Friday, November 28, 2008

Day 15-Praising and giving thanks always

Doing fine. I will be back on Monday. I am going to spend some time taking care of the house. I need to be prepared to be down starting Friday. I have chemo and it seem to keep me down longer this time. So I love you and look forward to catching up on your blogs this weekend and week.

Take care and I hope you had a wonderful day.

Much love

Thank you for a great day.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Day 14

Happy Thanksgiving
My counts are back up and I am thankful
Much love
fighting like a girl

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Day 13-Many tears fell last night but I am feeling better:)

I am slowly feeling better. I am so thankful for days like this. It sure is scary sometimes. I had a week planned of thanking everyone and involving the children with my blog...But I am just so tried and run down. So here goes a short version with a big heart of love:

I am sending wishes for families everywhere to enjoy your families (even if you normally don't), reach to someone who may need a hug, share with someone why you are thankful for them, call someone who you may have been on the outs with, smile at someone you don't know, pray for someone who may not know the Lord,be kind to yourself and enjoy tomorrow!

I am sooooooo thankful for all of you. I do not think I have seen a better example of God's love spreading around this world like this blog circle. I am so lucky to have found you and we know that this was in the plan. Please join with me in Praising God for all of things He has given me. You are a part of me forever and I am forever grateful. Please know that I am praying for all of you and thank you for sharing when you do. Thank you women on the west coast, Alexa is happy making bracelets. Thank you for loving me and my family. Love Cindy(Fighting Hard)


Monday, November 24, 2008

Day 11-Praise with me

Thank you for all your quick and constant praying. I am feeling so much better today. Two full days of antibiotics and coast to coast prayer is what this sick girl need.

Yesterday was very scary. All of the sudden I just started feeling like the flu hit me harder than I have ever had. When I called in to talk to the Dr about my fever she wanted me to go to the hospital. I felt so bad I told her I was scared to go because I thought I would catch something going to the ED. So she called me in two antibiotics and told me to rest. Today when they called to check on me she said that if I had a fever while on the antibiotics that I would go to the hospital and would not have a say. I said fair enough.

I knew that I could count on all of you for covering me with thoughts and prayers. I am praying that I continue to feel better everyday.

I am still a little weak. Lord please let me get through this. Thank thank thank everyone. Thank you for fighting with me. I love you all.

Dear Heavenly Father thank you for giving me the strength to fight yesterday. Thank for sending me all of these prayer warriors. I am giving it all to you. I love you. Amen

I am thankful for you
shooting for better days

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Day 10-Quick prayer

I am sick with the flu! I am not feeling well and have a temp. I am requesting for lots of quick praying. Dr wants me to go to the hospital but is letting me take some antibiotics she called and in and rest first. If I do not get better I guess I will be taking my first trip to the ED.

I am off to rest knowing that you have this for me. Lord thank you for my PW.


Friday, November 21, 2008

Day 8-Counts low:(

Well they are not zero. They are 1. So home bound for now. Tired and feel like I might be coming down with a cold.

Please pray that I stay healthy so they don't have to back off on any dates. I am too close to run into problems now.

I need to rest but I wanted to thank everyone for making Madison's day a great memory.

Praying for everyone to stay warm and cozy.

the snow was wonderful today

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Celebrating My Baby

Madison making a wish! Happy Birthday sweetie.

Madison loves babies.

Mommy and Madison with our new dog. He is begging right now.

Two tired girls right here.

As you can see God is good! I was able to hang in all day. Madison loved all the attention from all of you. Thanks for the cards and emails and celebrating all over your blogs. It has been great. I sure am ready to crash tonight. Thank you so much for all your hard praying. I was able to enjoy all the excitement. I love you all. Tomorrow is white count day. Sending love all over.
Happy Mommy
Madison's birthday!!!!


Some fun pictures of Madison in the last year or so. Pictures later from our celebration! One proud Mommy.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Day 6-Drained

Thank you for all the Scriptures and emails! You have been called and you have answered. I am forever thankful.

Hoping tomorrow will be the day that I am up and about. I am resting. It has been a rough few days. I will be getting my white counts checked on Friday.

Emotionally it has taken a toll on me. As I cried in the evenings wondering how can I do this My husband continued to tell that there is no option. That I am doing fine and to continue on. I kept responding with I am human and I am scared. It is such a terrible feeling. I have probably said to my children more than enough. Mommy can't right now but as soon as I feel better I will. It is frustrating. I do understand that it is going to take all I have to fight and conquer.

