Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I want to take a few minutes and tell you how much it has meant to me to have all of my family behind me. You have jumped in and helped with the kids, cooking, cleaning and laundry. You have lived in my house and left yours behind without questioning it. You have sat with me during long chemo visits. You have driven me to doctors appt and to fill scripts. And most of all you have watched me from the beginning hear news and results that have brought me to my knees with screams and tears that have changed my life forever.
To my friends that have known me for a long time. I know it has been hard. What to say? How to act? What to do? You have been great. I love you and thank you for coming and helping out. You are a true friend.
To my blog friends. You have been with me since the beginning. You have committed to walk with me in this journey. You have kept me focused. You have prayed when I could not. You knew when I needed you. You have served our God well. You will be blessed. My wish is to meet you all someday. I love you and I am so grateful to all of you.
Mike, Alexa, Savannah and Madison as I write this I begin to cry. I can not imagine how it must feel to see your Mommy sick. I know it has been scary. I know it is hard to fight the thoughts. I love you all so much it hurts. It is a privilege and honor to hear you call me Mommy. Everyday is a blessing with you. Always remember that I will love you forever. Mike I know it has been hard to work and take over everything that I have been to doing to make our family run. I know that you are exhausted and drained. Even thou I know you are sad but you don't show it. I am OK with it. Thank you for being strong at night when I am falling apart. Thank you for loving me and saying that I am beautiful when I am so vain. I love you!
Wear your pink, wear you bracelets and leave me a comment. It is time to celebrate and start a New Year. If have not left a comment or do not know how it is easy. Click on inspiring words and type away in the box, type verify word and hit anonymous if you do not have an account. I want to here from you and I need it.
FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I hope everyone has a Happy New Year. I am looking forward to being healthy and cancer free. If anyone would like to added to my text during chemo tomorrow email me your cell firstname.lastname@example.org
Praying for healing
ps lee I wanted to share my letter but it coming strange and will not let me do it?
Monday, December 29, 2008
We just got home last night. Yes I did say that. We went to Charlotte for a quick trip. We left Friday late morning. The girls were sick off and on all last week and weekend. So we are off to the dr's at 2 today. But anyway we spend Fri with Mike's family and Sat with mine. I will post pictures later my computer is still not working. Everyone had a lot of fun. Sat I had tons of visitors so thanks Stephanie and Jon for opening your house to all my friends. It was fun and tiring all in one to see everyone. People I saw:
Nicki from three girly girls-She came by and sat with me for a while. Thanks Nicki for coming by and look forward to seeing you when I am back. Nicki and I were neighbors which turned into great friends and bible study pals. Love ya girl. Teri came by to see me. We also became friends after living in the same neighborhood. We sat around and ordered tupperware with the girls.She is always there for me. It was tons of fun. Love ya girl! My girlfriend from Miami Keri which now lives in NC. It was great to see her. I know it has been hard for her to see me sick. We have known each other since before school days. So I was happy to see her. Love you. Mary and Nicholas came to see Madison and me. She was Madison's K teacher. We became friends and we love her baby. She has been a huge support to Madison when we moved. She has also been positive and Strong for me when I was falling. We love your family very much. Check out her blog and you will see pictures of our visit. (it is on my sidebar The Camp Fam)I saw my girlfriend Carrie. She was the one that just left here. It was great to see her. My girls love her and got really attached when she was here. Love you girl. Then I met Gayla she has been leaving comments on my blog for a while now. She is a breast cancer survivor for 15 yrs. She was very open with me and shared info and answered lots of questions. So it was great to finally meet. Love ya. Of course it was great to see everyone and I hope I did not forget anyone. Please know that it was fab.
My Savannah was with her best friend for the weekend. She is like our 4th daughter we love her and it was great to see them together. Sharon thanks for loving my family and look forward to building our relationship. Love ya.
Nikki (cousin) thanks for playing with the girls. It was great to see you. Love ya
When my computer is up I want to show you my ornaments. They are treasures so if you are still going to do it please do. They can come anytime. I love them.
Bracelets-I am happy to say that a few more have finally made it after a week or so of mailing. Praise!
