Day 7-Feeling so-so

Sorry I did not blog yesterday. I did so much because I felt pretty good which made me so exhausted. Today I did not feel as good. I am starting to learn the drill and my counts are definitely falling. It just makes you so tired. So tomorrow when I get my white counts checked I am sure they will be low but that is what it is suppose to do.

I will be putting some pictures up this weekend of the girls. They have taken up cooking and baking with Yaya. They are having so much fun. So I am looking forward to cooking with them.

My day yesterday: Madison and I let Daddy sleep in and cook breakfast for him. It was a lot of fun. I homeschooled the girls. I drove for the first time since chemo on Friday and checked my po box. So it was a full day for me. I think Daddy was surprised and enjoyed it.

I am looking forward to catching up on every one's blogs. I sure do miss it. I am also looking forward to seeing all your ornaments. The girls and I will work on ours.

I am thinking off all of you. Thanks for praying and lifting me up. I love you.

Love Cindy

Day 5-Tuff but up

I am sorry my post have been short. I have been resting a lot. It is just a slow process. I did drag myself up today and made pancakes for the girls and myself. I homeschooled the girls this morning without any help too! I have been missing them. By the time we were done I was tired. It is amazing how powerful chemo is. I have been reading my emails, texts and comments. I am blown away. What a wonderful place and wonderful people that are serving. Thank you so much for all your praying. There are so many things that I want to say but I am not strong enough yet. I just want you to know that I am believing.

Thanks Mike, Mom and my inlaws for caring for me without any questions. Thanks for loving the girls. I am very lucky. Thanks to all my blog friends...someday I want to tell you how you have changed my life forever.

I have all the request for bracelets. They are being made. Canada too:)

The girls and I came up with an idea. It has to do with ornaments on our tree. If you would like to make an ornament with your name and/or blog info. It would be a reminder for my girls that you are a part of our lives to celebrate every year. It would be beautiful to see your love on our tree. Peace and love coming your way.


In His Arms
Cindy

Day 4

I am struggling. It is so tuff right now. My body is sore and I am exhausted. I just wanted to check in. I will rest for now.

Much love Cindy

Day 3-#5

Keep praying as I fight to shake this off. I am very tired but trying hard to get up when I can. I will be back soon to catch up. Sending love everywhere.
Cindy

Day 2

I am OK! I am resting a lot. Thanks for praying and please continue. Love everyone:)


Cindy

Pink Pink Pink Pink Pray Pray Pray Pray

Here we go! Getting ready to settle down. The housekeeper comes in the morning. Love when she pulls my bed down so when I walk in the door I can snuggle right in. If you remember I was given this as a gift for a year. When I went to the fundraiser for breast cancer. She wanted to donate her time to a cancer patient. Too sweet.

So you are probably getting to know me and know what I need right now. Thank so much for praying for me. I am going to go in there telling myself that I can do this and walk out knowing I am conquering this terrible disease.

Wear your pink, wear your bracelet and lets shoot for that MIRACLE that I am seeking. Love you so much. It is time for this girl to get her fighting gloves on. Rocking the cancer center tomorrow (steroids sure do make you think you are rocky lol)

LOVE CINDY
Keep sending bracelet request:)
Ps I joined Facebook and it is too fun

More states

OK here are some of the states that I was not sure about but now are wearing bracelets!

Idaho
Hawaii
Connecticut

thanks for requesting from Georgia, Michigan and Canada-Alexa will make this weekend
Be back to close to night Love ya

Quick post and I will post later about tomorrow

Send me an email micialsa@aol.com if you would like a bracelet. Alexa will make them and we will send them out. Thanks for your support.
Love Cindy

bracelets that are coming
Emily-fl
Nicki-nc
Robin-va
Jamie-nc
Sheryl-please email me so you can wear one for your state
Lee-alexa made you a special one it is going out today-sorry it has taken me so long!
Have I forgotten anyone that asked?? Got to go and finish getting ready. Alexa has a game today.