Thank you for praying as I rest. Thank you for being a loyal friend. There are wonderful things happening and more to come.

Praying for strength
Love Cindy
1 day Madison will be 8 (she is so excited that this house my not sleep tonight)
Miss you Jeff

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Day 5-trying to drag myself up

Taking longer to pop back. Thank you for your commitment to me.

Pray for me to up and able to celebrate Madison's birthday on Thurs.

Off to rest-Lord thank you for sending me all these prayer warriors!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Day 4- Struggling and weak

I am trying hard to get up when I can. These meds can really take a hold of you. I am looking forward to better days to come. I will rest when my body says.

I am very uncomfortable right now. It seems to be the routine. I know that it will get better. It has been hard to not be able to play and teach the girls the last few days. I am lucky to have family that has jumped in and helped. So thank you.

Thanks Mimi for my card. Nicki thank you for spreading and sharing your friends. I will be by to visit their blogs soon to thank them.

Wishing you all well
3 days Madison will be 8

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Day 3

Just resting. Not feeling very well today. Pray for this to pass.

Thank you for all your support!


Saturday, November 15, 2008

Day 2-Tired but hanging in there

Thanks so much for all you support. Nicki thanks for sharing my story. It is so nice and comforting to see how many people care. It really drives me on.

I rested a lot today. I am on so may meds right now so I feel up and down. I am feeling better than last time today. So one day at a time for me.

Chemo went fine yesterday so now I can praise Him and say only 2 to go. Thank you Lord. Nichole thanks for calling. Cindy thanks for my bear, Pat thanks for my cross. August thanks for all your time.

You all are serving well. Thank you for praying for me. I feel covered completely. My turn will be coming soon. I am learning a little each day and it becomes more clear.

I had some of you ask for my PO box:

POBOX 20583
Greenville NC 27858

Praying for rest and strength to get through.
Love Cindy
5 days Madison will be 8

Mom thanks for coming! John and Monia thanks so much for being to help.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Me again!

It's amazing to me how so many people are praying for Cindy and thinking about her each day in so many places. I'm not one to take things for granted, So I always tell myself that it could always be worse. I often think about the past,present and future. I cant imagine the past being as great as it has been because of all of YOU! I cant imagine Cindy not communicating with each of you via , blog,email and phone. Each of you reading have made this a bit easier to cope with knowing that there is great people surrounding us as a family. I'm so grateful to ALL of you! For each of you to take the time to call, type and send cards to someone you haven't even met is amazing. Think about the ladies 50 years ago who were all alone going thru something like this. I also thank my Co-workers and the Army chain of command in being there for me as well. I know now why I'm still serving after 18 years! I want to thank Our immediate family, Dad, Monia, mom, steph,Jon, grand mommy, sherry,sue, ken, U tom and family and all the rest of the gang. I shouldn't of started that because the list is to long to type and not nearly all have been mentioned. I thank our neighbors for all they have done! I thank each person praying for Cindy. I thank each person who thinks of her often and is kind to her and the girls. I look forward to our future and being able to met each of you. I think we should plan a party for summer 09 and get everyone in the same place for a couple of days. THANKS AGAIN FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!! ALL YOU GUYS AND GALS ARE GREAT!!!!!!

Day 1 Just got home

I am done and I am glad to be home. Back to the yucky taste to my mouth. I did fine thou. The doctor said that she could barely feel the lymph node. So it seems to be getting smaller. Praise for that!

She talked a lot about the future. Next treatment is Dec 5 and then Dec 31. I will have my surgery around the 14th of Jan. Then radiation will begin 3-6 weeks after. That will last for about 8 weeks. Reconstructive surgery will be 6mos after that. So still a long road. She also told me a lot about what can happen and why. So it is just going to be part of my life for a long time.

That's all for now off to rest. Love you and continue to pray for me

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Day 21- Last day Calling all prayer warriors wearing pink

I had a wonderful day! I have already taken my meds and I am ready for tomorrow. I need you and depend on you to push and pull me through.

Wear your pink and wear your bracelet. I love you all. Pray hard that I get a good result and that I do not have a reaction to the chemo. It is always so scary not knowing. Thanks for your commitment. You will never know how much it means to me.