Well it was a great time even with the fevers and coughing. It is time for me to get well and ready for Wed. Can you believe it. One more. I am going to pause and I hope you do right here and pray for me to be healed completely.....Amen! I am so happy that I have all of you. Thank you for letting me be honest. It has been a hard road and still a lot to go but I truly BELIEVE I could not have done it with out YOU and the PRINCE OF PEACE! Love all of you.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I love you. My family and Mike's thanks for everything. Breeanna and Carson love you.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Someone is taking Alexa's bracelets out of the cards. This is very upsetting so let me know if you receive one. We mailed about 15 of them last week. So far one made it. I know of 2 that the card made it with a slit in it. So please pray that the next bunch make it. I need to make a trip to Micheals and I guess I will start paying insurance. Please give us some time. She really wanted you to have them by Christmas. Sorry
I am very frustrated
Monday, December 22, 2008
Tomorrow we will celebrate her birthday so I will post her party.
Wishing everyone a wonderful night.
Savannah has a doctor appt this morning. So I will let you know how things are going.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Off to the Dr tomorrow.
Savannah will be 10 tomorrow!
Thank you for praying ( I feel awesome today I just feel so bad that Savannah has been so ill)
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Lots of bracelets are in the mail as of today. Thank you for wearing them. I will give a list of states Monday so we can see what we need to cover. Nicki I saw you have a friend in IN will see if they would like to wear a bracelet for her state? Thanks so much for helping. Also I am receiving the coolest ornaments. They mean the world to me. I will take a picture in the next few days to show them off.
Praising today and everyday. Still BELIEVING!
2 days until my blue eyed Savannah is 10
Friday, December 19, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
About the She Speaks Conference: I have been waiting for the right time to tell you about my news. I told you about Mike making the promotion list a while back. Well we were told that when it was time to move that we would have to move out of the southeast this time. So we were concerned because of my medical needs. We knew that it would be hard for family to help being too far north or too far west. I just pushed it to the side and said I was not going to worry about it. So not too long after that Mike received a call with a position in Charlotte, but in order to take the position he had to move in Feb with or without me. After talking about it we decided that this is part of the Plan. Most of our family is in Charlotte. So we just put the house up for sale this week. We are not sure with the housing market how long it will take but it is God's hand so I will wait. So I will stay back with the girls and finish treatment, Alexa will finish school and we will wait for the house to sell. I am so excited. What I am extremely excited about is that I will be getting the chance to meet a lot of you who will be attending. I will not be attending but in the same city with all of you. We are just going to have to make the time. Mimi I am not sure if you attend but I know you live close so we should be able to surely meet. Anyway I have been sitting on this because I could not believe we got this offer. It is so neat when things just fall into place. So if you are out there and something is just not going your way. Don't worry just let it go and give it to God and it will fall into place.
4 days Savannah will be 10
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Hope all is well and will post about my appt tomorrow. Thanks for praying.
5 days until Savannah birthday
Nichole I am praying for you.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Everything has been going well. I was loving my life. I was excited to start my new journey of homeschooling my two youngest when my life took a huge hit. Over the summer I went to the dr about a lump that I found. I was referred to an imaging center where I had an ultrasound and mammogram. The sad thing to this part of the story I brought this to my dr attention a year ago. He decided that I was fine and I did not need anything. So then I had a biopsy done. The results took forever. It was the longest week. When I finally got the call it was the worst day of my life. How was I going to tell my husband? How was I going to tell my family? Worst of all how was I going to tell my daughters. Next was a MRI to find where the cancer is. Then a biopsy of the cancer. Then waiting for the results. I saw a breast surgeon. He gave me the results. I was told stage 3. I was devastated. I went from the surgeon to the oncologist. After several scans and lots of appts. It was time to start my journey of fighting like a girl. The plan for me: 6 treatments, surgery, radiation and then reconstruction. Before I started chemo I knew I would have to talk to the girls. So I did. I chose to tell the girls at different times. It took everything out of me. This is where the bracelets took life. You can read back for more details on how I talked to them. So I started chemo and I am now on the 5th. It has been up and down. I am doing fine and looking forward to being done with this part.
