Sharing my chemo day

Here is my day. This is the back of my pants. I came in ready to celebrate last day of chemo.

Next is me in the chemo bay. Nichole I love my scarf. My shirt says FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL:) Next is my doctors (two ladies) my pharmacist(guy) and the nurses(sorry my eyes are closed) Please do not worry about the red face and the weight gain. Chemo makes you gain and have a lot of water gain. Here is my long and exhausting day. I love you all.

Chemo Treatment #6 Prayer Warriors Wanted

Today is the day. I am getting ready and I started getting excited, nervous, scared, anxious. I can not believe that it is finally here. The day that I have been waiting for.


I want to take a few minutes and tell you how much it has meant to me to have all of my family behind me. You have jumped in and helped with the kids, cooking, cleaning and laundry. You have lived in my house and left yours behind without questioning it. You have sat with me during long chemo visits. You have driven me to doctors appt and to fill scripts. And most of all you have watched me from the beginning hear news and results that have brought me to my knees with screams and tears that have changed my life forever.
THANK YOU
To my friends that have known me for a long time. I know it has been hard. What to say? How to act? What to do? You have been great. I love you and thank you for coming and helping out. You are a true friend.
THANK YOU
To my blog friends. You have been with me since the beginning. You have committed to walk with me in this journey. You have kept me focused. You have prayed when I could not. You knew when I needed you. You have served our God well. You will be blessed. My wish is to meet you all someday. I love you and I am so grateful to all of you.
THANK YOU

Mike, Alexa, Savannah and Madison as I write this I begin to cry. I can not imagine how it must feel to see your Mommy sick. I know it has been scary. I know it is hard to fight the thoughts. I love you all so much it hurts. It is a privilege and honor to hear you call me Mommy. Everyday is a blessing with you. Always remember that I will love you forever. Mike I know it has been hard to work and take over everything that I have been to doing to make our family run. I know that you are exhausted and drained. Even thou I know you are sad but you don't show it. I am OK with it. Thank you for being strong at night when I am falling apart. Thank you for loving me and saying that I am beautiful when I am so vain. I love you!

Wear your pink, wear you bracelets and leave me a comment. It is time to celebrate and start a New Year. If have not left a comment or do not know how it is easy. Click on inspiring words and type away in the box, type verify word and hit anonymous if you do not have an account. I want to here from you and I need it.

Love Cindy
FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL

Last Treatment

Hey I am getting a little nervous. I have a cold so pray that I do not get push back from this appt. I wanted to thank everyone for supporting me during this difficult time. It has been hard but it will be worth it in the end.

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year. I am looking forward to being healthy and cancer free. If anyone would like to added to my text during chemo tomorrow email me your cell micialsa@aol.com

Praying for healing
Cindy
ps lee I wanted to share my letter but it coming strange and will not let me do it?

Day 109-Good Morning

Lots of random catch ups.

We just got home last night. Yes I did say that. We went to Charlotte for a quick trip. We left Friday late morning. The girls were sick off and on all last week and weekend. So we are off to the dr's at 2 today. But anyway we spend Fri with Mike's family and Sat with mine. I will post pictures later my computer is still not working. Everyone had a lot of fun. Sat I had tons of visitors so thanks Stephanie and Jon for opening your house to all my friends. It was fun and tiring all in one to see everyone. People I saw:

Nicki from three girly girls-She came by and sat with me for a while. Thanks Nicki for coming by and look forward to seeing you when I am back. Nicki and I were neighbors which turned into great friends and bible study pals. Love ya girl. Teri came by to see me. We also became friends after living in the same neighborhood. We sat around and ordered tupperware with the girls.She is always there for me. It was tons of fun. Love ya girl! My girlfriend from Miami Keri which now lives in NC. It was great to see her. I know it has been hard for her to see me sick. We have known each other since before school days. So I was happy to see her. Love you. Mary and Nicholas came to see Madison and me. She was Madison's K teacher. We became friends and we love her baby. She has been a huge support to Madison when we moved. She has also been positive and Strong for me when I was falling. We love your family very much. Check out her blog and you will see pictures of our visit. (it is on my sidebar The Camp Fam)I saw my girlfriend Carrie. She was the one that just left here. It was great to see her. My girls love her and got really attached when she was here. Love you girl. Then I met Gayla she has been leaving comments on my blog for a while now. She is a breast cancer survivor for 15 yrs. She was very open with me and shared info and answered lots of questions. So it was great to finally meet. Love ya. Of course it was great to see everyone and I hope I did not forget anyone. Please know that it was fab.

My Savannah was with her best friend for the weekend. She is like our 4th daughter we love her and it was great to see them together. Sharon thanks for loving my family and look forward to building our relationship. Love ya.

Nikki (cousin) thanks for playing with the girls. It was great to see you. Love ya

When my computer is up I want to show you my ornaments. They are treasures so if you are still going to do it please do. They can come anytime. I love them.

Bracelets-I am happy to say that a few more have finally made it after a week or so of mailing. Praise!

Well it was a great time even with the fevers and coughing. It is time for me to get well and ready for Wed. Can you believe it. One more. I am going to pause and I hope you do right here and pray for me to be healed completely.....Amen! I am so happy that I have all of you. Thank you for letting me be honest. It has been a hard road and still a lot to go but I truly BELIEVE I could not have done it with out YOU and the PRINCE OF PEACE! Love all of you.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I love you. My family and Mike's thanks for everything. Breeanna and Carson love you.

Cindy

Everyone is sick in this house but we are excited

Merry Christmas from The Summers'

Wishing you wonderful memories with family

Fighting like a girl

Cindy

Savannah is feeling better

Thanks for all your praying! She is feeling better today. Praise!!


Someone is taking Alexa's bracelets out of the cards. This is very upsetting so let me know if you receive one. We mailed about 15 of them last week. So far one made it. I know of 2 that the card made it with a slit in it. So please pray that the next bunch make it. I need to make a trip to Micheals and I guess I will start paying insurance. Please give us some time. She really wanted you to have them by Christmas. Sorry

Cindy
I am very frustrated

Savannah Noel

Savannah should be feeling better very soon. Thanks for praying for her. The doctor said it was viral. So no medicine for her. (happy girl) She is still has a cough but she seems to be popping up. I think the Bitty Baby we gave her today put a big smile on her face. She has walked around today with a backpack on her back with her baby.

