PENTA WATER

This is Mike, I want to thank PENTA WATER/ Bio Hydration for sending us 5 cases of water as well as coupons to use for Penta water. This water taste great to Cindy even though her taste buds are affected by treatment. Thanks again Jay Josafat and Elgin Gilbert.

Day 19-Almost done with this go around

Today was a good day. Just started to look at the next few days. Tomorrow I am going to journal about the events for Friday. My mom is coming in on Thurs. My MIL is still here. She is helping with cooking and cleaning which I am thankful for. Thanks Yaya!

Of course it is about that time for October to come around and everything is pink. I saw a portion of Oprah today. It was kinda sad at times. I think it is awesome the Susan G. Komen's sister was on the show. It is a great foundation. I will add my sister's and mom's link at the end if you want to check it out and see how they are doing. Pray for "The walk for the cure" Thanks Mom and Stephanie!

Thanks Penta water for sending me water. That was a nice surprise!! Tap water and some other waters are not good for me or just taste like metal. You taste buds change. So I am drinking water that does not have a lot of stuff in it. So thanks it does get expensive. So if you see Penta water grab one and drink it up and say thank you from me:)

3 more days and it the power of pink! So girls get your pink ready and pray hard for me. I love all you so much. Thanks for your support. I am so lucky to have you all in my life. Praise Him:)
Love my life
Cindy

Thank you so much for your time and support in the fight against breast cancer! Every step counts!Komen Charlotte Race for the Cure P.O. Box 601597Charlotte, NC 28260-1597Click here to visit my personal page.If the text above does not appear as a clickable link, you can visit the web address:http://www.komencharlotte.org/site/TR/Race/General?px=1191415&pg=personal&fr_id=1020&fl=en_US&et=4k_iqkMOq8w6hfpc4kRcHQ..&s_tafId=3722


Click here to visit my personal page and pledge your support.Please join me in the fight by pledging in support of my participation in the Race or contributing generously to the Charlotte Affiliate. Your =2 0 tax-deductible contribution will fund innovative outreach and awareness programs for medically underserved community in and around Charlotte and national breast cancer research. It is faster and easier than ever to support this great cause - you can make a donation online by simply clicking on the link at the bottom of this message. If you would prefer, you can also send your tax-deductible contribution to the address listed below. Whatever you can give will help! I truly appreciate your support and will keep you posted on my progress.Thank you so much for your time and support in the fight against breast cancer! Every step counts!Sincerely,Stephanie Eldridge

Day 18-Picture the future you want and claim it!

MADISON(MY BABY) and Daddy

Well today I felt good. I have not taken any medicine in 3 days. The girls are doing great. So I am trying to get mentally prepared for Friday. I will go over my day on Wednesday. I will need your support. I want to get focus, positive and feeling good. I have been back on a raw diet this week. Keeping the body detoxed. I did have some (small) dark chocolate. It was so good! Organic, whole wheat, lots of veggies and thick skin fruit. I learned something new from the nutritionist I can freeze my bananas and they are OK to eat. I am dreaming of a frozen banana with organic dark chocolate covering it. Yum:)

Thurs I am going to recap the last 3 weeks. Can you believe it. I almost there. Lets pray: Dear Heavenly Father thank you for walking and holding my hand. Thank you for carrying me when I could not walk another step. Thank you for sending me all these hands and thank you for giving me my heart so that I can grab on to hope, faith and believing that you are around me forever and always. Thank you God for my family. God thank you for sending your words that are coming from everywhere. My new friends, I love them. I am so grateful-Amen

Last night I had a friend call me and remind me of my strength and she told me that God had plans for me. She told me to hold on to He will heal me of all my diseases and that I will conquer this it WILL NOT CONQUER ME! I needed that. Today I had a friend that I met through this blog that called me today. Again her words were comforting and wonderful. God is shinning through her. The power of praying is amazing. Don't ever give up. Life is wonderful. It is precious and I am blessed.

