Wednesday, December 31, 2008
I want to take a few minutes and tell you how much it has meant to me to have all of my family behind me. You have jumped in and helped with the kids, cooking, cleaning and laundry. You have lived in my house and left yours behind without questioning it. You have sat with me during long chemo visits. You have driven me to doctors appt and to fill scripts. And most of all you have watched me from the beginning hear news and results that have brought me to my knees with screams and tears that have changed my life forever.
To my friends that have known me for a long time. I know it has been hard. What to say? How to act? What to do? You have been great. I love you and thank you for coming and helping out. You are a true friend.
To my blog friends. You have been with me since the beginning. You have committed to walk with me in this journey. You have kept me focused. You have prayed when I could not. You knew when I needed you. You have served our God well. You will be blessed. My wish is to meet you all someday. I love you and I am so grateful to all of you.
Mike, Alexa, Savannah and Madison as I write this I begin to cry. I can not imagine how it must feel to see your Mommy sick. I know it has been scary. I know it is hard to fight the thoughts. I love you all so much it hurts. It is a privilege and honor to hear you call me Mommy. Everyday is a blessing with you. Always remember that I will love you forever. Mike I know it has been hard to work and take over everything that I have been to doing to make our family run. I know that you are exhausted and drained. Even thou I know you are sad but you don't show it. I am OK with it. Thank you for being strong at night when I am falling apart. Thank you for loving me and saying that I am beautiful when I am so vain. I love you!
Wear your pink, wear you bracelets and leave me a comment. It is time to celebrate and start a New Year. If have not left a comment or do not know how it is easy. Click on inspiring words and type away in the box, type verify word and hit anonymous if you do not have an account. I want to here from you and I need it.
FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I hope everyone has a Happy New Year. I am looking forward to being healthy and cancer free. If anyone would like to added to my text during chemo tomorrow email me your cell email@example.com
Praying for healing
ps lee I wanted to share my letter but it coming strange and will not let me do it?
Monday, December 29, 2008
We just got home last night. Yes I did say that. We went to Charlotte for a quick trip. We left Friday late morning. The girls were sick off and on all last week and weekend. So we are off to the dr's at 2 today. But anyway we spend Fri with Mike's family and Sat with mine. I will post pictures later my computer is still not working. Everyone had a lot of fun. Sat I had tons of visitors so thanks Stephanie and Jon for opening your house to all my friends. It was fun and tiring all in one to see everyone. People I saw:
Nicki from three girly girls-She came by and sat with me for a while. Thanks Nicki for coming by and look forward to seeing you when I am back. Nicki and I were neighbors which turned into great friends and bible study pals. Love ya girl. Teri came by to see me. We also became friends after living in the same neighborhood. We sat around and ordered tupperware with the girls.She is always there for me. It was tons of fun. Love ya girl! My girlfriend from Miami Keri which now lives in NC. It was great to see her. I know it has been hard for her to see me sick. We have known each other since before school days. So I was happy to see her. Love you. Mary and Nicholas came to see Madison and me. She was Madison's K teacher. We became friends and we love her baby. She has been a huge support to Madison when we moved. She has also been positive and Strong for me when I was falling. We love your family very much. Check out her blog and you will see pictures of our visit. (it is on my sidebar The Camp Fam)I saw my girlfriend Carrie. She was the one that just left here. It was great to see her. My girls love her and got really attached when she was here. Love you girl. Then I met Gayla she has been leaving comments on my blog for a while now. She is a breast cancer survivor for 15 yrs. She was very open with me and shared info and answered lots of questions. So it was great to finally meet. Love ya. Of course it was great to see everyone and I hope I did not forget anyone. Please know that it was fab.
My Savannah was with her best friend for the weekend. She is like our 4th daughter we love her and it was great to see them together. Sharon thanks for loving my family and look forward to building our relationship. Love ya.
Nikki (cousin) thanks for playing with the girls. It was great to see you. Love ya
When my computer is up I want to show you my ornaments. They are treasures so if you are still going to do it please do. They can come anytime. I love them.
Bracelets-I am happy to say that a few more have finally made it after a week or so of mailing. Praise!
Well it was a great time even with the fevers and coughing. It is time for me to get well and ready for Wed. Can you believe it. One more. I am going to pause and I hope you do right here and pray for me to be healed completely.....Amen! I am so happy that I have all of you. Thank you for letting me be honest. It has been a hard road and still a lot to go but I truly BELIEVE I could not have done it with out YOU and the PRINCE OF PEACE! Love all of you.
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I love you. My family and Mike's thanks for everything. Breeanna and Carson love you.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Someone is taking Alexa's bracelets out of the cards. This is very upsetting so let me know if you receive one. We mailed about 15 of them last week. So far one made it. I know of 2 that the card made it with a slit in it. So please pray that the next bunch make it. I need to make a trip to Micheals and I guess I will start paying insurance. Please give us some time. She really wanted you to have them by Christmas. Sorry
I am very frustrated
Monday, December 22, 2008
Tomorrow we will celebrate her birthday so I will post her party.
