ok lets pray that my white count is better tomorrow.
I have been reading a lot and looking at different foods. During different times I am able to eat different things. When my counts are good I like to eat most of my diet raw. Lots of organic veggies. The more I can stick in the salad the better. When my counts are down I eat more pasta and cooked veggies. So chicken is the only thing I am eating with pasta.
Low sugar and low fat. I have read cancer loves sugar and fat cells. So I am always looking for recipes that are good and healthy for me. I do believe that eating healthy and drinking lots of water is giving my body some great energy.
I was hoping to get more into this but I am extremely tired and I have a little headache. So goodnight for now.
Thanks for my cards Carol and Susan!
Pray for a great day
Cindy
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Day 13-Sweet Dreams
Today has been good. I did not do too much but I was alone with the girls and I did fine. I am starting to get a little anxious about my next treatment. So I am asking for you to pray for calm thoughts. My good week will be coming up and I want to enjoy it before chemo day. Thanks for helping and supporting me through.
I received the cutest PJ's today. As matter of fact I received two and they were from two different people from the opposite ends of the country. Florida and Oregon. I love them both. So Laurie and Emily you are very thoughtful and I thank you.
Tomorrow I want to talk about food. What I have learned and what I would like to learn. If one of your gifts are cooking or you know a lot about healthy food then I need you:) Low fat and low sugar is what I am looking for. So I look forward to tomorrow.
Lord thank you for your gift tonight. You sent it to me at the right time and I am thankful. Thank you for that you are giving me. Thank you for blessing me. You are in control. I love you.
Lee send me your address again-chemo brain and I don't know what I did with it. Your bracelet is ready.
Love Cindy
sweet dreams August
I received the cutest PJ's today. As matter of fact I received two and they were from two different people from the opposite ends of the country. Florida and Oregon. I love them both. So Laurie and Emily you are very thoughtful and I thank you.
Tomorrow I want to talk about food. What I have learned and what I would like to learn. If one of your gifts are cooking or you know a lot about healthy food then I need you:) Low fat and low sugar is what I am looking for. So I look forward to tomorrow.
Lord thank you for your gift tonight. You sent it to me at the right time and I am thankful. Thank you for that you are giving me. Thank you for blessing me. You are in control. I love you.
Lee send me your address again-chemo brain and I don't know what I did with it. Your bracelet is ready.
Love Cindy
sweet dreams August
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Day 12-Halfway done with treatment 2
Savannah, Madison and me having fun with some hats. Of course one of my wigs:) Thank you God for giving me days where I can not get enough of my girls. I am by myself this week and I am looking forward to feeling normal. It is hard but being at home and taking care of everything will never get old. Thanks John and Monia for all your help! Cant wait until you come back.
Thanks for all my cards in the last few weeks:
Tom,Juanita,Pat,Yvonne,Nichole,Gail,Keri. The girls love them. We are making bracelets this week and weekend. So I will email everyone when they are on their way. Thanks Sharon and Nichole for getting them out. It is going to be fun and Alexa is ready.
I want everyone to praise God and thank Him for taking care of me. He is hearing everyone and I want to give Him the GLORY that He deserves! Love you all.
I feeling much better today.
I wanted to show you where I had my port put in. I still has the strips over it. It is healing fine but it hurts sometimes and feels so weird. You can see the port under my skin right under the bottom strip. I sure hope I dont have to have it for longer than a year. This will be one of my scars that will be a reminder of how much you all have walk this journey with me. Love you!