I want to praise Him for giving me the gift of these last few weeks when I thought I was going to be a train wreck. It is because of Him. Please praise Him tonight-Thank you

As you can see I am full of so much-sorry for going on:)

Sweet Dreams and Bless my sore head

Love Cindy

Ps- Some one told me to Picture the future you want and claim it! DONE

Day 17- Feeling Blue but not feeling sick

I am feeling good over all. Last night I just got so emotional. It was terrible. I could not believe that how scared I was feeling. I was having all of these thoughts. I was not feeling right at all. I could not get the feeling of dying out of my mind. It was terrible and I felt so lost. I am not ready for all this. It was so overwhelming for me. I don't know what was wrong. I seemed to have been so lost. Where is my direction? How can I be so strong and then the next minute I am falling apart. I don't know it was like a roller coaster. I guess I am mentally tired. Why did I not feel in control? Sorry for losing my strength. Why was I not leaning on God? Where was he?

Today Monia and Mike made me organic whole wheat blueberry pancakes and hard boiled eggs. It was a nice treat. I also got another hair cut. I am down to few days of hair. It is weird but the medicine is in my body. So 2 weeks to the day my hair is falling. I am a happy hat wearer. I am not much for the thinner hair. It is way different look for me. I think I might bring out the wigs this week:)

Last week until it is time to go for this again. Thanks again for every ones help, support and continuing prayers.

Cindy
Pray for a sign

Day 16- Good day with my Savannah

The girls are cutting my hair! I thought it was a good idea to get them involved.

Savannah and me hanging out today. The date on the picture is wrong. We were trying on hats today. Next will be wig fun:) If you see any cute hats or scarfs let me know.

She is making me feel better about my hair:)

Playing on the bed and just having girl time! She is going to grow some hair for me.

My inlaws sent my these gorgeous flowers. Thanks John and Monia

Mike hung this above my bed.

I had a pretty good day today. I just am getting a little anxious to see the doctor and see what she says about everything. I start wondering sometimes about the what ifs and it scares me. I am praying so hard. I pray that it does not spread. I pray that the chemo is working well. I am thankful for all my prayers that are being answered. I can not believe that I have done as well as I have. So thank you for lifting me up. To another beautiful day.

Cindy

ps-how do I turn the pictures the right way?

Cindy,Carol,Denelle,Molly and Tom bracelets are in the mail

Good News

This is Mike again, Cindy didnt share the great news with all of you... We found out yesterday that I made the E-8 promotion list. My sequence # is 42 out of 80 being promoted. This is great news for our family, our current situation and our future. Thanks again for all the love and support that has made this journey easier on Cindy! She truely appreciates and loves you all!

Mike

Day 15- Scalp hurts/Memory is terrible-lose my water all the time:)

I have another good day. I am just dealing with my sensitive scalp right now. My hair is flying in the wind. I guess they were right at the cancer center. Today is 2 weeks. I will try to get a picture of myself over the weekend so you can see my hair. I got it cut a few weeks ago. I will be getting my hair cut shorter on Sunday (maybe shaved) My hair designer from Charlotte is catching a flight and coming to help and play and talk to the girls about mommy losing all her hair. So it is going to be interesting to see what happens between now and Sunday.

Thanks for the cards!
Yvonne
Uncle Tom
Denelle
Pat

Sabrina thanks for the pink top, Richard thanks for the flowers, Yvonne thanks for the shawl , Denelle thanks for the hat. I love it and whenever you want I will wear them. I wore it to bed last night. Soft on my head:) Sherry and Dawn thanks for dinner. The girls always love the yummy goodies.

Love to all and keep praying for me!
Cindy

Day 14 Game time

I am feeling great today. I hope this stays the same. The only thing is I keep feeling a little knot on my right side mid area. It scares me. I hope it is not anywhere else so just say a little prayer that it is nothing. Next appt is on the 3rd of Oct.

Well I made the game. It started to rain right after halftime so my father-in-law thought I should leave. He thought it might make me sick if I sat in the rain. So I was out there but I was so happy to be there. Anyway here ya go! Enjoy the pictures:)

Day13 The day is coming...

Another good day. I felt pretty good today. I went through and did my regular routine. By the afternoon was tired so I took this body to rest:) I talked to the nutritionist and she said that my counts were very good so go ahead and eat more raw veggies and fruit while I can so I did and it was good! As I am amazed at how well I am doing I forgot about my hair until....


TODAY:(

I guess the day is coming soon. My hair is coming out little bit at a time. It is almost like I am shedding so it is sad. I thought I was a little more prepared than I was this morning. It took me a good while to grow my hair and love it so:) I will be OK thou.