Peace and love-will post my thoughts later:)

PRAYING HARD AND FIGHTING HARDER THAN EVER

Day 20-Praises

Another nice day. I realized that this week that I have done fairly well with my anxiety. I think the biggest thing I worry about is that I need to stay well.

Tomorrow I will start taking my meds to get ready. As I prepare for Friday please pray that I can tolerate the chemos. It scares me each time. You should see me in the chemo room. You all would laugh at me. I never relax like everyone else. I never sleep like everyone else. No way! I ask a million questions. I mean I question everything. I am the baby in there compared to everyone else. I get stares and glances. I know they are saying she is too young to be here. Thank goodness my husband and mom are so good and patient with me. It will never get to be a routine with me. I take each treatment very seriously. So please pray that I will be OK.

I hope that someday that someone out there going through this terrible, scary unbelievable dream can have hope and faith and know that I will walk them through. I want them to know that anything is possible through Him.

Thank you my committed friends for helping, supporting and praying for me. It means so much.

Sweet Dreams
Cindy

States I know:
Florida
South Carolina
North Carolina
Tenn
Virgina
Ohio
Arizona
California
Oregon
Washington
Did I forget any?? Lots to go. If you are a quite reader that is fine. If you would like to wear a bracelet just let me know.
(I have a friend that was covering a handful not sure where I will find out tomorrow, also I will have LA taken care of)

Day 19-Great day

Today was my best day so far this go around. It is interesting how the last week my body gets as close to normal just to get ready for the next treatment. I am starting to get my taste back. So here is what I guess I can expect. Friday is treatment day. The first week I feel drugged and poisoned (the only way I know how to describe) The second week tired, counts are done and weak. The last week gaining my strength and feeling normal. The last three treatments I have ended up on antibiotics but everything has ended up fine. My prayer request for tonight is that I stay healthy and strong. These last two treatments are so important for me to stay on track. Dec 5 and Dec 31 than surgery. Oh I am so ready to be done.

Thank you for all your support. It has meant so much to me. I am hoping everyone is having a great week. I plan on spending the rest of the week getting ready. My mom and my in laws will be here on Thursday night. Wishing them safe travels here. Oh I forgot to mention I am by myself this week. Tonight I cooked too. Loving feeling myself.

Dear God thank you for holding my hand, walking with me when I am scared, carrying me when I could not take another step and covering me with prayer warriors from all over. I am thankful and I am giving you the Glory and Praising you always. Amen


Love Cindy
Praying for a Miracle

Day 18-Good day

I am feeling good. The last week is so nice. I have chemo # 5 on Friday. Sometimes I still can not believe that I am going through this. I really want to this one over with. The colder it gets the more chances for the flu. So pray that I stay healthy through the next month.

Thank you so much for all the support that you continue to send. I love reading and hearing from you. You are serving our God well and I thank you for it.

I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving. Around our table giving thanks was a lot of tears. Mom had all of us crying. Anyway I am thankful for my life and meeting all of you. Thanks to my inlaws and mom for having Thanksgiving here with us.

Alexa still is working on her bracelets. I have not been well enough to find more prayer warriors out there to represent their state. She wants to cover all the states. So let me know where you live and help fulfill her dream.

Happy December! Spread the word. Reach out and tell someone that you love them. If you are missing something don't go another day lonely. God loves you!

Love Cindy

Day 15-Praising and giving thanks always

Doing fine. I will be back on Monday. I am going to spend some time taking care of the house. I need to be prepared to be down starting Friday. I have chemo and it seem to keep me down longer this time. So I love you and look forward to catching up on your blogs this weekend and week.

Take care and I hope you had a wonderful day.

Much love
Cindy

Thank you for a great day.

Day 14

Happy Thanksgiving

My counts are back up and I am thankful

Much love

Cindy

fighting like a girl

Day 13-Many tears fell last night but I am feeling better:)

I am slowly feeling better. I am so thankful for days like this. It sure is scary sometimes. I had a week planned of thanking everyone and involving the children with my blog...But I am just so tried and run down. So here goes a short version with a big heart of love:

I am sending wishes for families everywhere to enjoy your families (even if you normally don't), reach to someone who may need a hug, share with someone why you are thankful for them, call someone who you may have been on the outs with, smile at someone you don't know, pray for someone who may not know the Lord,be kind to yourself and enjoy tomorrow!