Tomorrow we will celebrate her birthday so I will post her party.

Wishing everyone a wonderful night.
Love Cindy

BRACELETS

Let me know when you get your bracelets. It seems some of you have not received and some received the card but the bracelet was taken out. I guess someone is looking for Christmas gifts in the mail. This makes me very sad. I do not mind sending you another just let me know. I will pray about this and hope that they make it. Sorry

Savannah has a doctor appt this morning. So I will let you know how things are going.

Savannah is sick-

My baby woke up at 5 am with a fever. Please pray for her tonight. She is still feeling bad and her fever is staying at about 102. With Christmas coming and her birthday we just want her well fast. Mike is having to take care of her because I can not get sick before the 31st. So it is hard comforting her from a distance.

Off to the Dr tomorrow.

Savannah will be 10 tomorrow!

Thank you for praying ( I feel awesome today I just feel so bad that Savannah has been so ill)

Day 16 Shop until you drop

I have not been able to shop until today. So I have been out for a long time today shopping. I am so tired but I bet I was the happiest shopper out there. While everyone is flying through the parking lots to find a place to park I am just like no big deal I will park where ever. As I am walking through the stores I am just wondering around enjoying being out while everyone else is rushing and stress out. Life is just to short to get caught up in all the crazy stress. Lets not forget what Christmas is all about. I am not. And yes I am about to drop!

Lots of bracelets are in the mail as of today. Thank you for wearing them. I will give a list of states Monday so we can see what we need to cover. Nicki I saw you have a friend in IN will see if they would like to wear a bracelet for her state? Thanks so much for helping. Also I am receiving the coolest ornaments. They mean the world to me. I will take a picture in the next few days to show them off.

Praising today and everyday. Still BELIEVING!

Love
Cindy
2 days until my blue eyed Savannah is 10

Results are in!

Praise praise praise everything is normal from what they can see with ultrasound. We are off to see Santa and to Mike's Christmas party.


Love you all
Cindy

Day 14-Waiting for results still-PRAY

Today I had my ultrasound. Of course I am still waiting for the results. I hope to be able to update you tomorrow. I am feeling good and hope to feel myself by Christmas. Thank you for praying.

About the She Speaks Conference: I have been waiting for the right time to tell you about my news. I told you about Mike making the promotion list a while back. Well we were told that when it was time to move that we would have to move out of the southeast this time. So we were concerned because of my medical needs. We knew that it would be hard for family to help being too far north or too far west. I just pushed it to the side and said I was not going to worry about it. So not too long after that Mike received a call with a position in Charlotte, but in order to take the position he had to move in Feb with or without me. After talking about it we decided that this is part of the Plan. Most of our family is in Charlotte. So we just put the house up for sale this week. We are not sure with the housing market how long it will take but it is God's hand so I will wait. So I will stay back with the girls and finish treatment, Alexa will finish school and we will wait for the house to sell. I am so excited. What I am extremely excited about is that I will be getting the chance to meet a lot of you who will be attending. I will not be attending but in the same city with all of you. We are just going to have to make the time. Mimi I am not sure if you attend but I know you live close so we should be able to surely meet. Anyway I have been sitting on this because I could not believe we got this offer. It is so neat when things just fall into place. So if you are out there and something is just not going your way. Don't worry just let it go and give it to God and it will fall into place.


Much love
Cindy
4 days Savannah will be 10

Day 13

I have had a wonderful day today. I have my ultrasound done tomorrow. My girlfriend leaves tomorrow too. I have had such a great time with her. Thank you God for allowing her to have this time. We love her.


Hope all is well and will post about my appt tomorrow. Thanks for praying.

Love Cindy
5 days until Savannah birthday

Nichole I am praying for you.

My journey-catching up new viewers

My name is Cindy and I am 38yrs old. I have been married for 14yrs. My husband is an active duty soldier. He is working on 20 yrs of service. We have been able to move around and meet people from all over. I have 3 daughters. Who I love so much. I enjoy everything about them. I am a Christan, a daughter, a sister and a loyal friend of many.

Everything has been going well. I was loving my life. I was excited to start my new journey of homeschooling my two youngest when my life took a huge hit. Over the summer I went to the dr about a lump that I found. I was referred to an imaging center where I had an ultrasound and mammogram. The sad thing to this part of the story I brought this to my dr attention a year ago. He decided that I was fine and I did not need anything. So then I had a biopsy done. The results took forever. It was the longest week. When I finally got the call it was the worst day of my life. How was I going to tell my husband? How was I going to tell my family? Worst of all how was I going to tell my daughters. Next was a MRI to find where the cancer is. Then a biopsy of the cancer. Then waiting for the results. I saw a breast surgeon. He gave me the results. I was told stage 3. I was devastated. I went from the surgeon to the oncologist. After several scans and lots of appts. It was time to start my journey of fighting like a girl. The plan for me: 6 treatments, surgery, radiation and then reconstruction. Before I started chemo I knew I would have to talk to the girls. So I did. I chose to tell the girls at different times. It took everything out of me. This is where the bracelets took life. You can read back for more details on how I talked to them. So I started chemo and I am now on the 5th. It has been up and down. I am doing fine and looking forward to being done with this part.

Thanks for letting me catch up everyone. When I started blogging I never dreamed it would be therapy for me. It has been a way for me to be real and journal about my everyday life living with cancer. I have leaned on my faith to keep me focus. I did not know by choosing to believe and be obedient that I would find all of you. When I requested people to pray for me I did not know how amazing it was going to be. Because of all of you I am making it everyday. Thank you for blessing me everyday.

I am praising God tonight for another great day. I am looking forward to many more. Praying for a miracle and excited to give Him all the Glory!!

Love Cindy
PS-my email is down(if you have emailed in the last day sorry it will be back up on Friday)

Lee=ornaments-I would love to have one that is a reflection of prayergifts if you have time:)

Day 12-Appt changed until Thurs

Frustrating but my appt was changed until Thurs. I was so hoping to get this out of the way. Oh well I will be patient and wait until then.