Tomorrow another game and I hope to make it! At least I made the first so we will see. Thanks again for walking this journey with me. I hope that someone like myself can use this to guide them and encourage them. Since BC does not run in my family I did not know what to expect so here is my way of the real deal. A day in the life of a 38yr old mom living and coping with breast cancer. Fighting is the only option!

Sweet Dreams
Cindy

Day 12 Good day-half way done with 1st

I actually cleaned my house and homeschooled today! I was so excited. I woke up today a little weak at first. I was able to drive Alexa to school this morning. It felt good:)

I went and had my labs done today and they were happy with my white, red and platelet counts. They seemed surprise. Of course being the first time I was not sure what they could actually be but I am not complaining. If they were good goody for me. The only thing they were worried about was on my face I have a booboo (pimple) and it just needs to be watched because it can get infected and make me sick. So I am on it!

Now I am halfway done with the 1st treatment. Hooray for me. So pray that I continue to do as well as I have done. I will continue to eat well, take my medicine and rest when needed. Thanks for pushing me on. So far this has been amazing. If that is even the right thing to say.

Keep lifting me up
Love Cindy

Day 11 Much Better Day AMEN

I woke up to feeling so good. Homeschooling went great and we covered a lot. Mike made breakfast and lunch for me and I still felt good. I was able to go for a ride in the car to check my PO box. I did not get out just to be safe from germs but it was nice to get out. Thanks for all the cards this week!
Pat
Keri
June
Molly
Carol
Gotro's
Sharon

It really means so much to me so thanks a bunch. I am running a low grade fever but I hope it continues to stay in control. Thank you God for that!! I talked to my pharmacist today and he said that I was doing good. He also said that I should do pretty good each time. I may be more fatigued each time. I can live with that. I am just focusing on being healed completely. I am praying that this working and everything is going to be ok.

Nichole thank you so much for the box of sweet and very thoughtful things. The girls and Mike loved the words of encouragement. As a mom, women and friend I want to thank you so much for the love and comfort you are sending this way. I am blessed to know you.



Thank you God for everything you have given me and I am so thank for all of you. God thank you for holding my hand and sending these friends to me to remind me of you Amen.

Love Cindy

PS-Just send me a request on how many bracelets and what you want them to say and Alexa will be happy to put it in the mail:micialsa@aol.com or PO BOX 20583 Greenville,Nc 27858

Thanks to all!

This is Mike , Cindys husband and personal chief, maid etc. (just kidding Cindy) I figured Id break the ice. Anyway, I want to thank everyone for cheering cindy on and all the continued support. I APPRECIATE IT AS WELL!!!!!

Day 10- Filling orders :)

Ok well today I was sore but my body is doing what it is suppose to. I am still running a fever on and off. Not sure why but as long as it stays below 101. I am fine. At this time I am pretty weak but hanging in there. My sister and family came to visit so it was nice to have them here. I have been taking it slow today.

I did want to show you Alexa with her bracelets. Thanks Steph for your help. She is about done with your orders as of now. So if anyone would like one you can just let us know. It will keep her busy. Yvonne and Cindy yours will be in the mail tomorrow!! Michele yours are done but I need your address. I HOPE and BELIEVE you will love them. Thanks for your support.

Well keep praying hard for me. It is a wonderful feeling and I thank you so much. Also thank you for supporting my mom and sister. They are getting excited and ready to walk in Charlotte to fight for a CURE!! If you would like to watch their website to see the goals be met you can look back at the post and click on the link. Here is my moms: Love and fighting hard Cindy

Thank you so much for your time and support in the fight against breast cancer! Every step counts!Komen Charlotte Race for the Cure P.O. Box 601597Charlotte, NC 28260-1597
Click here to visit my personal page.If the text above does not appear as a clickable link, you can visit the web address:http://www.komencharlotte.org/site/TR/Race/General?px=1191415&pg=personal&fr_id=1020&fl=en_US&et=4k_iqkMOq8w6hfpc4kRcHQ..&s_tafId=3722

Day 9 Rough night last night

Well I want to post some stuff today about a surprise Mike gave me and about the batch of bracelets that are done but I am not feeling well today.