I am sooooooo thankful for all of you. I do not think I have seen a better example of God's love spreading around this world like this blog circle. I am so lucky to have found you and we know that this was in the plan. Please join with me in Praising God for all of things He has given me. You are a part of me forever and I am forever grateful. Please know that I am praying for all of you and thank you for sharing when you do. Thank you women on the west coast, Alexa is happy making bracelets. Thank you for loving me and my family. Love Cindy(Fighting Hard)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING FROM THE SUMMERS'

Day 11-Praise with me

Thank you for all your quick and constant praying. I am feeling so much better today. Two full days of antibiotics and coast to coast prayer is what this sick girl need.

Yesterday was very scary. All of the sudden I just started feeling like the flu hit me harder than I have ever had. When I called in to talk to the Dr about my fever she wanted me to go to the hospital. I felt so bad I told her I was scared to go because I thought I would catch something going to the ED. So she called me in two antibiotics and told me to rest. Today when they called to check on me she said that if I had a fever while on the antibiotics that I would go to the hospital and would not have a say. I said fair enough.

I knew that I could count on all of you for covering me with thoughts and prayers. I am praying that I continue to feel better everyday.

I am still a little weak. Lord please let me get through this. Thank thank thank everyone. Thank you for fighting with me. I love you all.

Dear Heavenly Father thank you for giving me the strength to fight yesterday. Thank for sending me all of these prayer warriors. I am giving it all to you. I love you. Amen

I am thankful for you
Cindy
shooting for better days

Day 10-Quick prayer

I am sick with the flu! I am not feeling well and have a temp. I am requesting for lots of quick praying. Dr wants me to go to the hospital but is letting me take some antibiotics she called and in and rest first. If I do not get better I guess I will be taking my first trip to the ED.

I am off to rest knowing that you have this for me. Lord thank you for my PW.

Cindy

Day 8-Counts low:(

Well they are not zero. They are 1. So home bound for now. Tired and feel like I might be coming down with a cold.

Please pray that I stay healthy so they don't have to back off on any dates. I am too close to run into problems now.

I need to rest but I wanted to thank everyone for making Madison's day a great memory.

Praying for everyone to stay warm and cozy.

Cindy
the snow was wonderful today

Celebrating My Baby

Madison making a wish! Happy Birthday sweetie.

Madison loves babies.

Mommy and Madison with our new dog. He is begging right now.

Two tired girls right here.

As you can see God is good! I was able to hang in all day. Madison loved all the attention from all of you. Thanks for the cards and emails and celebrating all over your blogs. It has been great. I sure am ready to crash tonight. Thank you so much for all your hard praying. I was able to enjoy all the excitement. I love you all. Tomorrow is white count day. Sending love all over.

Happy Mommy

Cindy

Madison's birthday!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADISON

Some fun pictures of Madison in the last year or so. Pictures later from our celebration! One proud Mommy.

Day 6-Drained

Thank you for all the Scriptures and emails! You have been called and you have answered. I am forever thankful.

Hoping tomorrow will be the day that I am up and about. I am resting. It has been a rough few days. I will be getting my white counts checked on Friday.

Emotionally it has taken a toll on me. As I cried in the evenings wondering how can I do this My husband continued to tell that there is no option. That I am doing fine and to continue on. I kept responding with I am human and I am scared. It is such a terrible feeling. I have probably said to my children more than enough. Mommy can't right now but as soon as I feel better I will. It is frustrating. I do understand that it is going to take all I have to fight and conquer.

Thank you for praying as I rest. Thank you for being a loyal friend. There are wonderful things happening and more to come.

Praying for strength
Love Cindy
1 day Madison will be 8 (she is so excited that this house my not sleep tonight)
Miss you Jeff