Monday, January 19, 2009

Relaxing and thinking (Praising for getting this far)

Today I spent most of the day messing around in house while Mike took the girls out on a date. It was some much need time for them. I was going to talk to the girls today but I decided I would do it tomorrow. So I will update you on how they deal with our talk.

What am I worried about? What am I thinking? Today was a great day to just think about everything that I have been through since Aug. It all happened so fast. Well as I thought today I started to get a little nervous about the surgery. Why do we always worry about waking up? I don't know but that is the one thing that I keep worrying about. I am not really worried about the pain or getting use to being without a body part. It is so weird looking at the doctor/nurses and going to sleep and than waking up and it being done. My surgery is suppose to 2 hrs and my stay in the hospital is one night. They get you out fast! I am praying for a successful procedure. I am praying for the cancer to be gone before they get there. I am praying for a healthy recovery so I can continue to raise my beautiful girls.

I was wondering do you think God is sending the snow here tomorrow for a reason? Do you think it is a reminder that He is here and the beautiful white snow that is going to fall will keep me looking up to watch it fall?

Pray tomorrow that the girls will understand this is just another step in our journey that Mommy has to go through. I am looking forward to loving and snuggling them.

Pray that my Mom has a safe a trip tonight. I am lucky that she will be with me for a week. She is going to help me with my drains and whatever else comes along with this surgery. I am having a radical on the left and a mastectomy on the other. Sounds scary to me. Tonight I have to start taking a new medicine. I have to take it for 5 years. I am hoping I will do fine with it.

Thanks for all your comments, calls and facebook visits. I request please:) Mike will be updating my blog and checking my facebook. Encourage him and let him experience the power that I have experienced from all of you.

Pray Pray Pray
fighting like a girl


Sheryl said...

May God grant you peace like you've never felt before!! Praying that HIS hands are upon the hands of everyone in that operating room.

AND why are we not facebook friends? ha

Emily Tallman said...

Cindy you are in my prayers and thoughts. Thank you for being such a blessing to each of us!

Edie said...

Just wanted you to know that I am still keeping you in prayer. He has you in His arms. Try not to worry. Will also continue to stop in as Mike brings us updates.

God Bless!!

Pamela said...

Cindy you are in my prayers. You are such an inspiration and joy. I'm blessed knowing you. May God wrap you in his arms and place a blanket over your family.

God Bless you!

Carolee said...

This is what was on todays devotional...from my e-mail to yours...

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

--James 1:2-3
New International Version

"Hang in there!" There are few traits more important than perseverance. Most important accomplishments in life happen because of perseverance. Most luck occurs when we've perservered long enough for the "magical moment" to come along. Edison said it best, life's greatest feats, the world's greatest discoveries, his own most fantastic inventions were "1% inspiration and 99% perspiration." "Hang in there!" and see the glory of God come through in you!

Unchangeable and Unshakeable God, through the friends you have sent into my life and by the power of your gift, the Holy Spirit, help me to stand up under trial and prove my character true with perseverance when under fire. Give my faith courage and endurance so that my life shows forth your enduring strength. Through him who remained faithul unto death, I pray. Amen.

love and blessings, Carol

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

Yes girl! God would totally send the snow JUST FOR YOU to see that!! HE loves you soooo much and smiles upon all the details of your life. Be strong, I love you soooo much and you are an amazing woman. Rest up and keep trusting!! I know you are going to do great and we will keep Mike encouraged too during your recovery time. We'll miss you but please keep us updated!! Love you!!!

ps-I Have not forgotten to get my bracelets, I just haven't had the chance to get out to Steph's yet, I am hoping that I can get there tomorrow if she can leave them on her porch for me, I want to make sure I have it on tomorrow. I'll e-mail her.

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

ps- what is her e-mail? I think the one I have is old, it's the one at HR something

Sue J. said...

"As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."

Isaiah 55: 10&11

And God's Word says "Do not be anxious about anything." Know that He continues to walk with you every step of the way, even as you sleep—He is on watch and taking care!

May the snow be a reminder of His promises, His faithfulness....

Robin said...

Yes... I think God sent the snow to remind us all to always look up and also that everything gets washed and cleaned. I pray that this snow is washing all the cancer from your body. I trust and beleive that the lord will stay with you through the surgery and will hold & guide the doctors hands while they are treating you. I pray that you have a quick & successful recovery.

You are a true blessing to each of us. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

Please let Mike know I am only a phone call away if he needs anything.

We love you!

On Purpose said...

He has you girl right where He wants in His arms! Believe this...say it out loud to yourself! Cindy I believe in you, you have fought this very hard, and you will continue to do so! You have kept your eyes on Him, your faith shines strong! Keep believing, keep trusting, keep talking to Him...and we your friends will keep doing the same right along with you! I love you! May He fill you in every moment with more of Himself! Focus on not what is being taken away...but what He is brining you!

Joyful said...

Continuing in prayer. Can't wait to rejoice with you and say, "The Lord has done great things for us and we are filled with joy". Psalm 126:3

Believing Him with you and for you,