Thanks for letting me catch up everyone. When I started blogging I never dreamed it would be therapy for me. It has been a way for me to be real and journal about my everyday life living with cancer. I have leaned on my faith to keep me focus. I did not know by choosing to believe and be obedient that I would find all of you. When I requested people to pray for me I did not know how amazing it was going to be. Because of all of you I am making it everyday. Thank you for blessing me everyday.
I am praising God tonight for another great day. I am looking forward to many more. Praying for a miracle and excited to give Him all the Glory!!
PS-my email is down(if you have emailed in the last day sorry it will be back up on Friday)
Lee=ornaments-I would love to have one that is a reflection of prayergifts if you have time:)
Today was the first day since I started chemo that I went to the park and walked for 30 mins. I was so happy. It was a bit cold and raining lightly but I did not care. This girl was gonna walk. It wore me out but I have felt wonderful today. So thank you for praying for strength for me. I so can feel what you are praying for me.
I know that there are a lot of new viewers out there. So I wanted to catch everyone up on my journey and who the Summers' are. I know that I said I would do that yesterday but I am going to do it tonight. So I will post a little later.
6 days until Savannah will be 10
Monday, December 15, 2008
Savannah and Madison wanting a quick picture with their big sis!
Hanging with her friends!
Alexa flying high. Mommy gets a little scared every time she goes up:)
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Alexa looking at the computer. She is getting tired and ready for bed soon.
My cousin Nikki came to visit today. She is so tired after playing with my girls today. We are so happy that she came.
I have been house bound today trying to stay well. It has been a fun day and I can not complain. It is getting so close to Christmas and I am so far behind. I want to start getting in the mood . I am excited about the ornaments even if they come after the fact. It will mean so much to us.
Alexa is getting some more orders for bracelets. I will post next week what states are being covered.
I also am curious who is attending the She Speaks Conference in Charlotte? I think that is what it is called? I will explain why wants I get dome feedback.
I know that there are viewers that are just know reading in so I am going to chat a little about my journey on Monday. I know it is hard to go back and read 100+ posts. I am follower of God and love you to join me. I am praying for a Miracle and looking to give God all the glory. As my bracelet says I am believing. It is important for me to share how much I am being blessed everyday by bloggers praying for me and taking time to share scripture and love with me. It is my journey and I thank you for letting me share. I thank you for letting me be me through the good and bad.
Have a wonderful night
Fighting like a girl
I forgot to post 9 days until Sweet Savannah is 10 yrs old(she is at a friends tonight)
Friday, December 12, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
I will be putting some pictures up this weekend of the girls. They have taken up cooking and baking with Yaya. They are having so much fun. So I am looking forward to cooking with them.
My day yesterday: Madison and I let Daddy sleep in and cook breakfast for him. It was a lot of fun. I homeschooled the girls. I drove for the first time since chemo on Friday and checked my po box. So it was a full day for me. I think Daddy was surprised and enjoyed it.
I am looking forward to catching up on every one's blogs. I sure do miss it. I am also looking forward to seeing all your ornaments. The girls and I will work on ours.
I am thinking off all of you. Thanks for praying and lifting me up. I love you.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Thanks Mike, Mom and my inlaws for caring for me without any questions. Thanks for loving the girls. I am very lucky. Thanks to all my blog friends...someday I want to tell you how you have changed my life forever.
I have all the request for bracelets. They are being made. Canada too:)
The girls and I came up with an idea. It has to do with ornaments on our tree. If you would like to make an ornament with your name and/or blog info. It would be a reminder for my girls that you are a part of our lives to celebrate every year. It would be beautiful to see your love on our tree. Peace and love coming your way.
In His Arms
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
So you are probably getting to know me and know what I need right now. Thank so much for praying for me. I am going to go in there telling myself that I can do this and walk out knowing I am conquering this terrible disease.
Wear your pink, wear your bracelet and lets shoot for that MIRACLE that I am seeking. Love you so much. It is time for this girl to get her fighting gloves on. Rocking the cancer center tomorrow (steroids sure do make you think you are rocky lol)
Keep sending bracelet request:)
Ps I joined Facebook and it is too fun
bracelets that are coming
Sheryl-please email me so you can wear one for your state
Lee-alexa made you a special one it is going out today-sorry it has taken me so long!