Today was the first day since I started chemo that I went to the park and walked for 30 mins. I was so happy. It was a bit cold and raining lightly but I did not care. This girl was gonna walk. It wore me out but I have felt wonderful today. So thank you for praying for strength for me. I so can feel what you are praying for me.

I know that there are a lot of new viewers out there. So I wanted to catch everyone up on my journey and who the Summers' are. I know that I said I would do that yesterday but I am going to do it tonight. So I will post a little later.

Til tonight
Cindy
6 days until Savannah will be 10

Day 11 Feeling good-Alexa's basketball game

Carrie and my girls at the game tonight. It was so much fun.













Savannah and Madison wanting a quick picture with their big sis!

Yeah we got spirit!! Get on the Mustang Train....OOOHHH AH(sorry i forgot to do red eye)

Hanging with her friends!

Alexa flying high. Mommy gets a little scared every time she goes up:)

There is my beauty queen. I love getting to go and watch her.

Pray for me I am getting an ultrasound tomorrow or Wednesday to check out and see if there is anything in my mid area. Praying that I am free and clear.

Enjoy and Good Night

Cindy

Day 10-Sweet Surprise by Sweet Savannah

Savannah was back tonight. She had a nice time. She had a party for me today. I ran out to the store for a little bit when I can home she had a dessert table made up of teddy grahams, chocolate covered cherries and pretzels. Then she had appetizers and fruit. My girlfriend made panini's. So when we sat down to eat she wanted to bless us. It was too cute. She had a bowl of water and went around and bless each of us(she went to church this morning with her Catholic friend) Oh did I mention she had a tip jar on the table too. It was a great surprise and a lot of fun.

Today was a good day. It was great weather. I sat outside and watch the girls play around and have fun. Today is probably been my best day yet. So thank you for all you prayers. Hopefully everyday will just get better. It is time for me to get ready for shopping because I know Santa is coming and my little girls have been good!

I am also so thankful for all the bracelets that are wanted out there. So we are busy working on that. Thanks for loving my girls and walking with me on this journey. I love you all.

Praising God for giving me the strength to fight as hard as I have been able to. I want more then anything to continue to be a mom to my girls. It is a privilege and honor to be their mom. So I am going to continue to BELIEVE! Sweet Dreams

Fighting like a girl

Cindy

Day 9-Tired but everyday a little easier

Madison is learning how to knit with my girlfriend. My girlfriend took a week off to come and hang with me. We have known each other since we were 5 yrs old. She has some projects to do with them. She is great with my girls. I am excited that she is here.
Alexa looking at the computer. She is getting tired and ready for bed soon.

My cousin Nikki came to visit today. She is so tired after playing with my girls today. We are so happy that she came.

I have been house bound today trying to stay well. It has been a fun day and I can not complain. It is getting so close to Christmas and I am so far behind. I want to start getting in the mood . I am excited about the ornaments even if they come after the fact. It will mean so much to us.

Alexa is getting some more orders for bracelets. I will post next week what states are being covered.

I also am curious who is attending the She Speaks Conference in Charlotte? I think that is what it is called? I will explain why wants I get dome feedback.

I know that there are viewers that are just know reading in so I am going to chat a little about my journey on Monday. I know it is hard to go back and read 100+ posts. I am follower of God and love you to join me. I am praying for a Miracle and looking to give God all the glory. As my bracelet says I am believing. It is important for me to share how much I am being blessed everyday by bloggers praying for me and taking time to share scripture and love with me. It is my journey and I thank you for letting me share. I thank you for letting me be me through the good and bad.

Have a wonderful night

Fighting like a girl

Cindy

I forgot to post 9 days until Sweet Savannah is 10 yrs old(she is at a friends tonight)

Day 8-Counts low:(

Alexa says thank you!

My white counts are at 1 but I am sure I will be feeling better by the beginning of next week. Thank you so much for all your hard praying and support. I keep telling myself that I am almost done. I am believing that I am going to be OK so that I can continue doing the work that I am suppose to do. I am loving all the beautiful stories that I am hearing. The hearts that are being reached and the souls that are being saved. It makes it all worth it.

I am so excited to see the new states that my daughter is making bracelets for so thank you. It is amazing to see her think that believing and gathering the world to save me. Faith is awesome.

I love you all and look forward to great days.

Cindy

Day 7-Feeling so-so

Sorry I did not blog yesterday. I did so much because I felt pretty good which made me so exhausted. Today I did not feel as good. I am starting to learn the drill and my counts are definitely falling. It just makes you so tired. So tomorrow when I get my white counts checked I am sure they will be low but that is what it is suppose to do.

I will be putting some pictures up this weekend of the girls. They have taken up cooking and baking with Yaya. They are having so much fun. So I am looking forward to cooking with them.

My day yesterday: Madison and I let Daddy sleep in and cook breakfast for him. It was a lot of fun. I homeschooled the girls. I drove for the first time since chemo on Friday and checked my po box. So it was a full day for me. I think Daddy was surprised and enjoyed it.

I am looking forward to catching up on every one's blogs. I sure do miss it. I am also looking forward to seeing all your ornaments. The girls and I will work on ours.

I am thinking off all of you. Thanks for praying and lifting me up. I love you.

Love Cindy

Day 5-Tuff but up

I am sorry my post have been short. I have been resting a lot. It is just a slow process. I did drag myself up today and made pancakes for the girls and myself. I homeschooled the girls this morning without any help too! I have been missing them. By the time we were done I was tired. It is amazing how powerful chemo is. I have been reading my emails, texts and comments. I am blown away. What a wonderful place and wonderful people that are serving. Thank you so much for all your praying. There are so many things that I want to say but I am not strong enough yet. I just want you to know that I am believing.

Thanks Mike, Mom and my inlaws for caring for me without any questions. Thanks for loving the girls. I am very lucky. Thanks to all my blog friends...someday I want to tell you how you have changed my life forever.

I have all the request for bracelets. They are being made. Canada too:)

The girls and I came up with an idea. It has to do with ornaments on our tree. If you would like to make an ornament with your name and/or blog info. It would be a reminder for my girls that you are a part of our lives to celebrate every year. It would be beautiful to see your love on our tree. Peace and love coming your way.


