Thursday, January 8, 2009

Surgery Date Change

I am still feeling kinda a yucky but praying that I get better soon. I went to the breast surgeon today. It really stinks when you are starting to get excited and something knocks you down. When I saw the Dr he wanted to discuss the options of surgery. I knew all along what I wanted. My thought process was if I had a double mastectomy I would have a better chance of not getting cancer again. Well he told me that it really did not matter what I decided to do. That localized breast cancer is no problem. He felt confident that by touch I had a good response. The problem is the cancer showing up in the organs in the next 3 years. I was immediately depressed. I just want to be OK. It is so scary to think that this is part of my life that I will have to worry about all the time. So the rest of the day I had a hard time not crying. I am so mentally exhausted. I am so glad to done with chemo. I am so glad that it seems to have worked. So I am sorry that I seem so down but this can really mess with your mind. Thank you for letting me be open.

Surgery date is changed to the 21st. I go have a chest x-ray and my heart checked Wed. I guess all I can do is rest and get healthy.

Thank you for praying. Lord give me direction and strength. Keep me focused so I can beat this.



On Purpose said...

Girl you bet that the enemy will use everything he can to mess with your mind. So I am praying that the enemy step away from you and that God will hold captive your thoughts. Cry out to Him Cindy for He is listening...and only He can bring purpose to all this. Keep your eyes on Him!

I love you and I believe you have the power to get through this!

Cindy said...

You are doing well my friend. Even though your surgeon spoke some words you didn't want to hear remember the our God is the Great Physician and His Word is the truth we live by. We are believing with you that the surgery combined with the radiation will rid your TOTAL body of ALL cancer. The Word tells us that BY His Stripes We Are Healed In Jesus Name.
I'm going to call this weekend!
Love you,

Anonymous said...

"Keep on fighting like a girl" We are all praying that Satan will not confuse you, stay focused and believe the truths. God has brought you threw this far; hold on tight and let him be your strength.
Love, Hugs and Prayers
Laurie (Oregon)
Believe & Hope

Edie said...

Hang in there Cindy. Still praying for you over here too. The doctor's comments about it feeling like the chemo worked or helped is encouraging news. Don't let the enemy lie to you about it. Progress is progress even if it's one more step forward. Get some rest and know that you are covered in prayer. Love you!

The Patterson 5 said...

Although you are tired keep fighting like a girl! My prayers are with you. Lean on Him. Call out to Him. He will carry you through this!

Joyful said...

Praying the Lord will help you think on whatever is good and right and praiseworthy. I know this news sounds discouraging, but hang on. Keep the fight. A quote from a Beth Moore devotional comes to mind, "Satan is standing on your God-given ground, daring you to take possession of it." Keep believing. We're believing with you. (I had already spent time in prayer for you this morning before checking with your blog - and I'm wearing 'pink'!)

If you get a moment sometime, can you send me your address again. I seem to have misplaced it - and although it's AFTER Christmas, I have my ornament...finally ready to send. *oops*. It was hard finding something to make it personal, but I'm ready now!

Praying you'll have a wonderful weekend!
Love, prayers & hugs,

Jennifer said...

Although you will - for the rest of your life - be a breast cancer survivor and have to "worry" about check-ups and re-check-ups, will not have the WORRY the rest of your life! God is completely in control - I know you know that from reading your blog. And, as a cancer survivor (not breast) the devil loves to try and force the worry and obsessing....but each day, we just have to turn it back over to Him.

Didn't want to sound preachy...just encouraging you to take one day at a time - holding His hand the whole way! Lots of folks are praying for you.

Have a restful weekend.

MiMi said...

Praise the Lord for the good news that the doctor feels that you had a good response to your treatments!

I know that the doctor shared some things that you really didn't want to hear, but this is not something that you will have to worry about for the rest of your life.

"...So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won't last forever. It won't be long before this generous God who has GREAT PLANS for us in Christ - eternal and glorious plans they are! - will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, He does."
I Peter 5:8-11 (The Message)

Still praying and believing!

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

I love you girl, I'm praying for God's hands to be all over you!!