Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Back tomorrow for markings

I have no idea what is going on or what to expect?? I went to today thinking I was going to get marked but I was wrong. It seems they like to meet with you a few times to talk and examine you. So are they making sure this is what I want? Shoot yes! Lets get this party started. I found out some news though. They told me that I am not a candidate for implants. I was confused because my breast surgeon knew that is what I wanted from the beginning. I did not know about the other option until I met August and Gayla. So he was telling me if I wanted implants that I would have to go through another surgery and wait 4-6months for radiation because my skin would need to stretch. I guess after radiation your skin gets tight and it makes it hard to insert implants. So that was news to me. I have learned a little about having the fat or muscle moved from your tummy and reconstructing to your breast. I may not be saying it correctly? I thought that would put me a risk. I have heard that is wrong. Anyway he said if I did not get radiation it would compromise my therapy. So here I am??? Lord gave me the direction to say OK. So tomorrow I will proceed. Radiation should start the first week in March.

Yesterdays appt: Edie to answer your question. I can not have my blood pressure or shots in my left arm anymore. Nothing medical on that side. I do not have lymphedema in my left arm but I am high risk. So no hot tubs (my is forsale now) no hot showers. No weights or heavy arm swinging. Dont carry anything heavy. She said to get use to not carry my purse on that arm. No tight clothes. Since the lymph nodes filter the lymph fluid. It normally can regulate all of these things we normally do. In my case it cant so I have to care for my arm. I learned how to stretch so that I do not lose range of motion but of course not over do it which can cause lymph edema. The PT was great and very helpful. If anyone has advice feel free:)

I do want to tell you something that happened to me. God is taking care of me. I just want to make sure that I am not being taken advantage of first. Having cancer can make you vulnerable. So tomorrow I will share my story.

Pray for me tomorrow as I go back.

fighting like a girl

PS-Nichole you were right I was not alone. As I sat in the room before anyone came in I was quietly praying and when I raised my head I look up at a black and white picture of a pair of hands reaching to the sky letting go of a beautiful blue butterfly. God was showing me that I was STRONG and that I can do this. So he is "cool like that"


Edie said...

Thanks for the update Cindy. Wow I never knew all that stuff. Taking it one step at a time with you in prayer. Love you!

THE CALLS said...

First of all... I hope you saw the comment on the 16th that my husband wrote. It is very rare that he blogs, but he is slowly trying to leave a comment on everyone that has prayed for him. I know what you mean. Before they started my husbands radiation. I felt like they were taking forever and they weren't starting soon enough. We continue praying for you and your family. God speed.


Anonymous said...

Cindy, the surgery I had is called a trans-abdominal flap or a tram flap for short. There is no risk - it's not an invasive surgery - the only bad part is it's a long surgery. I chose it because it wasn't putting a foreign object in my body. The bag they use for implants is made of cylacone (don't think that's spelled right. I liked the idea of it being my tissue. I would advise you talk to a plastic surgeon - they can give you better info than the surgeons since it's their speciality. The plastic surgeon I used studied under the man who developed the tram. He's really good. I know it's hard to make all these decisions - sometimes you just want to scream. Been there, done that! I will pray God will give you peace whatever way you decide to go. You've come along way - hang in there - if I can help, give me call. Praying for you friend, Gayla

My ADHD Me said...

You know that you continue to have my prayers. I feel like I am praying for a specific friend that I have known for years. I am hoping that is a sign from God that the prayers are working.

On a lighter note, YOU WIN A PRIZE!!!
You won on my Pay It Forward game, but I mean it when I said that you have already "Paid it Forward" with all the bracelets you have sent out. So, unless you really really want to, your "Pay it Forward" is PAID. (I think that makes sense).

I still have your address from when you sent me the bracelet, so as soon as I come up with my craft, it will be on the way.... (oh my). :)

MiMi said...


Thank you so much for the update. I knew someone that had a tram flap and she did really well with it.

It sounds like there is a lot of information to process. Don't be afraid to ask the doctors to explain everything to you.

You and your family remain in my prayers and I am still believin'!

Cindy said...

Hey Girlfriend,
I am hoping that you are enjoying your special time with Alexis this week.
Praying for you as always.

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

Hey girl, sorry we didn't get to chat today. I was just catching up on everything from you last few blog entrys wow. You have lot's going on!! I don't quite understand it all but I know you are a smart girl and you will make the right decisions. Praying for you as you press on and keep fighting this fight. I have you on my prayer list every Sunday at church and I love you dearly. I hope I can give you a call tomorrow so we can catch up!! Love you!!