Radiation Day 2

Day 2 of 30 treatments. Well I feel fine. I did take a short nap today. I am trying to keep my strength. I do feel a little sunburned. It has been so cold here so being outside has been very uncomfortable. If you have ever been sunburned and you get the chills that is the way it feels. So I can not imagine how it is going to be if this is only number 2?

I go to my oncologist tomorrow after radiation. So I have bunch of questions. I have not seen her since Dec 31. I will be getting my port flushed. Icky-Yucky- I am such a wimp:)

Thank you for praying for me and walking with me everyday. Praying for complete healing. Praying for protection during this next few weeks.

Love Cindy

Radiation Day 1

Not sure what to think. It does take longer to get set up then the zap itself. I am keeping aloe on the area right now. I figured if I kept aloe, drank a lot of water and stretched maybe it would make it a little easier. I am not sure though? So if you know anything or have some advice for me...speak up:)

Mike is in Atlanta for a meeting this week. My sister-in-law and mother-in-law are here to get me use to my new journey.

Pastor Reggie thanks so much for coming to radiation with me. The Power of Prayer is what I needed so thanks for coming to pray for me.

Thanks to all of you for praying for me and believing. I am praying for complete healing. Lord thank you for giving me everything that you give me. I thank you for everyday.

So continue to pray for me as I start this journey.

Love Cindy
fighting like a girl

Feeling so much better!

I love you all so much. I know that you prayed for me! I will post in the morning. My first radiation treatment is tomorrow at 1:45:)

We had a wonderful time in Charlotte.

Cindy

Feeling Bad

Just a quick request. I have not been feeling well today since this afternoon and it is scaring me. Please pray that I feel better. I am suppose to leave for Charlotte after my Dr apt but I am not sure that I will be able to. My head hurts so bad and I feel very off tonight.

Thanks for praying
Cindy

Happy Birthday Lee over at Prayergifts:)

Hmmmm Hmmmm Hmmmm waiting.....

Well I was waiting to hear from the Dr about when I start simulation before I blogged again. I still have not heard and they said that they would call me Mon or Tues. So of course "little miss bundle of nerves" yes that is me starts thinking maybe something is wrong with my ct scan. You know what I am going to pause and call them.....


OK here we go I have to run after them. So tomorrow at 9am I will get my final marking and go through simulation. Pray for me.

Alexa and I had a great time last week. I was glad the girls got home safely and we have been homeschooling hard this week already. If the weather warms up off to the park with the other Hschoolers in the area:)

Thinking we may hit Charlotte this weekend for quick hey before radiation. Then back on with the pink gloves. Boy I never thought I would be going through this. It was been a rough road but I am fighting hard. I will stop by and visit soon. Looks like a lot of fun things going around. Keep blogging!

Cindy
fighting like a girl

I have a cross in the middle of my chest

I went to the radiation center today. I was measured and marked today. I felt a little weird when a cute, tiny, blond early twenties comes and gets me. Ms Summers? Come with me and put this gown on. She had to fit me for the CT scan. I was thinking "I wonder what she thinking when she is looking at me." I still have some stitches. I am very insure about the double mastectomy still. When I got home to look at the markings I see a cross in the middle of my chest. I took it as a sign that God was with me. I know it must look scary because it still is for me but I am push and fighting on. Thank you for all of your support and praying. Love you dearly.

As for my news. You all know that the Army has transferred us to Charlotte. (if anyone is attending She Speaks remember to let me know) Well since we move so much we have always sold our home by our self. Of course it is different times but I was planning on sticking with it. I had an open house for Realtors. One of the realtors approach me and said she wanted to help me. I thought of course everyone wants to help me. Realtors are hungry so everyone wants to sell me house. She said again no I want to help you! I look at her and said do you know me? She said I talked to your husband and I know you have cancer. She said that I have been passing your house for weeks now and I know that I am suppose to do this. I wish I could do this for everyone but this is the place I need to be. I am looking at her. She said that I want to tell your house for $0. I will not make any commission and the owner will not charge you anything. She said we need to take care of you and sell your house and get you to Charlotte with your husband. So I was brought to tears. So last night she had a stager come and work on my house. It was weird seeing 5 people moving stuff around. Alexa was feeling bad and not too thrilled with what they were doing. Anyway God is good and I can not wait to see what happens.