In His Arms
Cindy

Day 4

I am struggling. It is so tuff right now. My body is sore and I am exhausted. I just wanted to check in. I will rest for now.

Much love Cindy

Day 3-#5

Keep praying as I fight to shake this off. I am very tired but trying hard to get up when I can. I will be back soon to catch up. Sending love everywhere.
Cindy

Day 2

I am OK! I am resting a lot. Thanks for praying and please continue. Love everyone:)


Cindy

Pink Pink Pink Pink Pray Pray Pray Pray

Here we go! Getting ready to settle down. The housekeeper comes in the morning. Love when she pulls my bed down so when I walk in the door I can snuggle right in. If you remember I was given this as a gift for a year. When I went to the fundraiser for breast cancer. She wanted to donate her time to a cancer patient. Too sweet.

So you are probably getting to know me and know what I need right now. Thank so much for praying for me. I am going to go in there telling myself that I can do this and walk out knowing I am conquering this terrible disease.

Wear your pink, wear your bracelet and lets shoot for that MIRACLE that I am seeking. Love you so much. It is time for this girl to get her fighting gloves on. Rocking the cancer center tomorrow (steroids sure do make you think you are rocky lol)

LOVE CINDY
Keep sending bracelet request:)
Ps I joined Facebook and it is too fun

More states

OK here are some of the states that I was not sure about but now are wearing bracelets!

Idaho
Hawaii
Connecticut

thanks for requesting from Georgia, Michigan and Canada-Alexa will make this weekend
Be back to close to night Love ya

Quick post and I will post later about tomorrow

Send me an email micialsa@aol.com if you would like a bracelet. Alexa will make them and we will send them out. Thanks for your support.
Love Cindy

bracelets that are coming
Emily-fl
Nicki-nc
Robin-va
Jamie-nc
Sheryl-please email me so you can wear one for your state
Lee-alexa made you a special one it is going out today-sorry it has taken me so long!
Have I forgotten anyone that asked?? Got to go and finish getting ready. Alexa has a game today.

Peace and love-will post my thoughts later:)

PRAYING HARD AND FIGHTING HARDER THAN EVER

Day 20-Praises

Another nice day. I realized that this week that I have done fairly well with my anxiety. I think the biggest thing I worry about is that I need to stay well.

Tomorrow I will start taking my meds to get ready. As I prepare for Friday please pray that I can tolerate the chemos. It scares me each time. You should see me in the chemo room. You all would laugh at me. I never relax like everyone else. I never sleep like everyone else. No way! I ask a million questions. I mean I question everything. I am the baby in there compared to everyone else. I get stares and glances. I know they are saying she is too young to be here. Thank goodness my husband and mom are so good and patient with me. It will never get to be a routine with me. I take each treatment very seriously. So please pray that I will be OK.

I hope that someday that someone out there going through this terrible, scary unbelievable dream can have hope and faith and know that I will walk them through. I want them to know that anything is possible through Him.

Thank you my committed friends for helping, supporting and praying for me. It means so much.

Sweet Dreams
Cindy

States I know:
Florida
South Carolina
North Carolina
Tenn
Virgina
Ohio
Arizona
California
Oregon
Washington
Did I forget any?? Lots to go. If you are a quite reader that is fine. If you would like to wear a bracelet just let me know.
(I have a friend that was covering a handful not sure where I will find out tomorrow, also I will have LA taken care of)

Day 19-Great day

Today was my best day so far this go around. It is interesting how the last week my body gets as close to normal just to get ready for the next treatment. I am starting to get my taste back. So here is what I guess I can expect. Friday is treatment day. The first week I feel drugged and poisoned (the only way I know how to describe) The second week tired, counts are done and weak. The last week gaining my strength and feeling normal. The last three treatments I have ended up on antibiotics but everything has ended up fine. My prayer request for tonight is that I stay healthy and strong. These last two treatments are so important for me to stay on track. Dec 5 and Dec 31 than surgery. Oh I am so ready to be done.

Thank you for all your support. It has meant so much to me. I am hoping everyone is having a great week. I plan on spending the rest of the week getting ready. My mom and my in laws will be here on Thursday night. Wishing them safe travels here. Oh I forgot to mention I am by myself this week. Tonight I cooked too. Loving feeling myself.

Dear God thank you for holding my hand, walking with me when I am scared, carrying me when I could not take another step and covering me with prayer warriors from all over. I am thankful and I am giving you the Glory and Praising you always. Amen


Love Cindy
Praying for a Miracle

Day 18-Good day

I am feeling good. The last week is so nice. I have chemo # 5 on Friday. Sometimes I still can not believe that I am going through this. I really want to this one over with. The colder it gets the more chances for the flu. So pray that I stay healthy through the next month.

Thank you so much for all the support that you continue to send. I love reading and hearing from you. You are serving our God well and I thank you for it.

I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving. Around our table giving thanks was a lot of tears. Mom had all of us crying. Anyway I am thankful for my life and meeting all of you. Thanks to my inlaws and mom for having Thanksgiving here with us.

Alexa still is working on her bracelets. I have not been well enough to find more prayer warriors out there to represent their state. She wants to cover all the states. So let me know where you live and help fulfill her dream.

Happy December! Spread the word. Reach out and tell someone that you love them. If you are missing something don't go another day lonely. God loves you!

Love Cindy

Day 15-Praising and giving thanks always

Doing fine. I will be back on Monday. I am going to spend some time taking care of the house. I need to be prepared to be down starting Friday. I have chemo and it seem to keep me down longer this time. So I love you and look forward to catching up on your blogs this weekend and week.

Take care and I hope you had a wonderful day.

Much love
Cindy

Thank you for a great day.

