Wednesday, May 27, 2009

It's Been A While

I am looking forward to this school year being over! It has been one thing or another. It seems like nothing is going right. Do you ever feel like you can't get a break? Well that is how I feel. I have completely lost focus and it feels terrible.

My results for my genetic testing came in but they can't get me in until the 15th. So I said well why did you call me then?? So on the 15th I will have a better idea of what I am dealing with. I have my next oncology apt on the 5th. I will be going back to Greenville for both of these apts. My prayer for these two days are that the Lord continue to keep me protected. I am praying for my results to be negative so my girls do not have to worry about this ever. I pray that my oncologist can guide me on what is next. How do I build my immune system? I feel like a am having to fight against some of the side effects from radiation. Pray for my body. I have been feeling muscle tighten, swelling in my ankles and sometime it seems like popping in my lungs.

Just a little lost right now. I know you all will know what to say to help me back on track.



skoots1mom said...

one step at a time
try not to worry ahead
stay in the moment where you are :)

On Purpose said...

Lord remind Your beautiful daughter who she is tonight...she is Your daughter...and she brings such joy to Your heart. Remind her that You all holding her in the palm of Your mighty hand and that You are taking care of all these details. Oh and hug her tight from me! Thank You Lord! Amen

Cindy said...

Oh Dear Cindy, It's not about what we can say to 'get you back on track'. There is no written 'rules' about how to battle this war. You have fought and may be a little battle weary just now, while our job is to pray and continue to seek God for strength and peace for you.
You are strong and amazing, you have fought with faith and courage and are a witness for God's kingdom. You have the victory in Jesus Name and are just waiting to be able to see it clearly.
Open God's Love Letter To You and See What HE Has To Say About Who You Are and How Strong and Focused You Have Become.
Close your eyes, take a deep breath and realize you are exactly where HE desires for you to be, seeking HIM in all things.
You make me smile:)
Blessings, Cindy

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

That's so funny that you said that because the title of my post today was feeling lost. ;) Girl....I know it's a rough road right now, well I don't know, but I imagine that it is. You are doing an awesome job, I'm sure the house thing is a little stressful too. Just keep pressing through all this!! I love you and you are an amazing woman!! Love ya!!!

Rebecca Jo said...

I will pray all these things for you!!! Bless your heart. I'm sure you do feel "off" with everything you've gone through - everything your body is going through..

Know that the healing is already in the process & you will get there - fully yourself again soon! Feeling wonderful, full of life, full of pep again! Just hang in there until that time!

We're all behind you, praying for you, supporting you on your journey!!

Sheryl said...

wish that i did have words that would make you feel better. all i want you to know is that i stopped by, my heart hurts with you right now and i am praying!

The Patterson 5 said...

I'm still praying for you Cindy. You've fought so hard and so long! God promises to be with you each step of the way. Breathe that in as you take each step.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him...Romans 15:13

Love you!
Keep fighting like a girl!

Robin said...

You have had so much on your plate this past year that you have plowed through. This rough spot will also pass. Always remember that you have many frieds here to pull you through. Plus Jesus will lift you & carry you when you can't.

Stay Strong!!!!!!
We love you

Anonymous said...

Cindy, it's so easy to lose focus when you've been through so much. Cindy, God has brought you through all this and we praise Him for it. Now you need to relax and trust Him - Heb. 12:2 Looking Unto Jesus - He's the one in control - when you take your eyes off Him - that's when fear, stress and anxiety comes and we know all that is not good in helping to fight the fight. Relax - trust Him for your outcome. I still believe God's not finished with you yet. Love ya, Gayla

Leslie said...

Praying for you dear Cindy. I know you must be so tired of all of this. Try to focus on and enjoy your lovely family.

Hugs to you!

Joyful said...

Cindy, you are so amazing!!!! I can't imagine how difficult this must be, but you are doing great!!! Hang in there...He who began a good work in you will complete it!

I read this on another blog earlier today: "Children are a gift from God" and you are a child of God, so you ARE a gift to this world from God.

I'm so glad to have unwrapped your friendship.


The Call's said...

We pray that test will come out negative. Remember the side effects from radiation take fore ever. Don't loose your faith. Let the Lord lead you and guide you, and walk beside you right now and forever. You are always in our prayers Cindy.