Yes I am nervous but I will drive on. My prayer tonight is to stay focused and for God to protect me and never leave me.

My inlawas are here and my Mom is coming tomorrow. Thank you God for making that a part of your plan. There is a plan and I will follow.

Sweet Dreams and Pray
7 days Madison will be 8

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Day 20-Good day

Well I counted back and it has been 62 days since I started treatment. That means I am halfway done with this part. I am praying that my body is prepared for this next treatment and that my body is reacting to the chemo and killing the cancer cells.

Thanks for all you comments and support. Thanks for your calls, cards and prayers. It means so much. Thanks to all the ladies out in Washington! I love you all too. It seems when I am feeling bad a call or a card comes in right at time I need it the most.

I hope everyone is well and I am thinking of you all. Lee I am praying for you and family. Nicki I hope you are OK? Nichole I am praying that you bless someone on Friday.

Off to study with my girls. Love Cindy
8 days until Madison's birthday

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Thank you Babe

Happy Veteran's Day
Thank you for your faithful service
I love you

Day 19

Yesterday I was fine. I just got busy and my Aunt came by to visit from Wilmington. So we stayed up catching up. I was so tired last night so I crashed.

This morning I am feeling good. I look forward to the last week. I hope it is always this way. The only thing is the anxiety. I start getting nervous going through the treatment. I have thoughts that start running. So pray for me to be more relaxed this week.

Next treatment is Nov 14
5th treatment Dec 5
6th treatment Dec 26

Pray for complete healing. One thing that I know that I want is a life with purpose-thanks to a friend.

Praying for a wonderful day
Love Cindy
9 days til Madison's 8th birthday

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Day 17-Fun

My sister and Me!!


My sister Stephanie and all the girls having fun. Steph love my hair on your head.

Of course Carson does not want his picture taken. I did get one eye. HA

Savannah and MG waking up. They are having a good hair day.

Getting ready to go to be in the Tepee.

Savannah trying to get with the luggage before our family takes off. We would miss her.

Jonathon(BIL) and my nephew Carson-I guess the Panthers are playing today??

Madison and her cousin Breeanna-Saying goodbye to her Best Friend Forever.

Savannah saying goodbye to best friend before they get on the road.:(

Stephanie and Cindy with the kids! NOT!

Mike and Jonathon trying out my wigs.

Thanks for a fun weekend. Love ya! S and S thanks for letting MG jump in the car. We love you all.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Day 16

Having a fun weekend with the family. The girls are playing hard with the cousins. We hit the park and played. I have felt good but I am so tired tonight. Thanks for your continuing support.

Thanks Nichole and June! I love everything. Wishing everyone a wonderful night.

If you want to be blessed check out my friends blog. If you have a prayer request or would like to join in lifting someone up who needs it.

Sweet dreams

Friday, November 7, 2008

Day 15 white count good- Send your Praise up

My white count is back up to 6. Red count and platelets are good too. So thank you for all your prayers. I could not do this without each of you. I love all the cards. I love all the encouraging words. I love that you are sharing my story. I love hearing about your stories, following your blogs, seeing pictures of your families and praying for you.

I have been thinking a lot about the next treatment. I am a little intimidated because this one was a little more powerful. I have been spending more time praying to be healed. I pray that the chemo works and that I can not feel the lymph node anymore. Thank you for being a faithful prayer warrior. I look forward to hearing from you and gives me a lot of HOPE! Thanks Emily, Pat and Carol!

More bracelets will be going out next week. Have a wonderful weekend. My sister is coming to visit tonight and I am looking forward to it.

Love Cindy

Please pray for Leebird's brother-in-law. She has been a wonderful support to me. Thank you

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Day 14

Getting my white count checked tomorrow. I felt pretty good today. The girls and I ate lunch at the park and then went to the pet store. They have been asking to go for about a week now. We were gone for about an hour and half. All I heard was how much fun and how thankful they were to get out. So that was fun.

Last night we had a lot of fun. My neck hurt for a while this morning so you can figure that some of my girls stayed all night. It was worth it thou. I think Alexa knew her bed was going to be much more comfy then mine. Madison and Savannah were so crashed this morning. It was too cute.

Lee I am praying for your family! Wear that bracelet with lots of love. Yvonne, Sharon, Cindy,Pat and Sherry thanks for my cards.

Thanks for all your prayers. I do feel them! Giving praise for another nice day.