Day 14

Happy Thanksgiving

My counts are back up and I am thankful

Much love

Cindy

fighting like a girl

Day 13-Many tears fell last night but I am feeling better:)

I am slowly feeling better. I am so thankful for days like this. It sure is scary sometimes. I had a week planned of thanking everyone and involving the children with my blog...But I am just so tried and run down. So here goes a short version with a big heart of love:

I am sending wishes for families everywhere to enjoy your families (even if you normally don't), reach to someone who may need a hug, share with someone why you are thankful for them, call someone who you may have been on the outs with, smile at someone you don't know, pray for someone who may not know the Lord,be kind to yourself and enjoy tomorrow!

I am sooooooo thankful for all of you. I do not think I have seen a better example of God's love spreading around this world like this blog circle. I am so lucky to have found you and we know that this was in the plan. Please join with me in Praising God for all of things He has given me. You are a part of me forever and I am forever grateful. Please know that I am praying for all of you and thank you for sharing when you do. Thank you women on the west coast, Alexa is happy making bracelets. Thank you for loving me and my family. Love Cindy(Fighting Hard)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING FROM THE SUMMERS'

Day 11-Praise with me

Thank you for all your quick and constant praying. I am feeling so much better today. Two full days of antibiotics and coast to coast prayer is what this sick girl need.

Yesterday was very scary. All of the sudden I just started feeling like the flu hit me harder than I have ever had. When I called in to talk to the Dr about my fever she wanted me to go to the hospital. I felt so bad I told her I was scared to go because I thought I would catch something going to the ED. So she called me in two antibiotics and told me to rest. Today when they called to check on me she said that if I had a fever while on the antibiotics that I would go to the hospital and would not have a say. I said fair enough.

I knew that I could count on all of you for covering me with thoughts and prayers. I am praying that I continue to feel better everyday.

I am still a little weak. Lord please let me get through this. Thank thank thank everyone. Thank you for fighting with me. I love you all.

Dear Heavenly Father thank you for giving me the strength to fight yesterday. Thank for sending me all of these prayer warriors. I am giving it all to you. I love you. Amen

I am thankful for you
Cindy
shooting for better days

Day 10-Quick prayer

I am sick with the flu! I am not feeling well and have a temp. I am requesting for lots of quick praying. Dr wants me to go to the hospital but is letting me take some antibiotics she called and in and rest first. If I do not get better I guess I will be taking my first trip to the ED.

I am off to rest knowing that you have this for me. Lord thank you for my PW.

Cindy

Day 8-Counts low:(

Well they are not zero. They are 1. So home bound for now. Tired and feel like I might be coming down with a cold.

Please pray that I stay healthy so they don't have to back off on any dates. I am too close to run into problems now.

I need to rest but I wanted to thank everyone for making Madison's day a great memory.

Praying for everyone to stay warm and cozy.

Cindy
the snow was wonderful today

Celebrating My Baby

Madison making a wish! Happy Birthday sweetie.

Madison loves babies.

Mommy and Madison with our new dog. He is begging right now.

Two tired girls right here.

As you can see God is good! I was able to hang in all day. Madison loved all the attention from all of you. Thanks for the cards and emails and celebrating all over your blogs. It has been great. I sure am ready to crash tonight. Thank you so much for all your hard praying. I was able to enjoy all the excitement. I love you all. Tomorrow is white count day. Sending love all over.

Happy Mommy

Cindy

Madison's birthday!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADISON

Some fun pictures of Madison in the last year or so. Pictures later from our celebration! One proud Mommy.

Day 6-Drained

Thank you for all the Scriptures and emails! You have been called and you have answered. I am forever thankful.

Hoping tomorrow will be the day that I am up and about. I am resting. It has been a rough few days. I will be getting my white counts checked on Friday.

Emotionally it has taken a toll on me. As I cried in the evenings wondering how can I do this My husband continued to tell that there is no option. That I am doing fine and to continue on. I kept responding with I am human and I am scared. It is such a terrible feeling. I have probably said to my children more than enough. Mommy can't right now but as soon as I feel better I will. It is frustrating. I do understand that it is going to take all I have to fight and conquer.

Thank you for praying as I rest. Thank you for being a loyal friend. There are wonderful things happening and more to come.

Praying for strength
Love Cindy
1 day Madison will be 8 (she is so excited that this house my not sleep tonight)
Miss you Jeff

Day 5-trying to drag myself up

Taking longer to pop back. Thank you for your commitment to me.

Pray for me to up and able to celebrate Madison's birthday on Thurs.


Off to rest-Lord thank you for sending me all these prayer warriors!
Cindy

Day 4- Struggling and weak

I am trying hard to get up when I can. These meds can really take a hold of you. I am looking forward to better days to come. I will rest when my body says.

I am very uncomfortable right now. It seems to be the routine. I know that it will get better. It has been hard to not be able to play and teach the girls the last few days. I am lucky to have family that has jumped in and helped. So thank you.

Thanks Mimi for my card. Nicki thank you for spreading and sharing your friends. I will be by to visit their blogs soon to thank them.

Wishing you all well
Cindy
3 days Madison will be 8

Day 3

Just resting. Not feeling very well today. Pray for this to pass.

Thank you for all your support!


Cindy

Day 2-Tired but hanging in there

Thanks so much for all you support. Nicki thanks for sharing my story. It is so nice and comforting to see how many people care. It really drives me on.

I rested a lot today. I am on so may meds right now so I feel up and down. I am feeling better than last time today. So one day at a time for me.

Chemo went fine yesterday so now I can praise Him and say only 2 to go. Thank you Lord. Nichole thanks for calling. Cindy thanks for my bear, Pat thanks for my cross. August thanks for all your time.

You all are serving well. Thank you for praying for me. I feel covered completely. My turn will be coming soon. I am learning a little each day and it becomes more clear.

I had some of you ask for my PO box:

POBOX 20583
Greenville NC 27858

Praying for rest and strength to get through.
Love Cindy
5 days Madison will be 8

Mom thanks for coming! John and Monia thanks so much for being to help.

Me again!