Wishing everyone a wonderful night.
Savannah has a doctor appt this morning. So I will let you know how things are going.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Off to the Dr tomorrow.
Savannah will be 10 tomorrow!
Thank you for praying ( I feel awesome today I just feel so bad that Savannah has been so ill)
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Lots of bracelets are in the mail as of today. Thank you for wearing them. I will give a list of states Monday so we can see what we need to cover. Nicki I saw you have a friend in IN will see if they would like to wear a bracelet for her state? Thanks so much for helping. Also I am receiving the coolest ornaments. They mean the world to me. I will take a picture in the next few days to show them off.
Praising today and everyday. Still BELIEVING!
2 days until my blue eyed Savannah is 10
Friday, December 19, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
About the She Speaks Conference: I have been waiting for the right time to tell you about my news. I told you about Mike making the promotion list a while back. Well we were told that when it was time to move that we would have to move out of the southeast this time. So we were concerned because of my medical needs. We knew that it would be hard for family to help being too far north or too far west. I just pushed it to the side and said I was not going to worry about it. So not too long after that Mike received a call with a position in Charlotte, but in order to take the position he had to move in Feb with or without me. After talking about it we decided that this is part of the Plan. Most of our family is in Charlotte. So we just put the house up for sale this week. We are not sure with the housing market how long it will take but it is God's hand so I will wait. So I will stay back with the girls and finish treatment, Alexa will finish school and we will wait for the house to sell. I am so excited. What I am extremely excited about is that I will be getting the chance to meet a lot of you who will be attending. I will not be attending but in the same city with all of you. We are just going to have to make the time. Mimi I am not sure if you attend but I know you live close so we should be able to surely meet. Anyway I have been sitting on this because I could not believe we got this offer. It is so neat when things just fall into place. So if you are out there and something is just not going your way. Don't worry just let it go and give it to God and it will fall into place.
4 days Savannah will be 10
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Hope all is well and will post about my appt tomorrow. Thanks for praying.
5 days until Savannah birthday
Nichole I am praying for you.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Everything has been going well. I was loving my life. I was excited to start my new journey of homeschooling my two youngest when my life took a huge hit. Over the summer I went to the dr about a lump that I found. I was referred to an imaging center where I had an ultrasound and mammogram. The sad thing to this part of the story I brought this to my dr attention a year ago. He decided that I was fine and I did not need anything. So then I had a biopsy done. The results took forever. It was the longest week. When I finally got the call it was the worst day of my life. How was I going to tell my husband? How was I going to tell my family? Worst of all how was I going to tell my daughters. Next was a MRI to find where the cancer is. Then a biopsy of the cancer. Then waiting for the results. I saw a breast surgeon. He gave me the results. I was told stage 3. I was devastated. I went from the surgeon to the oncologist. After several scans and lots of appts. It was time to start my journey of fighting like a girl. The plan for me: 6 treatments, surgery, radiation and then reconstruction. Before I started chemo I knew I would have to talk to the girls. So I did. I chose to tell the girls at different times. It took everything out of me. This is where the bracelets took life. You can read back for more details on how I talked to them. So I started chemo and I am now on the 5th. It has been up and down. I am doing fine and looking forward to being done with this part.
Thanks for letting me catch up everyone. When I started blogging I never dreamed it would be therapy for me. It has been a way for me to be real and journal about my everyday life living with cancer. I have leaned on my faith to keep me focus. I did not know by choosing to believe and be obedient that I would find all of you. When I requested people to pray for me I did not know how amazing it was going to be. Because of all of you I am making it everyday. Thank you for blessing me everyday.
I am praising God tonight for another great day. I am looking forward to many more. Praying for a miracle and excited to give Him all the Glory!!
PS-my email is down(if you have emailed in the last day sorry it will be back up on Friday)
Lee=ornaments-I would love to have one that is a reflection of prayergifts if you have time:)
Today was the first day since I started chemo that I went to the park and walked for 30 mins. I was so happy. It was a bit cold and raining lightly but I did not care. This girl was gonna walk. It wore me out but I have felt wonderful today. So thank you for praying for strength for me. I so can feel what you are praying for me.
I know that there are a lot of new viewers out there. So I wanted to catch everyone up on my journey and who the Summers' are. I know that I said I would do that yesterday but I am going to do it tonight. So I will post a little later.
6 days until Savannah will be 10
Monday, December 15, 2008
Savannah and Madison wanting a quick picture with their big sis!
Hanging with her friends!
Alexa flying high. Mommy gets a little scared every time she goes up:)
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Alexa looking at the computer. She is getting tired and ready for bed soon.
My cousin Nikki came to visit today. She is so tired after playing with my girls today. We are so happy that she came.
I have been house bound today trying to stay well. It has been a fun day and I can not complain. It is getting so close to Christmas and I am so far behind. I want to start getting in the mood . I am excited about the ornaments even if they come after the fact. It will mean so much to us.