Praying for stronger days and looking forward to feeling good. Have a wonderful day.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Day 11 (day32) Awareness
I guess you are hearing a lot about breast cancer because it is October. Some may say yeah but I not even 40. I am not going to worry about it yet. Ok so then you think well it does not run in my family or I don't know anyone that does so I may not think about it but once a year. STOP! It is time to take charge. My story:
I am 38 years old. I have been married for 14 years and I have a daughter that is 12, one that is 9 and one that is 7. I nursed all the girls from either a year to almost 2 yrs each. I was done nursing and having children when I was almost 32. Never any problems. Not looking for anything. Happy with my life. Jan of 07 I went to my GYN for a normal visit. I told him that I felt a lump or something under my arm. He checked and gave me my exam and said that I was fine. I sat up and I said so you are sure that I don't need a base line mammogram? He said your fine. So I left and trusted. Throughout the year I would feel it. I ask a few other drs along the way. I was sick last spring and had to go the hospital and showed the dr. Oh it moves it is ok. So when I went back to the same dr this summer. I showed him again. He said lets go ahead and send you. So I had a mammogram and ultrasound. Came back with my results. Nothing on the mammogram but the lymph node is big. It is suppose to be 1cm and my is 2.4cm. So she said lets biopsy it. I came back had that done and waited. Waited a long week. The dreaded call. Mrs. Summers is it a good time to talk?? I thought no way? Yeah I can talk. Well I hate to give results over the phone but it is malignant. She talked for a long time. When I hung up I did not know how I was going to walk in the house and tell Mike. What about the girls? I waved my hand for Mike to follow me outside. I said I have it! I have cancer ,they just have to find it now. Next step was to have the MRI. Got my results right away. They saw a small 4mm nodule in my left breast only. So I went the next day to have it biopsied. The results were ready when I went to see the dr Aggressive stage 111. WOW really? Me? How? Because it already spread to multiple lymph nodes that is what it was staged. I was horrified. I was scared. I was out of control. The dr explained what he thought. Of course I heard a third. My mom, sister and Mike were with me. So now off to the oncologist same day. Went through lots of test. The dr there gave me the bottom line. You need chemo, surgery, radiation and reconstructive. In that order. Remember it does not run in my family nor at the time did I know anyone who had all of this. So all I can do is cry. Long day. Lots to think about. Lots to question.
Lesson learned...you are OK...I don't need a base line....your fine. No way never again. Go see someone else get a second opinion. You are in charge of your body. I did not know any better but now you do. Please take care of your body. Listen to it and know it! You do not need to be scared just be AWARE. Spread it around. I do not want another women to make the same mistake. Can you believe after all I have gone through so far that this dr has not called or checked on me once. Sad.
I am young and it does not run in my family history. Cancer does not wait until your 40 or 50. It is October learn and be aware every month.
Love you all
Cindy
Thanks for all my cards the last few weeks! Crystal thanks for the book. Sabrina thanks for the shirt. Dana thanks for checking on me.
Keep Praying
I am 38 years old. I have been married for 14 years and I have a daughter that is 12, one that is 9 and one that is 7. I nursed all the girls from either a year to almost 2 yrs each. I was done nursing and having children when I was almost 32. Never any problems. Not looking for anything. Happy with my life. Jan of 07 I went to my GYN for a normal visit. I told him that I felt a lump or something under my arm. He checked and gave me my exam and said that I was fine. I sat up and I said so you are sure that I don't need a base line mammogram? He said your fine. So I left and trusted. Throughout the year I would feel it. I ask a few other drs along the way. I was sick last spring and had to go the hospital and showed the dr. Oh it moves it is ok. So when I went back to the same dr this summer. I showed him again. He said lets go ahead and send you. So I had a mammogram and ultrasound. Came back with my results. Nothing on the mammogram but the lymph node is big. It is suppose to be 1cm and my is 2.4cm. So she said lets biopsy it. I came back had that done and waited. Waited a long week. The dreaded call. Mrs. Summers is it a good time to talk?? I thought no way? Yeah I can talk. Well I hate to give results over the phone but it is malignant. She talked for a long time. When I hung up I did not know how I was going to walk in the house and tell Mike. What about the girls? I waved my hand for Mike to follow me outside. I said I have it! I have cancer ,they just have to find it now. Next step was to have the MRI. Got my results right away. They saw a small 4mm nodule in my left breast only. So I went the next day to have it biopsied. The results were ready when I went to see the dr Aggressive stage 111. WOW really? Me? How? Because it already spread to multiple lymph nodes that is what it was staged. I was horrified. I was scared. I was out of control. The dr explained what he thought. Of course I heard a third. My mom, sister and Mike were with me. So now off to the oncologist same day. Went through lots of test. The dr there gave me the bottom line. You need chemo, surgery, radiation and reconstructive. In that order. Remember it does not run in my family nor at the time did I know anyone who had all of this. So all I can do is cry. Long day. Lots to think about. Lots to question.