It's amazing to me how so many people are praying for Cindy and thinking about her each day in so many places. I'm not one to take things for granted, So I always tell myself that it could always be worse. I often think about the past,present and future. I cant imagine the past being as great as it has been because of all of YOU! I cant imagine Cindy not communicating with each of you via , blog,email and phone. Each of you reading have made this a bit easier to cope with knowing that there is great people surrounding us as a family. I'm so grateful to ALL of you! For each of you to take the time to call, type and send cards to someone you haven't even met is amazing. Think about the ladies 50 years ago who were all alone going thru something like this. I also thank my Co-workers and the Army chain of command in being there for me as well. I know now why I'm still serving after 18 years! I want to thank Our immediate family, Dad, Monia, mom, steph,Jon, grand mommy, sherry,sue, ken, U tom and family and all the rest of the gang. I shouldn't of started that because the list is to long to type and not nearly all have been mentioned. I thank our neighbors for all they have done! I thank each person praying for Cindy. I thank each person who thinks of her often and is kind to her and the girls. I look forward to our future and being able to met each of you. I think we should plan a party for summer 09 and get everyone in the same place for a couple of days. THANKS AGAIN FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!! ALL YOU GUYS AND GALS ARE GREAT!!!!!!

Day 1 Just got home

I am done and I am glad to be home. Back to the yucky taste to my mouth. I did fine thou. The doctor said that she could barely feel the lymph node. So it seems to be getting smaller. Praise for that!

She talked a lot about the future. Next treatment is Dec 5 and then Dec 31. I will have my surgery around the 14th of Jan. Then radiation will begin 3-6 weeks after. That will last for about 8 weeks. Reconstructive surgery will be 6mos after that. So still a long road. She also told me a lot about what can happen and why. So it is just going to be part of my life for a long time.

That's all for now off to rest. Love you and continue to pray for me
Cindy

Day 21- Last day Calling all prayer warriors wearing pink

I had a wonderful day! I have already taken my meds and I am ready for tomorrow. I need you and depend on you to push and pull me through.

Wear your pink and wear your bracelet. I love you all. Pray hard that I get a good result and that I do not have a reaction to the chemo. It is always so scary not knowing. Thanks for your commitment. You will never know how much it means to me.

Yes I am nervous but I will drive on. My prayer tonight is to stay focused and for God to protect me and never leave me.

My inlawas are here and my Mom is coming tomorrow. Thank you God for making that a part of your plan. There is a plan and I will follow.

Sweet Dreams and Pray
Cindy
7 days Madison will be 8

Day 20-Good day

Well I counted back and it has been 62 days since I started treatment. That means I am halfway done with this part. I am praying that my body is prepared for this next treatment and that my body is reacting to the chemo and killing the cancer cells.

Thanks for all you comments and support. Thanks for your calls, cards and prayers. It means so much. Thanks to all the ladies out in Washington! I love you all too. It seems when I am feeling bad a call or a card comes in right at time I need it the most.

I hope everyone is well and I am thinking of you all. Lee I am praying for you and family. Nicki I hope you are OK? Nichole I am praying that you bless someone on Friday.

Off to study with my girls. Love Cindy
8 days until Madison's birthday

Thank you Babe

Happy Veteran's Day

Thank you for your faithful service

YOU ARE MY HERO

I love you

Cindy

Day 19

Yesterday I was fine. I just got busy and my Aunt came by to visit from Wilmington. So we stayed up catching up. I was so tired last night so I crashed.


This morning I am feeling good. I look forward to the last week. I hope it is always this way. The only thing is the anxiety. I start getting nervous going through the treatment. I have thoughts that start running. So pray for me to be more relaxed this week.

Next treatment is Nov 14
5th treatment Dec 5
6th treatment Dec 26

Pray for complete healing. One thing that I know that I want is a life with purpose-thanks to a friend.

Praying for a wonderful day
Love Cindy
9 days til Madison's 8th birthday

Day 17-Fun

My sister and Me!!

Cheese!

My sister Stephanie and all the girls having fun. Steph love my hair on your head.

Of course Carson does not want his picture taken. I did get one eye. HA

Savannah and MG waking up. They are having a good hair day.

Getting ready to go to be in the Tepee.

Savannah trying to get with the luggage before our family takes off. We would miss her.

Jonathon(BIL) and my nephew Carson-I guess the Panthers are playing today??

Madison and her cousin Breeanna-Saying goodbye to her Best Friend Forever.

Savannah saying goodbye to best friend before they get on the road.:(

Stephanie and Cindy with the kids! NOT!

Mike and Jonathon trying out my wigs.

Thanks for a fun weekend. Love ya! S and S thanks for letting MG jump in the car. We love you all.

Day 16

Having a fun weekend with the family. The girls are playing hard with the cousins. We hit the park and played. I have felt good but I am so tired tonight. Thanks for your continuing support.

Thanks Nichole and June! I love everything. Wishing everyone a wonderful night.

If you want to be blessed check out my friends blog. If you have a prayer request or would like to join in lifting someone up who needs it.

http://livingmylifeonpurpose.blogspot.com

Sweet dreams
Cindy

Day 15 white count good- Send your Praise up

My white count is back up to 6. Red count and platelets are good too. So thank you for all your prayers. I could not do this without each of you. I love all the cards. I love all the encouraging words. I love that you are sharing my story. I love hearing about your stories, following your blogs, seeing pictures of your families and praying for you.

I have been thinking a lot about the next treatment. I am a little intimidated because this one was a little more powerful. I have been spending more time praying to be healed. I pray that the chemo works and that I can not feel the lymph node anymore. Thank you for being a faithful prayer warrior. I look forward to hearing from you and gives me a lot of HOPE! Thanks Emily, Pat and Carol!

More bracelets will be going out next week. Have a wonderful weekend. My sister is coming to visit tonight and I am looking forward to it.

Love Cindy

Please pray for Leebird's brother-in-law. She has been a wonderful support to me. Thank you

Day 14

Getting my white count checked tomorrow. I felt pretty good today. The girls and I ate lunch at the park and then went to the pet store. They have been asking to go for about a week now. We were gone for about an hour and half. All I heard was how much fun and how thankful they were to get out. So that was fun.

Last night we had a lot of fun. My neck hurt for a while this morning so you can figure that some of my girls stayed all night. It was worth it thou. I think Alexa knew her bed was going to be much more comfy then mine. Madison and Savannah were so crashed this morning. It was too cute.

Lee I am praying for your family! Wear that bracelet with lots of love. Yvonne, Sharon, Cindy,Pat and Sherry thanks for my cards.