Love Cindy
14days til Madison is 8

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Day 13-Feeling fine

Feeling good and I want to thank everyone for praying for me. Thanks for believing that I can do this. I am so thankful for days like this.

I have a meeting in my bed tonight with the family. We are hanging out watching TV and enjoying each other. Wish me luck 5 in a King size. The girls are looking forward to snuggling. Sweet dreams I need to take advantage of these times when I am feeling well.

Praying for all of you and your families
Love Cindy
15 days til Madison's bd

I am coming to visit all your blogs this weekend. Miss everyone!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Day 12 halfway with #3

So I had a good day. I actually cooked dinner!! I was so excited.

The girls came back today and had a nice time. My inlaws are leaving tomorrow and will be back next week in time for chemo. Yuck. Mike is off Sat-Tues:) Thanks for serving our country Babe!

Bragging corner- Alexa made all A's. After all that she is going through she was still able to handle her studies. I am a proud Mama.

Lots of random stuff I know you all can tell when I am excited. I probably don't make a lot of sense and the simplest thing makes me so happy.

I have so much to be thankful for. Sharon thanks for all the scriptures. All my blog friends thanks for being so good to me. Laurie I am so glad you have a bracelet. All you Oregon and Washington supporters I am sending my love your way. Thanks for praying for me. When I am weak I know that I can count on you to pray.

I am just happy and grateful today. So as always I want to give up for our awesome God.

Sending love to all

Thanks for wearing my bracelets. If you ever need a replacement just let us know. I have been wearing the same one since day one. Thanks Alexa- I choose to BELIEVE!




Monday, November 3, 2008

Day 11 I am back!

Thank you Sweet Jesus!! Sometimes it just takes a little time to get back on track. I love to go back and read cards, letters and comments to put me in check.

Without Him I am nothing and with Him I am everything. I had a wonderful day. Please Praise Him for being patient with me and for using each of you to help me when I am weak.

When I started blogging I was updating my friends and family on my life as a soldiers wife. I make friends all over as we move around. So it makes it easier for them to keep up with us. I never thought that I would have been blogging for therapy, for support, guidance and advice. I look back at things now and know that God was preparing me for this journey. Deciding to blog (thanks Nicki) and deciding to home school the girls this year. Since Savannah and Madison are at home it prevents a lot of germs from entering the house. It all makes since. The beautiful thing about blogging is all of you. There is someone out there that will follow my footsteps someday and when they think they can not do this one more day I can tell them you WILL and you CAN because I will hold your hand. There maybe someone out there that is going through something may just not be that big of a deal and shake it off. What about someone that needed to see this world is full of the most loving compassionate people that they have ever seen. Do you know that most of my sweet blog friends I have never met before. So reach out if you need someone. Sometimes things are not as bad as they seem. Thank you for praying for me.

Loving today and looking forward to tomorrow. Thanks for my cards John, Terri, Nikki,Pat, Cheryl, Jessica and Jacqui! Conya thanks for getting me out today!

In His Arms:)
17 days until Madison BDay

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Day 10

I had a pretty good day today. My girls (Savannah and Madison) went to the mountains for a couple of days with my inlaws. Mike and I sent the day with Alexa. We played Disney trivia on the Wii. We had a blast. Sometimes it so nice to just forget about everything and have fun.

I believe tomorrow will be my first time by myself without anyone. Alexa will be at school and Mike will be working about an hour from here. So I should get a lot of quiet time with God to get focused and make a good plan for my next go around. I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out my body and how I can make this easier on me. I am not sure if I did something a little different or is it just the more you get the more that your body is hit. I can not wait until the day that I can not feel my lymph node. I have only been able to feel one all along. So of course I check everyday hoping not feel it.

Pray for my body to continue to heal. Pray for my body to detox and get ready for the next go around on the 14th. Thank you for you commitment to my journey. Love to all Cindy

Dear Heavenly Father please protect me and heal my body completely. Praising you for the good day today. Thank you for Mike, the girls, family and friends- Amen!

Count down to Madison's birthday
18 days

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Day 9

Feeling better today. Thanks for all the encouragement. I hope everyone has a wonderful day of rest. I plan on it.

Continue to pray for my body to heal and get prepared for another round on the the 14th of Nov.

Lots of love

Kaele thanks for the picture you drew for me. I love it!

3 down 3 to go:)