Lesson learned...you are OK...I don't need a base line....your fine. No way never again. Go see someone else get a second opinion. You are in charge of your body. I did not know any better but now you do. Please take care of your body. Listen to it and know it! You do not need to be scared just be AWARE. Spread it around. I do not want another women to make the same mistake. Can you believe after all I have gone through so far that this dr has not called or checked on me once. Sad.
I am young and it does not run in my family history. Cancer does not wait until your 40 or 50. It is October learn and be aware every month.
Love you all
Cindy
Thanks for all my cards the last few weeks! Crystal thanks for the book. Sabrina thanks for the shirt. Dana thanks for checking on me.
Keep Praying
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Day 10 Catch up
I am feeling ok today. I started running a fever yesterday but low enough that I did fine! Praise and sing:) I am very sore but that is my little reassurance that my white counts are working hard. I am ready to get up off this couch but my body is not ready so I will listen to it and rest.
Things to catch up on!
My girlfriend and neighbor signed me up and bought me a ticket for a breast cancer fundraiser here in Greenville. So Thursday night my MIL , Bree and myself went. It was a nice hotel here. They severed dinner (2nd time I have eaten out in 6 weeks or so) They also had tickets for sale for raffles. The baskets were incredible. I bought my and the other girls did and we dropped them in what would like to win. Of course they had a handful of survivors they recognized(Praise-want to be in their shoes soon) Then they called my name(Bree gave it to them) It was overwhelming to be the only one in the room full of 100's of people. They gave me a rose and top that I will post later. Then once I sat down they said that there was a house cleaning service that wanted to give something to a currently fighting patient. So they called my name and said that she was going to clean my home once a month for a year. I was so emotional that I could not get up! They came to me. It was so nice and thoughtful. So the rest of the night we played bunco(never played ever). I had a great time. My MIL won of the big baskets full of so much I will post that later too. When we got home she handed me the basket of fun and said I hope you enjoy it. It was a great night. I hope when you have time you jump over and look at reflector.com and you will see me on the 3 and 4th picture. So this mama went out on the town. Bree thank you for having me be a part. It was a lot of fun and I was glad you invited me. Thanks to the companies including Stokes Landscaping for donating tons of stuff ($11,000) Thanks to the Greenville Womens League for putting to together.
Tomorrow I want to catch everyone on me and the last couple of months. I want to talk about breast cancer and how important it is to be proactive. I love you all and want you to be healthy and aware.
I want to talk about Alexa's bracelets because I am starting to get emails so she is ready to get busy. It slowed down and she needs to keep busy. Thank you for wearing them. It is an amazing feeling.
Keep me lifting and I thank you. I am looking forward to seeing what is next for me. I am blown away that other than the icky taste and feel days done here and there. This has not stopped me. 3 toxic medicines -chemo in my body. I am hanging in there. Lord please continue to use me for your Glory.
Love Cindy
weak but hanging:)
Things to catch up on!
My girlfriend and neighbor signed me up and bought me a ticket for a breast cancer fundraiser here in Greenville. So Thursday night my MIL , Bree and myself went. It was a nice hotel here. They severed dinner (2nd time I have eaten out in 6 weeks or so) They also had tickets for sale for raffles. The baskets were incredible. I bought my and the other girls did and we dropped them in what would like to win. Of course they had a handful of survivors they recognized(Praise-want to be in their shoes soon) Then they called my name(Bree gave it to them) It was overwhelming to be the only one in the room full of 100's of people. They gave me a rose and top that I will post later. Then once I sat down they said that there was a house cleaning service that wanted to give something to a currently fighting patient. So they called my name and said that she was going to clean my home once a month for a year. I was so emotional that I could not get up! They came to me. It was so nice and thoughtful. So the rest of the night we played bunco(never played ever). I had a great time. My MIL won of the big baskets full of so much I will post that later too. When we got home she handed me the basket of fun and said I hope you enjoy it. It was a great night. I hope when you have time you jump over and look at reflector.com and you will see me on the 3 and 4th picture. So this mama went out on the town. Bree thank you for having me be a part. It was a lot of fun and I was glad you invited me. Thanks to the companies including Stokes Landscaping for donating tons of stuff ($11,000) Thanks to the Greenville Womens League for putting to together.