Thanks for all your prayers. I do feel them! Giving praise for another nice day.

Love Cindy
14days til Madison is 8

Day 13-Feeling fine

Feeling good and I want to thank everyone for praying for me. Thanks for believing that I can do this. I am so thankful for days like this.

I have a meeting in my bed tonight with the family. We are hanging out watching TV and enjoying each other. Wish me luck 5 in a King size. The girls are looking forward to snuggling. Sweet dreams I need to take advantage of these times when I am feeling well.

Praying for all of you and your families
Love Cindy
15 days til Madison's bd

I am coming to visit all your blogs this weekend. Miss everyone!

Day 12 halfway with #3

So I had a good day. I actually cooked dinner!! I was so excited.

The girls came back today and had a nice time. My inlaws are leaving tomorrow and will be back next week in time for chemo. Yuck. Mike is off Sat-Tues:) Thanks for serving our country Babe!

Bragging corner- Alexa made all A's. After all that she is going through she was still able to handle her studies. I am a proud Mama.

Lots of random stuff I know you all can tell when I am excited. I probably don't make a lot of sense and the simplest thing makes me so happy.

I have so much to be thankful for. Sharon thanks for all the scriptures. All my blog friends thanks for being so good to me. Laurie I am so glad you have a bracelet. All you Oregon and Washington supporters I am sending my love your way. Thanks for praying for me. When I am weak I know that I can count on you to pray.

I am just happy and grateful today. So as always I want to give up for our awesome God.

Sending love to all
Cindy

Thanks for wearing my bracelets. If you ever need a replacement just let us know. I have been wearing the same one since day one. Thanks Alexa- I choose to BELIEVE!

YOUR AMAZING

I LOVE YOU CINDY AND COULDNT BE PROUDER OF YOU!!!!

LOVE MIKE

Day 11 I am back!

Thank you Sweet Jesus!! Sometimes it just takes a little time to get back on track. I love to go back and read cards, letters and comments to put me in check.

Without Him I am nothing and with Him I am everything. I had a wonderful day. Please Praise Him for being patient with me and for using each of you to help me when I am weak.

When I started blogging I was updating my friends and family on my life as a soldiers wife. I make friends all over as we move around. So it makes it easier for them to keep up with us. I never thought that I would have been blogging for therapy, for support, guidance and advice. I look back at things now and know that God was preparing me for this journey. Deciding to blog (thanks Nicki) and deciding to home school the girls this year. Since Savannah and Madison are at home it prevents a lot of germs from entering the house. It all makes since. The beautiful thing about blogging is all of you. There is someone out there that will follow my footsteps someday and when they think they can not do this one more day I can tell them you WILL and you CAN because I will hold your hand. There maybe someone out there that is going through something may just not be that big of a deal and shake it off. What about someone that needed to see this world is full of the most loving compassionate people that they have ever seen. Do you know that most of my sweet blog friends I have never met before. So reach out if you need someone. Sometimes things are not as bad as they seem. Thank you for praying for me.

Loving today and looking forward to tomorrow. Thanks for my cards John, Terri, Nikki,Pat, Cheryl, Jessica and Jacqui! Conya thanks for getting me out today!


In His Arms:)
Cindy
17 days until Madison BDay

Day 10

I had a pretty good day today. My girls (Savannah and Madison) went to the mountains for a couple of days with my inlaws. Mike and I sent the day with Alexa. We played Disney trivia on the Wii. We had a blast. Sometimes it so nice to just forget about everything and have fun.

I believe tomorrow will be my first time by myself without anyone. Alexa will be at school and Mike will be working about an hour from here. So I should get a lot of quiet time with God to get focused and make a good plan for my next go around. I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out my body and how I can make this easier on me. I am not sure if I did something a little different or is it just the more you get the more that your body is hit. I can not wait until the day that I can not feel my lymph node. I have only been able to feel one all along. So of course I check everyday hoping not feel it.

Pray for my body to continue to heal. Pray for my body to detox and get ready for the next go around on the 14th. Thank you for you commitment to my journey. Love to all Cindy

Dear Heavenly Father please protect me and heal my body completely. Praising you for the good day today. Thank you for Mike, the girls, family and friends- Amen!

Count down to Madison's birthday
18 days

Day 9

Feeling better today. Thanks for all the encouragement. I hope everyone has a wonderful day of rest. I plan on it.

Continue to pray for my body to heal and get prepared for another round on the the 14th of Nov.

Lots of love
Cindy

Kaele thanks for the picture you drew for me. I love it!

3 down 3 to go:)

Day 8-Counts low:(

Girls just left to enjoy the festivities. Hope everyone enjoys the Fall tonight and this weekend. Went to the Dr today and my white counts are low and I have been feeling pretty bad today. My results for infection did not come yet but they went ahead and put me on antibiotics. It seems my body drops low and I get mild affects from it so I can live with that.

I have to say this go around was harder but I am hoping and believing that I am going to bounce back soon. I feel like I have sounded a little weak but it has been a frustrating time since Friday. It is time for me to rest this weekend and listen to my body. Monday I need to get refocused and spend a lot of time with God. I need to get back into conquer mode. Don't get me wrong I am fighting with all that I have. This is some powerful stuff I am carrying around but I know that there is my powerful Father carrying me when I cant another step. I know that He has plans for me. I know that He sent each of you to remind me that I can do this. I can do this and I will. I just need shake this off and focus. I know I may wonder why but that is when I am weak it is hard not to.

Thanks for being God's helpers. For praying when my praying is so weak. Continue to pray I want to live and give God the Glory!

Shooting for Victory!
Cindy

Thanks for my cards Tom, Cindy, Carrie thanks for making me my hats!

Day 7 white counts checked

Not feeling well right now. I feel like my counts are low. I will be getting my labs done in the morning. May have an infection. The Dr is going to check on me tomorrow. Just tired and praying for better days to come.

Thank you for reminding me and praying for me. I hope everyone is well and that I pray for all of you for I am blessed to have you!

Lord continue to protect me I am listening and following.