In the next few weeks I am going to be Paying Forward, Passing on a blog award that was giving to me by Mimi and Cindy(sorry I am behind) and a few Give Aways:) So lets have some fun. Make sure you check back.

My babies come back tomorrow! Miss you Savannah and Madison.

Love Cindy
fighting like a girl

Back tomorrow for markings

I have no idea what is going on or what to expect?? I went to today thinking I was going to get marked but I was wrong. It seems they like to meet with you a few times to talk and examine you. So are they making sure this is what I want? Shoot yes! Lets get this party started. I found out some news though. They told me that I am not a candidate for implants. I was confused because my breast surgeon knew that is what I wanted from the beginning. I did not know about the other option until I met August and Gayla. So he was telling me if I wanted implants that I would have to go through another surgery and wait 4-6months for radiation because my skin would need to stretch. I guess after radiation your skin gets tight and it makes it hard to insert implants. So that was news to me. I have learned a little about having the fat or muscle moved from your tummy and reconstructing to your breast. I may not be saying it correctly? I thought that would put me a risk. I have heard that is wrong. Anyway he said if I did not get radiation it would compromise my therapy. So here I am??? Lord gave me the direction to say OK. So tomorrow I will proceed. Radiation should start the first week in March.

Yesterdays appt: Edie to answer your question. I can not have my blood pressure or shots in my left arm anymore. Nothing medical on that side. I do not have lymphedema in my left arm but I am high risk. So no hot tubs (my is forsale now) no hot showers. No weights or heavy arm swinging. Dont carry anything heavy. She said to get use to not carry my purse on that arm. No tight clothes. Since the lymph nodes filter the lymph fluid. It normally can regulate all of these things we normally do. In my case it cant so I have to care for my arm. I learned how to stretch so that I do not lose range of motion but of course not over do it which can cause lymph edema. The PT was great and very helpful. If anyone has advice feel free:)

I do want to tell you something that happened to me. God is taking care of me. I just want to make sure that I am not being taken advantage of first. Having cancer can make you vulnerable. So tomorrow I will share my story.

Pray for me tomorrow as I go back.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

PS-Nichole you were right I was not alone. As I sat in the room before anyone came in I was quietly praying and when I raised my head I look up at a black and white picture of a pair of hands reaching to the sky letting go of a beautiful blue butterfly. God was showing me that I was STRONG and that I can do this. So he is "cool like that"

Say a prayer

Todays PT appt was fine today. Lots of info to read and lots to learn. I have to learn how to care for myself. Living w/o lymph nodes on my left side. I am glad I went.

Tomorrow I am not sure what to expect. I think they are just going to mark me and get me ready. I am so nervous. This will be the first time that I will be going to the drs alone. Please pray for me. Lord protect me and keep me safe.

Savannah and Madison- I miss you

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Empty Nest

So this feels strange. Well I am not old enough to have an empty nest( it is just temporary) but Savannah and Madison left yesterday to stay with Mike's Dad until Friday. They are having a mini vacation. So I am missing them tons. Mike just pulled off a minute ago to head back to Charlotte. Today was a holiday for them. It was great to see him. The girls loved Valentines with him. He has always took the girls out on dates so they all got their time. Alexa is at school right now. It is just going to be the two of us. We are thinking of checking out a movie or two. I bet you can guess: Confessions of a Shopaholic and Fired up (cheerleading) I just need to see the rate and check them out first. So it will be a girls week around here. We have lots to catch up on. Seeing that she has a crush and they call each other bf/gf. It is the perfect time to chat. Yes Mike is about to die. His first born has a little more love to share other then him:) This leaves me with an empty nest during the days for the rest of the week.