Have I forgotten anyone that asked?? Got to go and finish getting ready. Alexa has a game today.
Peace and love-will post my thoughts later:)
PRAYING HARD AND FIGHTING HARDER THAN EVER
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Tomorrow I will start taking my meds to get ready. As I prepare for Friday please pray that I can tolerate the chemos. It scares me each time. You should see me in the chemo room. You all would laugh at me. I never relax like everyone else. I never sleep like everyone else. No way! I ask a million questions. I mean I question everything. I am the baby in there compared to everyone else. I get stares and glances. I know they are saying she is too young to be here. Thank goodness my husband and mom are so good and patient with me. It will never get to be a routine with me. I take each treatment very seriously. So please pray that I will be OK.
I hope that someday that someone out there going through this terrible, scary unbelievable dream can have hope and faith and know that I will walk them through. I want them to know that anything is possible through Him.
Thank you my committed friends for helping, supporting and praying for me. It means so much.
States I know:
Did I forget any?? Lots to go. If you are a quite reader that is fine. If you would like to wear a bracelet just let me know.
(I have a friend that was covering a handful not sure where I will find out tomorrow, also I will have LA taken care of)
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Thank you for all your support. It has meant so much to me. I am hoping everyone is having a great week. I plan on spending the rest of the week getting ready. My mom and my in laws will be here on Thursday night. Wishing them safe travels here. Oh I forgot to mention I am by myself this week. Tonight I cooked too. Loving feeling myself.
Dear God thank you for holding my hand, walking with me when I am scared, carrying me when I could not take another step and covering me with prayer warriors from all over. I am thankful and I am giving you the Glory and Praising you always. Amen
Praying for a Miracle
Monday, December 1, 2008
Thank you so much for all the support that you continue to send. I love reading and hearing from you. You are serving our God well and I thank you for it.
I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving. Around our table giving thanks was a lot of tears. Mom had all of us crying. Anyway I am thankful for my life and meeting all of you. Thanks to my inlaws and mom for having Thanksgiving here with us.
Alexa still is working on her bracelets. I have not been well enough to find more prayer warriors out there to represent their state. She wants to cover all the states. So let me know where you live and help fulfill her dream.
Happy December! Spread the word. Reach out and tell someone that you love them. If you are missing something don't go another day lonely. God loves you!
Friday, November 28, 2008
Take care and I hope you had a wonderful day.
Thank you for a great day.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I am sending wishes for families everywhere to enjoy your families (even if you normally don't), reach to someone who may need a hug, share with someone why you are thankful for them, call someone who you may have been on the outs with, smile at someone you don't know, pray for someone who may not know the Lord,be kind to yourself and enjoy tomorrow!
I am sooooooo thankful for all of you. I do not think I have seen a better example of God's love spreading around this world like this blog circle. I am so lucky to have found you and we know that this was in the plan. Please join with me in Praising God for all of things He has given me. You are a part of me forever and I am forever grateful. Please know that I am praying for all of you and thank you for sharing when you do. Thank you women on the west coast, Alexa is happy making bracelets. Thank you for loving me and my family. Love Cindy(Fighting Hard)
HAPPY THANKSGIVING FROM THE SUMMERS'
Monday, November 24, 2008
Yesterday was very scary. All of the sudden I just started feeling like the flu hit me harder than I have ever had. When I called in to talk to the Dr about my fever she wanted me to go to the hospital. I felt so bad I told her I was scared to go because I thought I would catch something going to the ED. So she called me in two antibiotics and told me to rest. Today when they called to check on me she said that if I had a fever while on the antibiotics that I would go to the hospital and would not have a say. I said fair enough.
I knew that I could count on all of you for covering me with thoughts and prayers. I am praying that I continue to feel better everyday.
I am still a little weak. Lord please let me get through this. Thank thank thank everyone. Thank you for fighting with me. I love you all.
Dear Heavenly Father thank you for giving me the strength to fight yesterday. Thank for sending me all of these prayer warriors. I am giving it all to you. I love you. Amen
I am thankful for you
shooting for better days
Sunday, November 23, 2008
I am off to rest knowing that you have this for me. Lord thank you for my PW.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Please pray that I stay healthy so they don't have to back off on any dates. I am too close to run into problems now.
