduate of Radiation 101

Finally finally finally!! The radiation machine was fixed over the weekend. So on Friday I was treated on a different machine and then yesterday and today I finished. Hallelujah!! Of course the doctor was in a procedure so I have to go back in the morning to get released until I see him again in 4 weeks. Oh well. I made it. A little over 7 months. Can you believe it. Yes that was the key to this all. Even when I could not see or did not know what direction to turn. BELIEVING was the answer.

Thank you Lord for getting me through 6 chemo treatments, thank you for getting me through a double mastectomy and removal of my lymph nodes, and thank you for getting me through 30 radiation treatments. Giving you all the Glory.

Thanks to all my family and friends. Thanks to all my blog friends for guiding me and keeping me focused. Thanks to my girls for telling me that I was beautiful and that I was the coolest Mom with my bald head. Thanks to my husband for loving me.

Continue to pray for me to heal and detox my body. Now it is time to celebrate. If you have not left me a comment on my giveaway you still have time. I will pick the winner tomorrow at 9pm.

The girls are doing great!

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Laurie and Tracy did you get your koozie?
Cindy waiting for my order still:)

GIVEAWAY TIME-I Love Monogramming

Well the radiation machine is still broken. I have never heard such a thing. They are hoping to be able to treat me tomorrow. So we will see. Mike and the girls are traveling tomorrow to come home. So I am super excited. I was wanting to celebrate being done with radiation with another giveaway so I am going to continue. So here we go. Monogramming on the car is very popular here. I think it is very cute. So all you have to do is leave me a comment for one entry and mention it on your blog for another entry. Thanks so much for all your support. It means so much.

Continue to pray for me during these next few days. I know that God is in control and I will follow.

Happy Spring Break

Cindy

fighting like a girl

How do you deal with stress?

I go and buy a wig:) So what if I cant go to radiation today!

RADIATION MACHINE IS BROKEN:(

I am getting ready to walk out the door when the phone rang. Mrs. Summers our radiation machine is down. It will be down all day because they are flying in parts from somewhere else. Oh and not sure if it will be ready tomorrow. We will let you know. AARRRRGGGGHHH....NO NO NO NO I wanted to be done on Friday. This a real bummer. I did go to the gym though and walked an hour so I could chill out.

Be back later

3 more days of Radiation

I am a walking drug store right now. What am I using? Well I am using pure Aloe (not the green or blue we always use after we go to the beach) because it does not have alcohol. I have learned that the other stuff actually dries out your skin. So try pure aloe from the health food store it is a great healer. I use polysporin on the parts that are raw. I use vitamin E pills (pop them and pour on the skin) and cooling lotion without parabins (toxic chemicals). I also am stretching and trying to fight the tighten of my skin. It is a lot but I rather do more than not enough. Continue to pray for me during this last week.

3 more days, 3 more days! I cant say that enough today.

The girls are coming here on Thursday and I am so excited. Thank goodness for Spring Break:)

Friday will be time to celebrate so I will have a giveaway. So pop back and help me celebrate the end of a long 7 months. I know that I still have a long time ahead of me but it is nice to see the end of this chapter. Racing to the finish line and fighting like a girl.

I love you Mike, Alexa, Savannah and Madison Belle

You would have thought I have been somewhere tropical

First off I just got home today from seeing my girls! It was a fun weekend. They all look great. Thanks to all my family and friends for helping out. Without you ALL I would be having a much harder time here. Mike you are doing a great job.

So now it is time to celebrate only 4 days left of radiation. I am so sunburned and I can not even say that I have been to some exotic and tropical island. Oh well I will just pretend. One thing that they told me is that it will keep burning for sometime after because of the accumulation. I was not happy to hear about that. So just say a little prayer for my body to heal from all of this.

First showing of my house. Come on buyers get out there!

I know that I have missed bunches of calls in the last few weeks. Sorry between radiation, PT and the gym I have had little time. The dogs have filled in the rest of my resting time. Spoiled little monsters.

Have a wonderful day I am looking for the finish line:)

I LOVE YOU ALEXA, SAVANNAH AND MADISON

Your blog is Fabulous Award

So here are the rules: Copy and paste the rules and instructions in your post. When posting on receiving the award, make sure you include who gave you the award and link it back to them. Post five winners and link back to them as well. Post FIVE of your addictions. Add the award image. Let your winners know you gave them an award by leaving them a comment on their blog.

I know this is way over due:) Thanks to Cindy at Consider It All Joy and Mimi at Mimi's Memories I can pass this on to blogs that I think are FAB!

Five addictions :

1) Spreading the WORD

2) Shopping with or for my girls

3) Blogging/Blog Friends

4) Chocolate covered Strawberries

5) And Last Being Cancer Free

(I have no idea how to link back so here we go)

And now I must pass this on:

Three Girly Girls

Living My Life On Purpose

Our Journey

Prayer Gifts

The Patterson 5

Make sure you stop by and check these Godly Women who have been a wonderful support in my life from day one:) Congrats to you all!!!

Of course I love you all as you can see that I follow you often. Mimi and Cindy thanks for walking this journey with me from the beginning.

Sorry I did not post this weeks giveaway but I will next week. I have been pretty uncomfortable with my burn but 6 more treatments to go. So continue to pray for me. Tomorrow is Friday and you know what that means. My turn- off to Charlotte after PT to see my three babies.

Love Cindy

fighting like a girl

Random fun pictures-Day 22 OUCH

Madison cheering on her sister! Savannah taking sailing lessons last summer-so cool

Alexa's game

Alexa's 1st place competition!

Fun weekend

Here they are after tons of hugs and kisses! Saying bye until Friday:)

Apostle Hope Carpenter

Church was awesome tonight. The guest speaker was Hope. Her husband has a big church in SC. She really spoke to me tonight. She reminded us that God does not always work the way we want Him to. That He is always good. She reminded us how important it is to study the Word. She said we have do what His word says and live by it everyday. To be obedient. She said to know what God promises and follow His guidance. She said to wake up everyday waiting on the devil so we are not surprised. She said to become more intimate with God by reading His covenant which is our agreement. We need to read it for ourselves and not hear it from others. I encourage you to start a daily journey of building a relationship with Him. I will pray for you:)

AS I stood at the alter, Hope placed her hands on me while praying for continuing healing I sang this words. It was amazing.
Love Cindy-fighting like a girl


You hold my every momentYou calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fireAnd heal all my disease
I trust in YouI trust in You
I believe You’re my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You’re my Portion
I believe You’re more than enough for me
Jesus, You’re all I need
My HealerYou’re my Healer
Nothing is impossible for YouNothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for YouYou hold my world in Your hands
Jesus, You’re All I NeedJesus, You’re All I Need

AMEN