Thursday, January 29, 2009

Very confused

Here is the poem Alexa wrote me 2 days ago:
The Mom BC Poem

I see you there so scared and frighted. I want to see you smile with light instead of the fright I see in your eyes. I want to scream to heaven for you. But all I need is pray and believe in my heart you will be fine. I know right now you need a hug but I think that I will wait for you to heal. I know this poem does not rhyme but that doesn't matter. This came right from my heart and to heaven it will go too I know. I love you!

Mommy, God will help you if you BELIEVE. Heart of Christ! Love Alexa

It meant the world to me:)

Today one of my friends told me that I need to give my results without doubt. So I am going to give this a shot. My results today were that the primary cancer in my breast was completely gone and the lymph nodes that were removed were positive for cancer. So the removed 14 and 11 of them had cancer. It is confusing for me to understand. As I am typing it is coming out very slow. Lord continue to heal me and I am praising you for the primary being gone. I have a bunch of questions for my Dr tomorrow. Please continue to pray for me. I will update tomorrow on what I find out. Next week I have another appt with the breast surgeon and an appt with where my radiation will take place.

Love you all


Anonymous said...

I am so proud of you - putting your heart out there. I know this was hard to write about but you can make it through this. I love the poem Alexa wrote. Hold you head up and God will be with you!

Love you!

Joyful said...

Continuing to pray. May tomorrow's appointment with your Dr. bring you answers that will quiet your heart and give you peace. Praying the Lord will do that for you tonight as you hang on to Him. Your daughters poem is so sweet - may the Lord comfort all your family.

Love & hugs,

Sue J. said...

Prayers for you this night. Tell God about your confusion and any other emotions you are feeling.

May His peace, which transcends all understanding, guard your heart and mind....and into tomorrow's time with your doctors.

We're all still praying for you!

My ADHD Me said...

Thank you for sharing your results.
I will continue to pray. Every time I look at my wrist I see the HOPE bracelet and think of you all.

On Purpose said...

Praying for you and your appointment tomorrow. Asking for Him to clear your you can hear His calm and peaceful voice. Dear Jesus reminder her of Your presence! Amen

Love to you my friend!

Robin said...

Praise God that the primary cancer is gone. I understand that you are confused and scared. I would be too.

Raditation is in no way as hard as the chemo that you have already completed.

Stay strong, keep beleiving and remember that you have alot of people lifting you up.

The peom is wonderful,sweet and loving. Pat yourself on the back girl, you have raised a great young lady.

We love you!

Edie said...

I'm praying with you Cindy. God knows and understands your confusion. He is still with you.

Thank you Lord for removing the primary cancer. Please bring healing and restoration to Cindy's body. Please comfort her and her family. In Christ.

The Patterson 5 said...

Praying for you today as you go to your doctor. May you recieve some answers and a plan. May you feel peace in knowing you are in God's hand. He will carry you though this battle.

Anonymous said...

Cindy, I know the news was hard to hear, but don't you give up. I had a friend who had over 20 nodes positive and that was 15 years ago. Keep looking to the one who is in control. Glad you are sharing - it's good not to hold your feelings inside. It's great that Alexa is able to write about her feelings. Will continue to pray and trust God. Love ya, Gayla

dana blakeslee said...

I am praying for you, and am so impressed by you as a person, a wife, and as a MOM!!! You are amazing!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you, may you know Jesus loves you and is with you and your family.
Love, Hugs and Prayers
Laurie (Oregon)
Believe and Hope

Cindy said...

Praying for you sweet friend.
Praying for peace and understanding.
Praying for rest and strong faith.
Praying for you family.

Leebird said...

That Alexa is a pretty special young lady! I'm glad she's my FB friend! :)

I am trusting God along with you friend!

Melanie said...

We are continuing to pray for you and know that God is in control. Thank you for courageously sharing your journey with us. Our prayers are with you and we hope to see you again very soon!


Teri said...

That was an awesome poem Alexa is great that she can/will express her feelings and that you get to express yours and we are all here to lift you up. I thank God for bringing you and your family into my life. I am so proud of you and honored to have you as my friend. You are such an inspiration to are SO AMAZING. Putting in all in God's Hands! Love you! Teri

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

Praying for you and anxiously waiting to hear about yesterday. I have prayed so hard for you and had everyone on that prayer retreat praying for your sweet self. I love you and want to see total healing in your life.....thank you for being so open and what a sweet daugther you have!!!

THE CALLS said...

You continue to be in our prayers. The Lord knows what's in your hearts. There are many. many people who survive this and have to take further trying steps. Keep a smile in your face and a prayer in your heart and we will continue praying for you. My husband is doing good with radiation. He just gets a little tired and sleepy.
Love, The Calls