I need to rest but I wanted to thank everyone for making Madison's day a great memory.
Praying for everyone to stay warm and cozy.
the snow was wonderful today
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Madison loves babies.
Mommy and Madison with our new dog. He is begging right now.
Two tired girls right here.
As you can see God is good! I was able to hang in all day. Madison loved all the attention from all of you. Thanks for the cards and emails and celebrating all over your blogs. It has been great. I sure am ready to crash tonight. Thank you so much for all your hard praying. I was able to enjoy all the excitement. I love you all. Tomorrow is white count day. Sending love all over.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Hoping tomorrow will be the day that I am up and about. I am resting. It has been a rough few days. I will be getting my white counts checked on Friday.
Emotionally it has taken a toll on me. As I cried in the evenings wondering how can I do this My husband continued to tell that there is no option. That I am doing fine and to continue on. I kept responding with I am human and I am scared. It is such a terrible feeling. I have probably said to my children more than enough. Mommy can't right now but as soon as I feel better I will. It is frustrating. I do understand that it is going to take all I have to fight and conquer.
Thank you for praying as I rest. Thank you for being a loyal friend. There are wonderful things happening and more to come.
Praying for strength
1 day Madison will be 8 (she is so excited that this house my not sleep tonight)
Miss you Jeff
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
I am very uncomfortable right now. It seems to be the routine. I know that it will get better. It has been hard to not be able to play and teach the girls the last few days. I am lucky to have family that has jumped in and helped. So thank you.
Thanks Mimi for my card. Nicki thank you for spreading and sharing your friends. I will be by to visit their blogs soon to thank them.
Wishing you all well
3 days Madison will be 8
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I rested a lot today. I am on so may meds right now so I feel up and down. I am feeling better than last time today. So one day at a time for me.
Chemo went fine yesterday so now I can praise Him and say only 2 to go. Thank you Lord. Nichole thanks for calling. Cindy thanks for my bear, Pat thanks for my cross. August thanks for all your time.
You all are serving well. Thank you for praying for me. I feel covered completely. My turn will be coming soon. I am learning a little each day and it becomes more clear.
I had some of you ask for my PO box:
Greenville NC 27858
Praying for rest and strength to get through.
5 days Madison will be 8
Mom thanks for coming! John and Monia thanks so much for being to help.
Friday, November 14, 2008
She talked a lot about the future. Next treatment is Dec 5 and then Dec 31. I will have my surgery around the 14th of Jan. Then radiation will begin 3-6 weeks after. That will last for about 8 weeks. Reconstructive surgery will be 6mos after that. So still a long road. She also told me a lot about what can happen and why. So it is just going to be part of my life for a long time.
That's all for now off to rest. Love you and continue to pray for me
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wear your pink and wear your bracelet. I love you all. Pray hard that I get a good result and that I do not have a reaction to the chemo. It is always so scary not knowing. Thanks for your commitment. You will never know how much it means to me.
Yes I am nervous but I will drive on. My prayer tonight is to stay focused and for God to protect me and never leave me.
My inlawas are here and my Mom is coming tomorrow. Thank you God for making that a part of your plan. There is a plan and I will follow.
Sweet Dreams and Pray
7 days Madison will be 8
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Thanks for all you comments and support. Thanks for your calls, cards and prayers. It means so much. Thanks to all the ladies out in Washington! I love you all too. It seems when I am feeling bad a call or a card comes in right at time I need it the most.
I hope everyone is well and I am thinking of you all. Lee I am praying for you and family. Nicki I hope you are OK? Nichole I am praying that you bless someone on Friday.
Off to study with my girls. Love Cindy
8 days until Madison's birthday
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
This morning I am feeling good. I look forward to the last week. I hope it is always this way. The only thing is the anxiety. I start getting nervous going through the treatment. I have thoughts that start running. So pray for me to be more relaxed this week.
Next treatment is Nov 14
5th treatment Dec 5
6th treatment Dec 26
Pray for complete healing. One thing that I know that I want is a life with purpose-thanks to a friend.
