Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Day 5 Need a check

It has been a tuff few days. I keep telling myself I can do this. I found myself in the bath feeling bad, sore and just very down. I thought how could I do this. I am only in my 2nd treatment. It is such a lonely feeling when you get to that point. As I sat there I slowly looked up at the high ceilings I heard my girls laughing and getting ready for me to come out and start their day. They need me to be there. So I pulled myself up and went about my day. It is amazing what a mom can do. There is no amount of pain that is going to keep me from being my girls mom.

I know the last few days have been very random and may not have made much since. All these medicines can make you so strange. Thank you for letting me vent, be scared and journal my journey.

Praise Him for a successful surgery! I am still sore but it seems to be healing. As soon as all this medicine is out of my body I am going to eat very healthy and pray that my white count stays up. It was wonderful to hear the dr say how strong my body did last time.

Thank you for your commitment to watch what God has in store for me. Love you all


On Purpose said...

You keep venting and we will keep listening...because we love you and we are standing here holding your hand through this process!

I love you Cindy...and you are doing an amazing job! Keep fighting girl!

Kimberly said...

Just wanting to check in on you and let you know you are still in my prayers.
Blessings, sweet Cindy. Keep holding onto Him...and know He will not let go of you.

Anonymous said...

The words are not always there, but our hearts, prayers and love will continue to be there. Cindy you are doing wonderful. Your devotion to your family is amazing always trying to put them first. Never doubt yourself. You are a wonderful mother, wife, daughter and friend. Remember its ok to feel overwhelmed. Let God be your strength.
Isaiah 40:29
He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. Father in heaven we pray you hear our crys and give Cindy the strength she needs. In Jesus name, amen

Kristen Teed said...


I just finished reading your blog over the last two months. You are much stronger than I could ever hope to be! You are such a special person and friend and I will pray for you with all my might. We are adjusting to our move to Arizona but seems so small in comparison......Sarah is putting a letter in the mail to Madison. I envy your steadfast faith. As a mother, I know that strength comes from our beatuful children . Keep well. We will be praying and loving you.

Kristen and Sarah Teed

Nicole said...

Ran across your blog awhile ago. Saying a prayer for you tonight!

crys said...

Hi Cindy,

I came across this verse today:

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27

I pray today you will be filled with peace!

Anonymous said...

Cindy, You hang in there gal. I know it's hard and there will be days you want to say, I've had enough. But just remember - this too shall pass. Believe me, I was there 15 years ago. I went through a mastectomy, re-constructive surgery (tram) and mega doses of chemo. I spent 2 out of every three weeks in the hospital. Been there, done that and I'm a survivor. I said all that to encourage you that it works. I'm praying that God will strengthen you and give you that peace that passes all understanding.

Gayla Chandler
I'm engaged to Bill Eldridge

ThreeGirlyGirls said...

Oh girly, I'm so sorry things are hard. I know how these meds can mess us girls up!! Trust me!! =) AHHH. I hope things get better soon. You keep being real, we love you and that's that!

My Army Brats and Me said...

Kristen and Gayla-
Thanks for visiting my blog. Keep praying for me.
Love Cindy

Anonymous said...

Cindy, glad to hear you are doing better today. I have been praying and will continue to pray for you. The bracelets sound great. Maybe I can get one from Stephanie.
Proverbs 3:5 & 6.