Tomorrow I want to catch everyone on me and the last couple of months. I want to talk about breast cancer and how important it is to be proactive. I love you all and want you to be healthy and aware.
I want to talk about Alexa's bracelets because I am starting to get emails so she is ready to get busy. It slowed down and she needs to keep busy. Thank you for wearing them. It is an amazing feeling.
Keep me lifting and I thank you. I am looking forward to seeing what is next for me. I am blown away that other than the icky taste and feel days done here and there. This has not stopped me. 3 toxic medicines -chemo in my body. I am hanging in there. Lord please continue to use me for your Glory.
Love Cindy
weak but hanging:)
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Day 9 Thank you
Well today as you can see I was in the bed all day. My energy is way low and I am so tired. I worked on my blog and said goodbye to the Army colors and hello to a Sister in Pink:) Hope you like it and it is easy to read. I have so much to tell you but I do not have the energy to be long winded. So it will be a date very soon. To be continued...
But I wanted to say thank you for praying hard for me. I am blown away because I need my white count to come up so I prayed and I asked for my circle to lay their hands on me and I woke up this morning in terrible pain. I am talking all day pain. Why am I happy because my bones are working hard to bring my counts up I know it I feel it. I have not had any test and I am not a dr I just know. So ouch *praise*ouch*praise is what I am saying!!! Keep lifting me by next Friday I what jump with my girls on the trampoline and bounce this cancer out.
Sweet Dreams(hope for me too)
Cindy
But I wanted to say thank you for praying hard for me. I am blown away because I need my white count to come up so I prayed and I asked for my circle to lay their hands on me and I woke up this morning in terrible pain. I am talking all day pain. Why am I happy because my bones are working hard to bring my counts up I know it I feel it. I have not had any test and I am not a dr I just know. So ouch *praise*ouch*praise is what I am saying!!! Keep lifting me by next Friday I what jump with my girls on the trampoline and bounce this cancer out.
Sweet Dreams(hope for me too)
Cindy
Friday, October 10, 2008
Day 8-Results are not good
I am extremely tired and weak today. I was hoping to go on and on about last night. My white count is reading zero! I am have been told to be inside, no visitors, no raw veggies or fruit and no one sick, no other children. My body is very weak and I can get extremely sick. Please pray for me. I will catch up with you as soon as I am well. Check out reflector.com and go to scene around. Click on bunco for breast cancer. I am picture number 3 and 4. Check out my "crazy & sexy" wig! I cant wait to tell you the details.
God give me the strength to rise above this. God heal me and wake my bones up and start producing new white cells. Lord send my warriors to work. I need them. Lets make zero jump with glory.
Love
Cindy
God give me the strength to rise above this. God heal me and wake my bones up and start producing new white cells. Lord send my warriors to work. I need them. Lets make zero jump with glory.
Love
Cindy
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Day 7-tired, excited and cant wait to chat
I am going in for my white count check in the morning. Pray for me! I am so tired tonight. So tired that I think I over did it but I had fun. You are not going to believe what I did tonight. You are going to have to wait until tomorrow. It is worth the wait. I love you all. Don't forget to praise Him for getting me this far:)
Cindy
Cindy
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Day 6- going visiting to your blogs
First I am sorry I have not felt good enough to visit or respond. I do feel better today. I hope everyone is well. Made another game! There is so much that I want to get caught up on. Thanks for all my cards this week. Thanks for all my new blog friends and comments. Your support is the best. Lee thanks for my letter!
I have a challenge that the girls and I want to do. The idea came from one of my girlfriend bloggers. She had a great idea that the girls want to take on. We would like at least one person from each state to wear Alexa's bracelets in my honor! So Nichole, the girls have decided to use their money to make more bracelets to send you and you can help us take this on your end too. If you are up to the challenge you say the word:) This will keep the girls busy and they are convinced the world can save my life. Thank you for making this world a beautiful place.