Praying for a wonderful day
9 days til Madison's 8th birthday
Sunday, November 9, 2008
My sister Stephanie and all the girls having fun. Steph love my hair on your head.
Of course Carson does not want his picture taken. I did get one eye. HA
Savannah and MG waking up. They are having a good hair day.
Getting ready to go to be in the Tepee.
Savannah trying to get with the luggage before our family takes off. We would miss her.
Jonathon(BIL) and my nephew Carson-I guess the Panthers are playing today??
Madison and her cousin Breeanna-Saying goodbye to her Best Friend Forever.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Thanks Nichole and June! I love everything. Wishing everyone a wonderful night.
If you want to be blessed check out my friends blog. If you have a prayer request or would like to join in lifting someone up who needs it.
Friday, November 7, 2008
I have been thinking a lot about the next treatment. I am a little intimidated because this one was a little more powerful. I have been spending more time praying to be healed. I pray that the chemo works and that I can not feel the lymph node anymore. Thank you for being a faithful prayer warrior. I look forward to hearing from you and gives me a lot of HOPE! Thanks Emily, Pat and Carol!
More bracelets will be going out next week. Have a wonderful weekend. My sister is coming to visit tonight and I am looking forward to it.
Please pray for Leebird's brother-in-law. She has been a wonderful support to me. Thank you
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Last night we had a lot of fun. My neck hurt for a while this morning so you can figure that some of my girls stayed all night. It was worth it thou. I think Alexa knew her bed was going to be much more comfy then mine. Madison and Savannah were so crashed this morning. It was too cute.
Lee I am praying for your family! Wear that bracelet with lots of love. Yvonne, Sharon, Cindy,Pat and Sherry thanks for my cards.
Thanks for all your prayers. I do feel them! Giving praise for another nice day.
14days til Madison is 8
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
I have a meeting in my bed tonight with the family. We are hanging out watching TV and enjoying each other. Wish me luck 5 in a King size. The girls are looking forward to snuggling. Sweet dreams I need to take advantage of these times when I am feeling well.
Praying for all of you and your families
15 days til Madison's bd
I am coming to visit all your blogs this weekend. Miss everyone!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
The girls came back today and had a nice time. My inlaws are leaving tomorrow and will be back next week in time for chemo. Yuck. Mike is off Sat-Tues:) Thanks for serving our country Babe!
Bragging corner- Alexa made all A's. After all that she is going through she was still able to handle her studies. I am a proud Mama.
Lots of random stuff I know you all can tell when I am excited. I probably don't make a lot of sense and the simplest thing makes me so happy.
I have so much to be thankful for. Sharon thanks for all the scriptures. All my blog friends thanks for being so good to me. Laurie I am so glad you have a bracelet. All you Oregon and Washington supporters I am sending my love your way. Thanks for praying for me. When I am weak I know that I can count on you to pray.
I am just happy and grateful today. So as always I want to give up for our awesome God.
Sending love to all
Thanks for wearing my bracelets. If you ever need a replacement just let us know. I have been wearing the same one since day one. Thanks Alexa- I choose to BELIEVE!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Without Him I am nothing and with Him I am everything. I had a wonderful day. Please Praise Him for being patient with me and for using each of you to help me when I am weak.
When I started blogging I was updating my friends and family on my life as a soldiers wife. I make friends all over as we move around. So it makes it easier for them to keep up with us. I never thought that I would have been blogging for therapy, for support, guidance and advice. I look back at things now and know that God was preparing me for this journey. Deciding to blog (thanks Nicki) and deciding to home school the girls this year. Since Savannah and Madison are at home it prevents a lot of germs from entering the house. It all makes since. The beautiful thing about blogging is all of you. There is someone out there that will follow my footsteps someday and when they think they can not do this one more day I can tell them you WILL and you CAN because I will hold your hand. There maybe someone out there that is going through something may just not be that big of a deal and shake it off. What about someone that needed to see this world is full of the most loving compassionate people that they have ever seen. Do you know that most of my sweet blog friends I have never met before. So reach out if you need someone. Sometimes things are not as bad as they seem. Thank you for praying for me.