Fighting like a Girl!
Cindy

Day 6-struggling

I miss everyone! Chemo # 3 kicked my bottom! I almost do not remember the last several days. I have felt so poisoned. I felt like I was dying. It was powerful this time. I felt like I was underwater and I could not stay above. I remember thinking I can not possibly do this again.

Today I am slowly feeling better. Thanks for the heavy praying. I still have 3 more to go. Pray for strength. Pray for healing. Pray for my girls to Believe as they see Mommy struggle. I know the bracelets are going out this week. I can not wait to hear where!

Lots of thanks to my cards Ivan,Ken, Nichole, Sharon(Alexa says thanks too),Molly(they love their wendys gc)Crystal-Sherry thanks for taking the girls to the beach. They had a fab time!Conya thanks for taking the girls to the play, Jessica thanks for taking the girls to the movies. I am so thankful.

Mom thanks so much for coming and helping with my treatments. I know it is hard to see me like this. You are showing me you never stop being a mom to your babies! I love you for that.

John and Monia thanks for being here for the next 3 weeks or so. It is a big chore and I love you both.

With Madison birthday, Thanksgiving, Savannah birthday and Christmas I am saying a special prayer that I will be strong for the girls. Lord give me the strength to enjoy the girls. I have missed playing with them and having our time together.

I love you all and holding on and fighting hard! Sorry that I have been away.
Cindy

It's Mike here!

My Uncle just emailed me and asked how Cindy was feeling. He said that she has not updated since Friday the 24th. If one person is wondering, most likely a handful of you are wondering. I'm sure she will try to update you guys today but just in case, here we go..... Cindy has been extremely tired this go round. She's been spending most of her days since Friday resting. She is OK, just tired. Don't worry, She is being looked after between myself, the girls and My dad and Monia are in town. I know shes ready to feel better so she can get out more and do more. Shes not much for just laying around. But anyways, I wont steel her thunder. I will help her tonight if need be typing her thoughts so you are kept in the loop!
THANKS AGAIN FOR BEING THERE FOR HER!!!!!

Day 1- Praising God...Shrinking

I am back thank you so much for praying hard. I am so tired and feeling kinda icky. That is the drill thou.

The words that I long to hear every time I see my Dr: it is working...and I say how do you know...she says I seems to be 1cm and it was 2.4cm...I said what about a scan....she said we dont need one I can tell...she said after 3treatments it is working. Thank you Lord!

Dont lift the praises up throw them up and jump with me! I love you all. Well I am back to the beginning. Pray for a restful weekend. I am signing out tonight. I am so exhausted but so happy.

Love to all- Onie and Michele the girls say thank you! Yvonne and Nichole thanks for the cards!
Love and ThanksCindy

Cindy Happy 50th Birthday!

Day 21- Last day Calling all prayer warriors wearing pink

LOLA LOVING ALL THE BRACELETS BEFORE THEY ARE MAILED! THIS IS MY PRAYER CANDLE THAT I WILL LIGHT TONIGHT AND TOMORROW BEFORE CHEMO. THANKS PAT (MIKE'S MOM)

ALWAYS WEARING MY BRACELET THAT ALEXA MADE ME. IT KEEPS ME GOING. THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING.

It is that time. Pray hard. Thank God for getting me this far. Pray for my body to be strong. As the toxic medicine enters my body please protect me. Heal me so I can continue to Praise and give you the Glory.

I feel wonderful today! Lord thank you for bringing me all of your children. I depend so much on them. To all my prayer warriors lets stand together and show this world how great it is to BELIEVE!

I LOVE YOU ALL

Cindy

Check out Ginny's blog over at http://thepatterson5.blogspot.com

Thanks girlfriend!

Day 20-

Almost done this time. I start taking medicine tomorrow. It is so nice when I am not taking something. So I am going to spend the day getting ready. Running errands, cleaning, getting meds ready and just do everything that I can't do when I am tired and not feeling well.

Savannah and Madison went to the beach with my sister-in-law for a night or two. I am so happy for them. They called me for the hotel a little bit ago and they sounded so happy. I can't wait to hear about their trip.

As I am getting ready for Friday pray for me to be calm. Pray for me to tolerate the medicine again. Pray that I can handle the red medicine that scares me so much. Pray for Victory! Gather around me as Friday comes. Thank you for being there for me. Love to all and thank you Lord for another awesome day! I love all of you. Mom can not wait until you get here tomorrow. Thanks for taking off work again:)

Cindy

Ps I love being able to taste food!!!

Day 19- Trying to stay focused

I had a wonderful day today! It was nice to feel good all day. I am trying to stay focused on being positive not worried (which is hard). Trying to get ready to handle the chemo again. I just want to be OK more than anything. I pray so hard sometimes. Lord I want to be healed over and over again. I want to continue to live my life.

I want everyone out there to take a moment to Praise Him for not giving more than I can handle! I also want you to pray for me to continue to be OK and enjoy my family. I want you to pray for a miracle. I want to be able to talk about this after the fact more than anything. I am on my knees Praising Him!

I am choosing to Believe!

My am praying and praising God for all of you. Thanking for coming into my life when I need you all the most. Thank thank thank...

Love Cindy

Day 18- Enjoying the days

I am just trying to enjoy my days before chemo! It is nice to have my taste back. Praise-food can be so good. Feeling good send the Praise up:) I did not have to take that much medicine this time-Praise. I want to focus on sending the Praises up because it is amazing how well I have felt. I truly believe that God has been good to me. I normally get sick pretty easy and I have been well. Please continue to pray for me. I am not sure how I will be each time but I know that I will continue to lean on you all. Thank you for your commitment to walking with me. Each of you have blessed me more than you know. Prayer letters, cards, fun and thoughtful gifts, praying and wearing bracelets! Thank you for being my friend.

Thanks to all of you that have me on your blog and having the world praying for me. Check out my girlfriends blog. I just saw it today and it made my day. Emily thanks for the socks. I love that you bought us matching socks. Your a wonderful friend. http://thetallmanfamily.blogspot.com

Nichole bracelets are being mailed tomorrow. Alexa is excited about her bracelets saving my life. I cant wait to hear who gets them. Love your commitment to my family!

To another beautiful day
Cindy