So far we have:
NC
SC
FL
WA
CA
TN
AZ (did I forget any?)
Thank you Lord for all that I have. Thank you for a better day. I love you
Cindy
I have a challenge that the girls and I want to do. The idea came from one of my girlfriend bloggers. She had a great idea that the girls want to take on. We would like at least one person from each state to wear Alexa's bracelets in my honor! So Nichole, the girls have decided to use their money to make more bracelets to send you and you can help us take this on your end too. If you are up to the challenge you say the word:) This will keep the girls busy and they are convinced the world can save my life. Thank you for making this world a beautiful place.
So far we have:
NC
SC
FL
WA
CA
TN
AZ (did I forget any?)
Thank you Lord for all that I have. Thank you for a better day. I love you
Cindy
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Day 5 Need a check
It has been a tuff few days. I keep telling myself I can do this. I found myself in the bath feeling bad, sore and just very down. I thought how could I do this. I am only in my 2nd treatment. It is such a lonely feeling when you get to that point. As I sat there I slowly looked up at the high ceilings I heard my girls laughing and getting ready for me to come out and start their day. They need me to be there. So I pulled myself up and went about my day. It is amazing what a mom can do. There is no amount of pain that is going to keep me from being my girls mom.
I know the last few days have been very random and may not have made much since. All these medicines can make you so strange. Thank you for letting me vent, be scared and journal my journey.
Praise Him for a successful surgery! I am still sore but it seems to be healing. As soon as all this medicine is out of my body I am going to eat very healthy and pray that my white count stays up. It was wonderful to hear the dr say how strong my body did last time.
Thank you for your commitment to watch what God has in store for me. Love you all
I know the last few days have been very random and may not have made much since. All these medicines can make you so strange. Thank you for letting me vent, be scared and journal my journey.
Praise Him for a successful surgery! I am still sore but it seems to be healing. As soon as all this medicine is out of my body I am going to eat very healthy and pray that my white count stays up. It was wonderful to hear the dr say how strong my body did last time.
Thank you for your commitment to watch what God has in store for me. Love you all
Monday, October 6, 2008
Day 4 tired
I started my day going to the doctor and having my port checked out. It is healing fine. I also received my shot. So I pray that it works as well as last time. I spent the rest of the day sleeping and trying to eat healthy. The girls went to Raleigh today and went on a few tours with Mikes dad. I am thankful that my in laws are in town and helping out so much. Cleaning and cooking and giving the girls extra time.
Well I am am going to make it short. Pray for a better day tomorrow. I am back to the strange taste in my mouth. So I am trying to stay positive and listen to my body. God give me the strength to push on through.
I hope to chat with you tomorrow as happier girl!
Love everyone
Well I am am going to make it short. Pray for a better day tomorrow. I am back to the strange taste in my mouth. So I am trying to stay positive and listen to my body. God give me the strength to push on through.
I hope to chat with you tomorrow as happier girl!
Love everyone
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Day 3- Caught up on some rest (day 24)
Well I have not done too much today. I have been trying to take my medicine when needed not as much as I did the first go around. I am weaning myself off the pain medicine. I have only taken it once today. The port is sore but I is suppose to be worth it. I will be getting it checked out tomorrow and see how I am healing. I also will be getting my shot tomorrow so when my white counts are down my bone marrow will kick in. Tomorrow pray for my results to be good.
I can not believe that I have made it this far. I still have a long time to go but a day at a time is the goal. Thank you for continuing to encourage me and follow me through this journey that I could not do alone. I hope to feel better tomorrow so I can visit everyone to see how you are being used to reach out to make this world a better place. You all have blessed me so much. I am thankful to have all of you.
Lord guide me this week and hold me as I prepare for next weekend. Let me be strong and let my body take this medicine to heal me completely. Pray for the girls to understand. Amen
I can not believe that I have made it this far. I still have a long time to go but a day at a time is the goal. Thank you for continuing to encourage me and follow me through this journey that I could not do alone. I hope to feel better tomorrow so I can visit everyone to see how you are being used to reach out to make this world a better place. You all have blessed me so much. I am thankful to have all of you.