Last night I started running a fever. I talked to the doctor and the nurse next door came and sat with me for awhile. The doctor said that I needed to take Tylenol and to drink a lot water and watch my fever until it got another point. So of course I was so scared. I did not want to end up in the hospital or for the doctor to back off on the meds that I need. So I did ok the rest of the night. Today I have just taken things slow. I started having lower back pain and terrible leg pain. Well this is from the neulastin shot. It is suppose to kick in when you white counts are low. The bone marrow begins to start making more white blood cells. This is why my femur bones hurt so bad. So I will remember day 8 and 9 will be rough. Praying tonight for no fever.

Love my love
Cindy

Day 8 Good start

I have been very overwhelmed with emotions. My sister and my mom are joining many others in the Susan G Komen Charlotte Race for the Cure. You can read below to get more info and watch their love for me. I am honored and thankful for everyone joining in to help me fight for my life! I want to thank everyone one for encouraging me and showing me that there is a powerful God in reach. He is walking and talking to me constantly and I thank you for that.


Yesterday was tiring at Alexa's game but I was so glad I was able to be there. Thank you to all the cheerleading moms. You all have been so sweet. It means the world to me. Thanks to one of my friends Sherry for cooking dinner for us last night. It was wonderful and the candle touch me heart "Alive forever Amen".

Today is the first time that I am home alone and I am feeling ok. Looking forward to my sister coming tomorrow.

Read below and click on Stephanie's page!

Susan G. Komen Charlotte Race for the Cure®October 4, 2008
Dear Friends and Family,=2 0
I recently accepted the challenge to raise funds to support the 2008 Komen Charlotte Race for the Cure on October 4, 2008 in the fight against breast cancer. One in eight women will be stricken with breast cancer in her lifetime and the more we raise, the more the Charlotte Affiliate of Susan G. Komen for the Cure can give back to fund vital breast cancer education, screening and treatment programs in our own community and support the national search for a cure..
Click here to visit my personal page and pledge your support.
Please join me in the fight by pledging in support of my participation in the Race or contributing generously to the Charlotte Affiliate. Your =2 0 tax-deductible contribution will fund innovative outreach and awareness programs for medically underserved community in and around Charlotte and national breast cancer research. It is faster and easier than ever to support this great cause - you can make a donation online by simply clicking on the link at the bottom of this message. If you would prefer, you can also send your tax-deductible contribution to the address listed below. Whatever you can give will help! I truly appreciate your support and will keep you posted on my progress.
Thank you so much for your time and support in the fight against breast cancer! Every step counts!
Sincerely,
Stephanie Eldridge

PS-Sherry thanks for all your hard word this last week!

Love Cindy

Made it to the game! Prayer Answered

It was a struggle but I made it. Alexa was great. I have one picture that my 9 year old took. It is not the greatest shot but she took it for me. Hopefully next time I will feel better. Thanks for the push to get me there!

Love to all

Cindy

Day 7

I am not feeling good at all today. I have a terrible headache that I can not shake. Time is ticking by as I wait for Alexa's game. Lord give me strength and relief so I can support her. I will let you know how it works out.

Thanks for praying
Cindy

Day 6 Lord thank you for another good day

I am feeling ok today. I know that the power of prayer is working. I was able to homeschool the girls with no problems today. We worked hard and had a good time. The girls were able to go to a play date too!

I am down to one medicine and it is keeping me feeling pretty good. Thank you for all your support!!

Tomorrow if I am feeling good I really want to make Alexa's first game. I told her I would be there even I sat in the car.

I guess now the road to staying well while my counts fall. This will be for next week or so. So continue to pray for me and I thank you so much.

Love Cindy

Day 5-Tired

Very tired today. Today has been the most tiring day for my yet. I went to the breast surgeon and scheduled my appt for my port to be put in. So that is done. This is suppose to keep me from getting stuck too much. The chemo is very toxic my veins. So pray that the nurses do a good job so it does not get infected.

In the next few days my white counts will fall and bottom out. Sounds scary but I am going to pray that this is the time that God will kill this terrible disease. I think I will feel this way for about a week or so. Pray for strength.

The girls are doing great. Homeshooling is coming along fine. My sister-in-law is filling in and doing a great job.

