Sorry it takes me a day to recover from the Dr

My apt went fine. She told me that I looked good and that she would see me in 3months. She talked to me about the "what now" My chances of it coming back is 30-50%. I think I flooded the room. While I am trying to listen and make note I could hardly see her with the tears streaming. It is so hard to hear that. I have come so far but then I think it has only been a year. I have such a long road ahead. So yesterday and the first half of today I hid in my room and slept. I woke up to a text from a friend. He said he was going through a lot and felt selfish that it was bothering him when my issues were heavier. I guess we all need to stop when we are feeling down and be thankful because some has it worse. So I picked my depressed tail up and headed for the gym. I kept thinking that she did not tell me that it was back or that I was dying right now. Thanks for the words J. Sometimes it just takes me a bit to get it together. The other issue I have to work on is the one thing my Dr said that I can control. Healthy living- eating and exercise. She wants me to get into shape and lose the weight. Cancer loves fat:( So I need to maybe try to start something or join another blog so I can be held accountable. So much for now. Thanks for reading and caring!


Cindy
fighting like a girl

1 yr doctor apt

Getting ready to go have my 1yr check up

Recruiting- To do or not to??

I remember when my husband wanted to try recruiting. Our first daughter was only one. I knew nothing about it. The things I did not know. The hrs were sooooo long. He was home at night so I am not complaining but it was a tuff out there. Doors slammed in your face, parents calling you every name they could come up with. My favorite the HS girls falling for their recruiter. I have seen it all. So what do you think? Have you been a recruiter, spouse of a recruiter or thinking about it? I have 12 yrs experience as a spouse to usarec. Just curious your thoughts.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

ARMY BRATS AND ME: Cindys Status

ARMY BRATS AND ME: Cindys Status

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. IT HAS BEEN A YR SINCE I HAD MY SURGERY. I HAVE DONE SO GOOD THIS LAST YEAR. OF COURSE THEN I WAS NOT SURE I WAS GOING TO BE ABLE TO BLOG ABOUT IT TODAY. ITS WEIRD. THE FEELINGS YOU GO THROUGH BEFORE DURING AND AFTER A MASTECTOMY. I FELT ONE WAY AT ONE TIME AND NOW I AM NOT SURE. HOW DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD FEEL OR HANDLE ALL OF THESE DECISIONS THAT ARE I AM GOING TO BE Confronted WITH? RECONSTRUCTIVE SURGERY IS A BIG DECISION. THE CRAZY THING IS THERE ARE SO MANY WAYS YOU CAN GO. AS LONG AS YOUR A CANDIDATE FOR IT. IN THE WEEKS TO COME I WILL HAVE SOME VERY IMPORTANT APTS. 2010 WILL BE MY YR OF FIRSTS. I AM NOT COMPLAINING. I HOPE TO SEE SECOND AND THIRD AND YA KNOW AS LONG I CAN. THANKS SO MUCH FOR PRAYING FOR ME. CHEERS TO YOU AND TO ME FOR MAKING IT TO MY YR ANNIVERSARY. LOVE THE COMMENTS:)

Cindy

fighting like a girl

TLC One Big Happy Family

Has anyone seen this show? It is about a family of 4 weighing between 300-400lbs each. It shows their everyday normal life. The good and bad to being overweight. The show is about their journey to lose weight together by eating right and exercising. They are doing this without professional help or trainers. I has only been on a few times now. So if you have not seen it check it out. It was been funny seeing them drive down the street and walking in the neighborhood. It has been exciting to see people I know on the show. And you ask why??? Well remember I told you that I was staying with my sister until I sell my house. The family is on our street. I kid you not. It is like have Jon and Kate plus eight (when they first started out) My kids are turning into stalkers. I don't think they have asked to ride their bikes so much:) So we are super interested in seeing how they do with their weight loss. The other night I was driving out of the neighborhood and I saw the big CNN truck so yes I was curious. So I found out that they were about to be on Larry King Live. Too funny. I will you let you know if one of my family members get a clip. So I guess The Summers' are I don't know fans of the new celebrities:) Let me know what you think. Tonight on TLC.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Things we take for granted...

Sometimes it is the smallest things. Do you know what LYMPH NODES are? I had heard of them. I knew the Dr always checked them when you go for you appointments. I guess I just took them for granted. They do so much for the body. My LN were removed on my left axilla. Which is under my arm on the same side of the cancer. I hope you are tracking. Anyway anytime you hurt your arm or exercise or do something that causes stress the LN know what to do. How can these little tiny things do so much??? Well now I know. My left arm is in so much pain. My two arms that belong to me don't match. It really looks like two different peoples arm. I am not sure that it ever gets better. It is hard to wear clothes because it is too tight. It looks terrible in a short sleeve top. It is just plain painful. So today be thankful for those little LN in your body. They are working hard to keep the Lymph fluid run thorough your body. I miss mine:( BUT I am thankful for what I do have and don't take any of it for granted.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Pray for Savannah she is sick family member #2 Mike is #1

Prayer request for a breast cancer sister

I received a comment not too long ago and it tore my heart open. Yet another women has been diagnosis with this terrible disease. I would like everyone to take a few minutes and say a prayer for her. It is so tuff. Her last chemo treatment is on the 15th. Which to someone who is going through treatment is like the best thing ever. So congrats to you Cindy. You are almost there. Be strong. Fight as hard as you can. Surgery and radiation is a breeze to the chemo. I am praying for you. I know you are scared. I have been there. I AM THERE. I am there everyday of my life. I am almost at a year since my surgery and I know that I am high risk for the next several years. I pray that God walks with me every step. If you need anything let me know. Blogging has been amazing. My followers pulled me through. I needed them so much and they were there. My prayer for you is fight like a girl and be healed completely. Thanks to you all for praying for her.

Cindy
fighting like a girl