Lord guide me this week and hold me as I prepare for next weekend. Let me be strong and let my body take this medicine to heal me completely. Pray for the girls to understand. Amen
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Day 2 Very tired and still sore
Today I slept most of the day. I guess from the extra medicine from surgery it has just worn me out. I have never been one to take anything so when I do it is going to work in over time. Well I am still a little sore but I am hanging in there. Thanks for all your prayers. I was so nervous yesterday and I knew the power was behind me. In a few days I will tell you more about my surgery when I can sit longer. I plan on getting a wonderful night sleep and a restful day tomorrow.
Monday I will be going to get my neulasta shot. My dr was amazed at my counts on Friday she said that I was strong and that you have never known that I had Chemo. Praise Him! I love you all deeply and I could not be driving on without you all. I am thankful. Please continue lifting me and holding my hand through this journey.
Sweet dream and a wish for all of you to be blessed
Cindy
Monday I will be going to get my neulasta shot. My dr was amazed at my counts on Friday she said that I was strong and that you have never known that I had Chemo. Praise Him! I love you all deeply and I could not be driving on without you all. I am thankful. Please continue lifting me and holding my hand through this journey.
Sweet dream and a wish for all of you to be blessed
Cindy
Friday, October 3, 2008
Day 1 Back at home
First to my sister thank you for racing for a cure. Thanks to who donated in my honor. Be strong and hold your head high. I love you. Julie, Sharon and Marla thanks for walking in my honor also. Love to all of you!
Well today was a long day. The surgery went fine. I am sooooo sore but I sure it is not going to last forever. Thanks so much for all you support, love and prayers.
I am feeling sick today but not too bad. I am taking a few more meds because of the surgery. So it maybe because of everything from today. I am praying that it will pass. I am not going to blog too much today. I just wanted my faithful warriors to know that I am ok and that I believe I will be healed
Pat thanks for the wish candle, Jamie and family thanks for dinner and all the wonderful gifts, Mary thanks for the bird feeder and Carol thanks for the believe plaque it hanging in my kitchen.
Mom thanks for coming and being with me. John and Monia thanks for being here for me and girls. Having both families here is a very safe an secure feeling.
Love Cindy
ps- dr said my lymph node is shrinking!!!!
Sing and Praise
Well today was a long day. The surgery went fine. I am sooooo sore but I sure it is not going to last forever. Thanks so much for all you support, love and prayers.
I am feeling sick today but not too bad. I am taking a few more meds because of the surgery. So it maybe because of everything from today. I am praying that it will pass. I am not going to blog too much today. I just wanted my faithful warriors to know that I am ok and that I believe I will be healed
Pat thanks for the wish candle, Jamie and family thanks for dinner and all the wonderful gifts, Mary thanks for the bird feeder and Carol thanks for the believe plaque it hanging in my kitchen.
Mom thanks for coming and being with me. John and Monia thanks for being here for me and girls. Having both families here is a very safe an secure feeling.
Love Cindy
ps- dr said my lymph node is shrinking!!!!
Sing and Praise
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Day 21- Last day Calling all prayer warriors wearing pink
Well I have had a pretty good go around this time. I will be comparing 1 to 2. I pray that it is the same. Thanks so much from the bottom of my heart. You all have been a huge part of where I am today. I feel good and I am ready to do this again. I am scared a little because I am getting the port put in so I pray that everything goes well with that. My mom is on her way. So mom be safe. My in-laws will be caring for the girls tomorrow.
Surgery-6:15-9:30
treatment 10:00 until ? I think I was done around 3 last time. So a long day. God give me the strength and keep me strong tomorrow.
Kim and Bailee I love my bracelet! Thanks for all my cards this week. I love them.
Off to the game around 3:30!
Ok friends and family everywhere put your pink on or your bracelets and let me feel you tomorrow. I need it!