Alexa has her first cheerleading (footballgame) game. I am hoping that I will be up to it. If I can drag myself there I will sit in the car to experience the excitement with her and the team. I have giving my life to this precious girls and I deserve to see it through. Being a mom is my greatest accomplishment. I love it!

Thanks for being committed to me and pushing on. Thanks for the words that will continue to show me there is a powerful God watching over me.

Love
Cindy

Day 4-Praying Hard-I am thankful

I went to the doctor today and got a shot neulastin(not sure spell). It is to help bring my white count up when needed. It was very painful but I will need it so it is done. I can tell I have mountains of people praying for me. I have been keeping up with my meds and I have not felt too bad. I feel like I am rocking on boat here and there but other then that I am hanging in there. Please keep praying for me as my counts will continue to fall. Hopefully the shot will not put me in too much pain. It may or may not make my bones ache. I am prepared and ready for the chemo to work. Tomorrow appt with the breast surgeon about a port so I do not have to mess with my veins too much.

Thanks for the cards Cindy and Keri! Alexa will be working on your bracelet tomorrow. She is so excited!!


God I pray that you heal me completely and thank you for all these wonderful family and friends. The power of prayer is driving me hard.
Cindy

Day 3

I am feeling about the same. I tired but I cant complain. I have been taking my meds around the clock so I hope this is how I can continue to feel. My mom left this morning. Mike is hanging in there. He took the girls to the park so they could run and play. I know this is so hard on all of them.

I spent sometime making my lesson plans for the girls this week. I hope I will be able to hang in there for them until this is all over with. The are doing great. Learning lots about germs and keep the house extra tidy.

Tomorrow I go get a shot to bring my white count up. So pray that it will do what it is suppose to do. I think it makes your bones hurt. Tues back to the breast surgeon to talk about a port so they do not have to stick me anymore.

Keep praying that the meds are killing these terrible cells. I am going to keep believing that God can heal me of all my disease.

Love Cindy

Day 2

Today has been slow. I have been up a little here and there. I have been taken all pre-meds on time so I can kick the spinning that I feel often. Feeling like you are on a boat all the time. My mom and Mike have been taking very good care of me. I sure do not want her to go home tomorrow.

I pray for another day like today tomorrow. Thanks so much for your powerful prayers! I do feel it all around. The girls are fine.

Thanks Midi, Carrie, Mike, Stephanie,Michael and Keri for dropping everything and cleaning and sanitizing my house. Helping with the organizing so it will be easier for Mike to keep up with.

I am thankful for today!
Thanks to all my blog friends that are walking this journey with me. God is good!!!

Cindy

Day 1

I am home now. Today was extremely scary. I was shaking all the way to the cancer center. My Mom and Mike kept me positive and promised me that they would not leave me. I had my labs done first and then an IV started. It is a weird feeling when think you are about to receive toxic drugs through your veins. Of course no one was my age or even close. I was the only newbie there too. The nurses were all nice and walk me through everything slowly. I loved the pharmacist. He spent a lot of time helping me understand every medicine that they were giving me and everything that I will be taking at home. He told me what to expect. I was there for about 4 1/2 hours. I will be losing my hair in about 2 weeks. I love my hair but it is in the plan. It was an ok experience. Better than I thought.

How am I feeling?? I feel very heavy, I feel seasick and nervous. I am keeping myself full of meds so that I can try not to be too sick. It is a strange feeling. I try to tell myself that I am fighting against something that is so nasty and it wants to fight back and I just cant let it. I continue to look at my wrist. I will update you tomorrow if I am feeling ok.

I felt your love and knew you were praying. I am through with the 1st treatment. I have 5 more to go. Pray for peace in this happy body. Pray that in coming days I can tolerate this. If not they will back off.

God thank you for blessing me with my blog and the beautiful people that are pulling me through! I truly love you all.

The girls are great! Mike was wonderful and mom was well my mom. You are never too old to need your mom(glad my is a RN)

Love to all
Cindy

Pray for healing:)

Chemo tomorrow

Quick update-sorry I did not yesterday. I went to the new doctor and she decided to start my treatments tomorrow. I will have 6 cycles, every 3 weeks. Not sure what to expect. I am getting TAC. They are treating me heavily. Each time I come back they will check to see if it shrinking. The goal is to get rid and be cancer free.