Loving today and looking forward to tomorrow. Thanks for my cards John, Terri, Nikki,Pat, Cheryl, Jessica and Jacqui! Conya thanks for getting me out today!
In His Arms:)
17 days until Madison BDay
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I believe tomorrow will be my first time by myself without anyone. Alexa will be at school and Mike will be working about an hour from here. So I should get a lot of quiet time with God to get focused and make a good plan for my next go around. I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out my body and how I can make this easier on me. I am not sure if I did something a little different or is it just the more you get the more that your body is hit. I can not wait until the day that I can not feel my lymph node. I have only been able to feel one all along. So of course I check everyday hoping not feel it.
Pray for my body to continue to heal. Pray for my body to detox and get ready for the next go around on the 14th. Thank you for you commitment to my journey. Love to all Cindy
Dear Heavenly Father please protect me and heal my body completely. Praising you for the good day today. Thank you for Mike, the girls, family and friends- Amen!
Count down to Madison's birthday
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Continue to pray for my body to heal and get prepared for another round on the the 14th of Nov.
Lots of love
Kaele thanks for the picture you drew for me. I love it!
3 down 3 to go:)
Friday, October 31, 2008
I have to say this go around was harder but I am hoping and believing that I am going to bounce back soon. I feel like I have sounded a little weak but it has been a frustrating time since Friday. It is time for me to rest this weekend and listen to my body. Monday I need to get refocused and spend a lot of time with God. I need to get back into conquer mode. Don't get me wrong I am fighting with all that I have. This is some powerful stuff I am carrying around but I know that there is my powerful Father carrying me when I cant another step. I know that He has plans for me. I know that He sent each of you to remind me that I can do this. I can do this and I will. I just need shake this off and focus. I know I may wonder why but that is when I am weak it is hard not to.
Thanks for being God's helpers. For praying when my praying is so weak. Continue to pray I want to live and give God the Glory!
Shooting for Victory!
Thanks for my cards Tom, Cindy, Carrie thanks for making me my hats!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Thank you for reminding me and praying for me. I hope everyone is well and that I pray for all of you for I am blessed to have you!
Lord continue to protect me I am listening and following.
Fighting like a Girl!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Today I am slowly feeling better. Thanks for the heavy praying. I still have 3 more to go. Pray for strength. Pray for healing. Pray for my girls to Believe as they see Mommy struggle. I know the bracelets are going out this week. I can not wait to hear where!
Lots of thanks to my cards Ivan,Ken, Nichole, Sharon(Alexa says thanks too),Molly(they love their wendys gc)Crystal-Sherry thanks for taking the girls to the beach. They had a fab time!Conya thanks for taking the girls to the play, Jessica thanks for taking the girls to the movies. I am so thankful.
Mom thanks so much for coming and helping with my treatments. I know it is hard to see me like this. You are showing me you never stop being a mom to your babies! I love you for that.
John and Monia thanks for being here for the next 3 weeks or so. It is a big chore and I love you both.
With Madison birthday, Thanksgiving, Savannah birthday and Christmas I am saying a special prayer that I will be strong for the girls. Lord give me the strength to enjoy the girls. I have missed playing with them and having our time together.
I love you all and holding on and fighting hard! Sorry that I have been away.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
THANKS AGAIN FOR BEING THERE FOR HER!!!!!
Friday, October 24, 2008
The words that I long to hear every time I see my Dr: it is working...and I say how do you know...she says I seems to be 1cm and it was 2.4cm...I said what about a scan....she said we dont need one I can tell...she said after 3treatments it is working. Thank you Lord!
Dont lift the praises up throw them up and jump with me! I love you all. Well I am back to the beginning. Pray for a restful weekend. I am signing out tonight. I am so exhausted but so happy.
Love to all- Onie and Michele the girls say thank you! Yvonne and Nichole thanks for the cards!
Love and ThanksCindy
Cindy Happy 50th Birthday!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
ALWAYS WEARING MY BRACELET THAT ALEXA MADE ME. IT KEEPS ME GOING. THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Savannah and Madison went to the beach with my sister-in-law for a night or two. I am so happy for them. They called me for the hotel a little bit ago and they sounded so happy. I can't wait to hear about their trip.