Alexa is getting some more orders for bracelets. I will post next week what states are being covered.
I also am curious who is attending the She Speaks Conference in Charlotte? I think that is what it is called? I will explain why wants I get dome feedback.
I know that there are viewers that are just know reading in so I am going to chat a little about my journey on Monday. I know it is hard to go back and read 100+ posts. I am follower of God and love you to join me. I am praying for a Miracle and looking to give God all the glory. As my bracelet says I am believing. It is important for me to share how much I am being blessed everyday by bloggers praying for me and taking time to share scripture and love with me. It is my journey and I thank you for letting me share. I thank you for letting me be me through the good and bad.
Have a wonderful night
Fighting like a girl
I forgot to post 9 days until Sweet Savannah is 10 yrs old(she is at a friends tonight)
Friday, December 12, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
I will be putting some pictures up this weekend of the girls. They have taken up cooking and baking with Yaya. They are having so much fun. So I am looking forward to cooking with them.
My day yesterday: Madison and I let Daddy sleep in and cook breakfast for him. It was a lot of fun. I homeschooled the girls. I drove for the first time since chemo on Friday and checked my po box. So it was a full day for me. I think Daddy was surprised and enjoyed it.
I am looking forward to catching up on every one's blogs. I sure do miss it. I am also looking forward to seeing all your ornaments. The girls and I will work on ours.
I am thinking off all of you. Thanks for praying and lifting me up. I love you.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Thanks Mike, Mom and my inlaws for caring for me without any questions. Thanks for loving the girls. I am very lucky. Thanks to all my blog friends...someday I want to tell you how you have changed my life forever.
I have all the request for bracelets. They are being made. Canada too:)
The girls and I came up with an idea. It has to do with ornaments on our tree. If you would like to make an ornament with your name and/or blog info. It would be a reminder for my girls that you are a part of our lives to celebrate every year. It would be beautiful to see your love on our tree. Peace and love coming your way.
In His Arms
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
So you are probably getting to know me and know what I need right now. Thank so much for praying for me. I am going to go in there telling myself that I can do this and walk out knowing I am conquering this terrible disease.
Wear your pink, wear your bracelet and lets shoot for that MIRACLE that I am seeking. Love you so much. It is time for this girl to get her fighting gloves on. Rocking the cancer center tomorrow (steroids sure do make you think you are rocky lol)
Keep sending bracelet request:)
Ps I joined Facebook and it is too fun
bracelets that are coming
Sheryl-please email me so you can wear one for your state
Lee-alexa made you a special one it is going out today-sorry it has taken me so long!
Have I forgotten anyone that asked?? Got to go and finish getting ready. Alexa has a game today.
Peace and love-will post my thoughts later:)
PRAYING HARD AND FIGHTING HARDER THAN EVER
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Tomorrow I will start taking my meds to get ready. As I prepare for Friday please pray that I can tolerate the chemos. It scares me each time. You should see me in the chemo room. You all would laugh at me. I never relax like everyone else. I never sleep like everyone else. No way! I ask a million questions. I mean I question everything. I am the baby in there compared to everyone else. I get stares and glances. I know they are saying she is too young to be here. Thank goodness my husband and mom are so good and patient with me. It will never get to be a routine with me. I take each treatment very seriously. So please pray that I will be OK.
I hope that someday that someone out there going through this terrible, scary unbelievable dream can have hope and faith and know that I will walk them through. I want them to know that anything is possible through Him.
Thank you my committed friends for helping, supporting and praying for me. It means so much.
States I know:
Did I forget any?? Lots to go. If you are a quite reader that is fine. If you would like to wear a bracelet just let me know.
(I have a friend that was covering a handful not sure where I will find out tomorrow, also I will have LA taken care of)
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Thank you for all your support. It has meant so much to me. I am hoping everyone is having a great week. I plan on spending the rest of the week getting ready. My mom and my in laws will be here on Thursday night. Wishing them safe travels here. Oh I forgot to mention I am by myself this week. Tonight I cooked too. Loving feeling myself.
Dear God thank you for holding my hand, walking with me when I am scared, carrying me when I could not take another step and covering me with prayer warriors from all over. I am thankful and I am giving you the Glory and Praising you always. Amen
Praying for a Miracle
Monday, December 1, 2008
Thank you so much for all the support that you continue to send. I love reading and hearing from you. You are serving our God well and I thank you for it.
I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving. Around our table giving thanks was a lot of tears. Mom had all of us crying. Anyway I am thankful for my life and meeting all of you. Thanks to my inlaws and mom for having Thanksgiving here with us.
Alexa still is working on her bracelets. I have not been well enough to find more prayer warriors out there to represent their state. She wants to cover all the states. So let me know where you live and help fulfill her dream.
Happy December! Spread the word. Reach out and tell someone that you love them. If you are missing something don't go another day lonely. God loves you!