I am not sure how I will feel. So I will update and have my husband also check for me. The comments are wonderful and I thank you for your support.

My husband opened a PO Box for me so that I can get out to do something simple. Feel free to send the girls a card if you want. Also for those of you that want to get a bracelet that my daughter is making ,you can send her a request and donations only. she can continue to keep up with them. She is extremely excited. She is putting hope, believe or faith on them.

Pray that this saves my life. As I am at the cancer center (1030-230)think of me. I do believe that the warriors are out there and watching out for me and I thank you for that.

Sending love of pink everywhere
Cindy Summers
POBOX 20583
Greenville, NC 27858

Tomorrow-Say a prayer for me

I think all of my test are done and results are in. I will be seeing a new oncologist. My insurance company is not going to pay for the oncologist that I was seeing. So I will be seeing the new one tomorrow. Hopefully I will feel a connection with her. Of course I am extremely scared. I am praying that there is no bad news.

I have been working hard on my diet and exercising as much as I can. I am trying to keep busy as I wait. I cant explain the thoughts that run through my mind. I look around and notice so much more. I truly want to live. I want to see my girls grow up. It is such an uncertain feeling sometimes. I try hard to trust and believe. I look at my wrist. I think about what my daughter keeps telling me.

Lord give me strength

Thanks again for everything
Nicki-thanks for the email

Talking to the Girls

Well one of the things I was dreading was talking to the girls. I decided to tell them separately. I started with Alexa. I knew I did not want to start the conversation with I have CANCER and scare her. So I tried to talk to her about some bad cells living inside my body that are not healthy. She immediately said "mom do yo have cancer" I froze for a moment and thought kids are so smart. I replied yes baby. She look scared but told me that I was going to be fine. I just needed to BELIEVE. She was amazing. She started saying I will do anything. I will ride the bus, I will help you do whatever. My husband was crying so hard I had to ask him to relax. Alexa began to make bracelets for all my family and neighbors. They are pink beads with the words believe, hope or faith on them. She wants everyone to wear them and save my life. I could not believe that in a days time she had made them and was knocking on doors and putting them on. It has kept her busy. She wants to start her own little business with these bracelets to support breast cancer. She is a positive little go getter! 2 days later I told Savannah (9). She did not understand the cell story. She just wanted to know if I was going to be alright. She said she would not bring germs into the house and she would be good and help. That was a much easier talk. I loved that she is still too young to understand and carry any stress right now. 2 days later I told Madison(7). She was worried and of course did not understand but could feel my concern. The girls will ask questions here and there. Madison came up to me yesterday and said "Daddy pinky sweared me that you were going to be ok" It took my breath away.

Next appt on Wed-taking forever to start. I have been trying to detox my body. I am suppose to be drinking penta water. It is very expensive and I have to drink a lot of it. Any advice on food. I am following a vegan diet right now. It gets boring thou.

Thanks for all you support/ Keeping praying for me. Pray for some answers on wed. Pray that the chemo works and pray that it stays away from my organs and bones.

Love Cindy

God please heal me

Results are in-The Power of Praying

Prayer Warriors are working hard! My bone scan came up clear. Another day behind me. The next step is to get the results of the protein so they can decide what chemo to give me. So many decisions to make.

My prayer request to give the Dr the knowledge to treat me or go through with the surgery. Now that I know it is no where else I want it out now. I understand they want to give chemo first so they can watch the cancer shrink. If they take out the breast before they aren't for sure that they are giving me the right meds. God please give me the patience. I am anxious to get this started.

I am still so scared and nights are the worst. I beg God to pull me through. Thanks again for every ones support and praying each and everyday!

With love
One day at a time
Cindy

Calling all Prayer Warriors!

Pray hard for me tomorrow! I am having my bone scan tomorrow. I can feel you surrounding me....I know you are praying for me....My CT scan results showed no cancer in my organs. It did show multiple lymph nodes in the breast where the primary cancer is.

A few more test and I will be ready to move forward. As I look down at my wrist and I see the word BELIEVE I have peace. I look above my bed where my husband hung pale pink letter that say HOPE I feel loved.

What is my plan? Where are you sending me? I am overwhelmed.

Pray for my family, pray for the doctors to have the knowledge, pray for my body to heal.

Thank you
Cindy