Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Day 6-struggling

I miss everyone! Chemo # 3 kicked my bottom! I almost do not remember the last several days. I have felt so poisoned. I felt like I was dying. It was powerful this time. I felt like I was underwater and I could not stay above. I remember thinking I can not possibly do this again.

Today I am slowly feeling better. Thanks for the heavy praying. I still have 3 more to go. Pray for strength. Pray for healing. Pray for my girls to Believe as they see Mommy struggle. I know the bracelets are going out this week. I can not wait to hear where!

Lots of thanks to my cards Ivan,Ken, Nichole, Sharon(Alexa says thanks too),Molly(they love their wendys gc)Crystal-Sherry thanks for taking the girls to the beach. They had a fab time!Conya thanks for taking the girls to the play, Jessica thanks for taking the girls to the movies. I am so thankful.

Mom thanks so much for coming and helping with my treatments. I know it is hard to see me like this. You are showing me you never stop being a mom to your babies! I love you for that.

John and Monia thanks for being here for the next 3 weeks or so. It is a big chore and I love you both.

With Madison birthday, Thanksgiving, Savannah birthday and Christmas I am saying a special prayer that I will be strong for the girls. Lord give me the strength to enjoy the girls. I have missed playing with them and having our time together.

I love you all and holding on and fighting hard! Sorry that I have been away.


MiMi said...

Praying harder than ever! So thankful that you have been surrounded by lots of family. I'm glad that your mother was able to come. We never get too big to want our mommas, do we?

Glad you're getting stronger and slowly feeling better. Praying for continued strength and healing!

Leebird said...


You promise that when we are weak, You are strong. Hold my precious sister in Your strong arms. Help her to imagine that she's being rocked in a big cushy rocking chair by her Abba Father. May she hear the "I love you's" and the "It's going to be ok's" that You are whispering in her ear. Give the girls pleasant dreams that will fill their hearts with hope for their precious momma.

In Jesus' Name I pray, AMEN

Anonymous said...

As I read this, tears are flowing knowing just hard this must be for you. My prayer is you keep believing in the healing power of God. I pray your daughter's hearts will understand and will also feel God's presence, since this can be a very scary journey for little ones. Father, I pray you will hold on to Mike also, let him have your strength to help to endure this process. Oh God how loving you are to provide so many loving people helping this family. We thank you for this and pray for your continued healing powers. God I ask that you just whisper in Cindy's ear your hers, that you love her and that she can crawl into your arms any time she needs to. Oh Father let her feel your comfort, just love on her like she has never been loved on before. Jesus we love you and thank-you for all the blessing we see along this journey. In Y
our Precious Name- Amen
Laurie (Oregon) Love, Hugs and Prayers.....all day, every day...

On Purpose said...

Lord Almighty we cry out to You tonight knowing that You are building a very strong fortress around this family. A fortress that is built in Your strength and courage. You are protecting this family. Lord keep sending Your people to stand in the gap, to interecede and to meet the daily needs of this family! We love You Lord and thank You for Your power to save, restore and rewew! Amen

The Patterson 5 said...

I am praying for you, may each day bring more and more strength. May you continue to feel the courage and stamina to continue this fight for your physical life, knowing God is right there with you, supporting and holding you. I am so glad your mom could be there and I will pray for her strength through this as well. Much love to you and your family.

Love, hugs and prayers to you,

Cindy said...

You are strongest in the Lord. Your strength in Him is evident in your words and faith.
I am continuing to pray that His power of healing become evident in you.
Rest in HIM!

Anonymous said...

Oh Cindy my hearts goes out to you. I well remember those days when I felt like saying -ENOUGH - can't take it any more. But God gave me the strength to endure just like He will you. He is our ever present help in time of trouble. Praying for strength - Praying for Mike and the girls. Wish I could give you a hug - anyone on chemo deserves a hug.
Prov. 3:5&6