As I am getting ready for Friday pray for me to be calm. Pray for me to tolerate the medicine again. Pray that I can handle the red medicine that scares me so much. Pray for Victory! Gather around me as Friday comes. Thank you for being there for me. Love to all and thank you Lord for another awesome day! I love all of you. Mom can not wait until you get here tomorrow. Thanks for taking off work again:)
Ps I love being able to taste food!!!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
I want everyone out there to take a moment to Praise Him for not giving more than I can handle! I also want you to pray for me to continue to be OK and enjoy my family. I want you to pray for a miracle. I want to be able to talk about this after the fact more than anything. I am on my knees Praising Him!
I am choosing to Believe!
My am praying and praising God for all of you. Thanking for coming into my life when I need you all the most. Thank thank thank...
Monday, October 20, 2008
Thanks to all of you that have me on your blog and having the world praying for me. Check out my girlfriends blog. I just saw it today and it made my day. Emily thanks for the socks. I love that you bought us matching socks. Your a wonderful friend. http://thetallmanfamily.blogspot.com
Nichole bracelets are being mailed tomorrow. Alexa is excited about her bracelets saving my life. I cant wait to hear who gets them. Love your commitment to my family!
To another beautiful day
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
I am looking forward to tomorrow. I need these days. Lord continue to give me strength. I am asking for strong praying for my visit on Friday. I am going to be asking what they think about my lymph nodes. I am praying they tell me the chemo is working. I am afraid and I want this to work. So please pray for me to be healed. So far I have done so well. I would love to hear great news this Friday. So pray hard that my body is getting better.
I am feeling a little anxiety so I am going to try to relax and enjoy my week. Love to you all. Thanks for your support. I am counting on all of you. I need your encouragement.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Have a wonderful weekend. Last week before time to get chemo on Friday! Not looking forward but I am going to try to stay positive and get through it.
Give Praise once again-Amen!!!!!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
I have been reading a lot and looking at different foods. During different times I am able to eat different things. When my counts are good I like to eat most of my diet raw. Lots of organic veggies. The more I can stick in the salad the better. When my counts are down I eat more pasta and cooked veggies. So chicken is the only thing I am eating with pasta.
Low sugar and low fat. I have read cancer loves sugar and fat cells. So I am always looking for recipes that are good and healthy for me. I do believe that eating healthy and drinking lots of water is giving my body some great energy.
I was hoping to get more into this but I am extremely tired and I have a little headache. So goodnight for now.
Thanks for my cards Carol and Susan!
Pray for a great day
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I received the cutest PJ's today. As matter of fact I received two and they were from two different people from the opposite ends of the country. Florida and Oregon. I love them both. So Laurie and Emily you are very thoughtful and I thank you.
Tomorrow I want to talk about food. What I have learned and what I would like to learn. If one of your gifts are cooking or you know a lot about healthy food then I need you:) Low fat and low sugar is what I am looking for. So I look forward to tomorrow.
Lord thank you for your gift tonight. You sent it to me at the right time and I am thankful. Thank you for that you are giving me. Thank you for blessing me. You are in control. I love you.
Lee send me your address again-chemo brain and I don't know what I did with it. Your bracelet is ready.
sweet dreams August
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Thanks John and Monia for all your help! Cant wait until you come back.
Thanks for all my cards in the last few weeks:
Tom,Juanita,Pat,Yvonne,Nichole,Gail,Keri. The girls love them. We are making bracelets this week and weekend. So I will email everyone when they are on their way. Thanks Sharon and Nichole for getting them out. It is going to be fun and Alexa is ready.
I want everyone to praise God and thank Him for taking care of me. He is hearing everyone and I want to give Him the GLORY that He deserves! Love you all.
I wanted to show you where I had my port put in. I still has the strips over it. It is healing fine but it hurts sometimes and feels so weird. You can see the port under my skin right under the bottom strip. I sure hope I dont have to have it for longer than a year. This will be one of my scars that will be a reminder of how much you all have walk this journey with me. Love you!
Praying for stronger days and looking forward to feeling good. Have a wonderful day.