Love Cindy
wearing my pink today
Hi to my new friend in Florida! Thanks for your support. (we were stationed in Eustis, Inverness and Port Richey, we spent about 7yrs there)
Surgery-6:15-9:30
treatment 10:00 until ? I think I was done around 3 last time. So a long day. God give me the strength and keep me strong tomorrow.
Kim and Bailee I love my bracelet! Thanks for all my cards this week. I love them.
Off to the game around 3:30!
Ok friends and family everywhere put your pink on or your bracelets and let me feel you tomorrow. I need it!
Love Cindy
wearing my pink today
Hi to my new friend in Florida! Thanks for your support. (we were stationed in Eustis, Inverness and Port Richey, we spent about 7yrs there)
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Day 20-Thurs is my last day of round one
I am starting to get extremely nervous. I am trying to figure out what all I have to do to be ready. Tomorrow homeschool as much as I can concentrate on. I need to write down all of my questions so I will not forget to ask my dr when I am there. I have Alexa's game. She is handling everything so great. I still feel like I am in this dream sometimes. My mom is coming and my father-in-law. I will have a busy evening but that might be good. I need to get all my meds ready and filled. I start taking one tomorrow which is the steroid. I can not believe it is here. Time to start again. Give me the strenght to stay in control.
So how is my hair? It was looking pretty crazy and my scalp started hurting again. So I did it! Mike shaved my head almost bald. I was not comfortable with the way it felt so I left a tiny spike. It feels weird. Anyway it is done.
Friday is coming and I am scared about everything. Thank you for letting be honest about my fears. Crazy ups and downs.
Pray for the breast surgeon to be successful with the port. Pray that I don't get sick from the surgery and then have to go to the cancer center, pray for the treatment to go smoothly and pray for a good weekend. Lord hold my hand and let me know I am going to be OK.
Thanks for my cards this week. More bracelets went out today. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for praying for my little girl. May you all be blessed!
Love Cindy
Please allow my to sleep tonight.
ps-anonymous the card was wonderful
So how is my hair? It was looking pretty crazy and my scalp started hurting again. So I did it! Mike shaved my head almost bald. I was not comfortable with the way it felt so I left a tiny spike. It feels weird. Anyway it is done.
Friday is coming and I am scared about everything. Thank you for letting be honest about my fears. Crazy ups and downs.
Pray for the breast surgeon to be successful with the port. Pray that I don't get sick from the surgery and then have to go to the cancer center, pray for the treatment to go smoothly and pray for a good weekend. Lord hold my hand and let me know I am going to be OK.
Thanks for my cards this week. More bracelets went out today. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for praying for my little girl. May you all be blessed!
Love Cindy
Please allow my to sleep tonight.
ps-anonymous the card was wonderful
update on Alexa
Mike took Alexa to have her ultrasound. So I heard what he said. Of course it did not make much since. Dr. Brinn called shortly after he is Alexa pediatrician. He told me that the pediatric radiologist felt like it was were the artery and vein meets and it made a little knot full of blood. There were a few things she said it might be but felt confident that it was not cancer. He said they were taking it seriously and she would be seen again in 3 months. I went round and round making sure how important this is and I do not want it taken lightly. So we are to watch for it to grow. hurt or become red. I just cant believe this. So I am having to trust that they are saying it is OK right now and they think it is nothing???? So keep her in your thoughts and prayers. As her mom I am worried but I don't want her to know that. I want to be proud that she found it and continue to have faith.
I am tired now so I will update about Friday later tonight. Thanks so much for everything.
Cindy
I am tired now so I will update about Friday later tonight. Thanks so much for everything.
Cindy
Quick Post- Alexa
Alexa found a pea size lump on herself. She is having an ultrasound today 12:30. Mike is going to take her. I can not believe this is happening right now. Oh please let this be nothing.
Pray for her
Cindy
Pray for her
Cindy
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
PENTA WATER
This is Mike, I want to thank PENTA WATER/ Bio Hydration for sending us 5 cases of water as well as coupons to use for Penta water. This water taste great to Cindy even though her taste buds are affected by treatment. Thanks again Jay Josafat and Elgin Gilbert.
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