Friday, September 12, 2008

Day 1

I am home now. Today was extremely scary. I was shaking all the way to the cancer center. My Mom and Mike kept me positive and promised me that they would not leave me. I had my labs done first and then an IV started. It is a weird feeling when think you are about to receive toxic drugs through your veins. Of course no one was my age or even close. I was the only newbie there too. The nurses were all nice and walk me through everything slowly. I loved the pharmacist. He spent a lot of time helping me understand every medicine that they were giving me and everything that I will be taking at home. He told me what to expect. I was there for about 4 1/2 hours. I will be losing my hair in about 2 weeks. I love my hair but it is in the plan. It was an ok experience. Better than I thought.

How am I feeling?? I feel very heavy, I feel seasick and nervous. I am keeping myself full of meds so that I can try not to be too sick. It is a strange feeling. I try to tell myself that I am fighting against something that is so nasty and it wants to fight back and I just cant let it. I continue to look at my wrist. I will update you tomorrow if I am feeling ok.

I felt your love and knew you were praying. I am through with the 1st treatment. I have 5 more to go. Pray for peace in this happy body. Pray that in coming days I can tolerate this. If not they will back off.

God thank you for blessing me with my blog and the beautiful people that are pulling me through! I truly love you all.

The girls are great! Mike was wonderful and mom was well my mom. You are never too old to need your mom(glad my is a RN)

Love to all

Pray for healing:)


MiMi said...


So glad that you are back home and that the experience today was better than you thought it would be. I am sure that today was very scary for you and I am so glad that your husband and Mother were there to support you.

It sounds like you had a wonderful pharmacist that took a lot of time to explain some of the things that you had questions about. I think that is the biggest fear -the fear of the unknown --so hopefully he eased a lot of your fears.

I will be praying that you can tolerate the treatments well and the medicines will not make you sick.

Praise the Lord that He carried you through this first treatment and I know He will continue to do the same with the rest of them!

"But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds, declares the Lord" - Jeremiah 30:17

Praying for you and your precious family,

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

I was thinking and praying for you all day yesterday! What a blessing it is to have your mom with you and the fact that she is an RN, I know that must help make things a little more comfortable to have someone "know" the lingo in the hospital and terms and who people are.

I hope you are not very sick today and I'm so sorry about your hair. Praying that God will give you a good day, not to much sickness. Sending our love, prayers and hugs for you and your whole family!! We love you!!

Leebird said...

Everyday....usually more than once a day....I am praying for you, my sister I have never looked at face-to-face, embraced with a giant bear hug, or shared a laugh with. I've never had a Starbucks with you, never hit the sales at Ross, never watched a tear-jerker movie. But, you know what? We are sisters all the same, Cindy. Sisters related not by human blood, but by the blood of Jesus. Feel the love coming from AZ! Love, Lee

On Purpose said...

Hello Cindy, thinking and praying for you right now! Praying for strength to "get through" the ickies of chemo. And for the chemo to "do its thing"

Love to you!

Cindy said...


I am stopping my day to pray for you right now.

"As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous." Joshua 1:5b-6a

As Joshua faced a very difficult challenge ahead of him, the Lord promised to go with him. The Lord will walk this journey with you and will always be by your side.

Blessings of peace to you, Cindy