I have an appt with the PT tomorrow. I am having problems with my arm and shoulder. I do not have full range and it is hurting something bad! Wednesday I will go to radiation. I believe I get marked and ready to go for the next week. I am getting nervous. So I am requesting all my Prayer warriors to give me a boost on Wed. Lord please continue to heal me and lead me to Victory.

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend full of love
Cindy

Daddy's on the way

Daddy is the on way home for the weekend!

Giving Thanks

The girls are doing pretty good. Savannah has a touch of a cold so say a little prayer for her.

I wanted this post to thank some people. First I wanted to thank my Mom for everything. I know it has been tuff but having you during my chemo treatments and surgery was wonderful. I wanted to thank my sister for walking the race for a cure several months back. I wanted to thank all my friends and family for their donations. I wanted to thank my girls so much for their positive out look on everything. I am fighting for you! I want so bad to continue to have the awesome privilege of raising you. All three of you make me very proud. I wanted to thank my in-laws for coming to stay with me. I wanted thank my doctors for doing what you do best. I wanted to thank my friends for coming to visit and for all the cards and gifts. You dont know how much it means to get a card. I want to thank all my blog friends. The most Godly women I have ever met before. Each one of you mean a lot to me. The encouragement has pulled me through. The praying has been strong and I thank you. Keep praying when two or three pray together I feel He is with me. Mike thank you for working as hard as you do. Thank you for being positive when I am falling a part. Everyone has been doing their part. I thank you. Last but not least I want to thank GOD! Thank you for bring all these wonderful people in my life. I pray that you protect and bless them all. Sometime today please Praise Him for getting me this far. Please pray that I heal from the surgery and that radiation is effective. Please pray for complete response to all the therapy and allow me to live a life with purpose(Nichole:))


Sending love your way
Cindy
fighting like a girl

Leigh thanks for the card!
August thanks for listening and guiding me!

Mike is safe and girls are fine

This morning was OK. Mike made his way to Charlotte today. It was strange but everything went fine. I figured the girls would be fine the first few days. It seems to be the 3rd or 4th day when it affects them. Thanks for praying for me:)


So today is the first day that I have not been all bandaged up. I saw myself for the first time. It is a wow factor. I can not explain what it looks like. I think the long scar full of stitches is the most overwhelming. It is just another unbelievable experience that I for some reason am having to go through. Thank you for praying for me.

Tomorrow I have a lot of thanking that I would like to do. So it will be all about you.


Miss you Daddy:)
Cindy

Savannah's letter to Daddy

I will love and miss you forever and ever. Have a safe trip Bye P.S. see you in a week

I will miss you-Love you very much much much!

Dear Daddy,
i love you! I will always be your baby. Even though I am not a baby. I will love you forever and I will miss a lot. Hope you have a good trip. Text MG tell her you are using my phone and HAPPY BIRTHDAY and have a good party. Sorry I could not make it. Thanks! I love you very much Have a safe trip! P.S. I will clean up after the sloppy Joes and take care of mommy

Love your best daughter
Savannah

Last Day with Daddy:(

Not too much to blog about today. Mike is leaving for Charlotte tomorrow. The day has been gorgeous. Lots of family time:)


Wishing everyone a day of love
Cindy

Doctor appt

Yesterday's appt went fine. My drains can out and I was happy about this. Now all I have to do is heal from surgery and I can start radiation. I am scheduled to have 30 treatments. My prayer request is to be cancer free. I know they took the lymph nodes out and I had my breast removed(sounds weird) but the fact that the chemo did not kill the cells complete is very unsettling. I need and pray so much for this to work. Continue to pray hard for me.

Next appt is Feb 18 with the radiation. Mike is leaving on Monday. I have my house up for sale. Lots to lift up and pray about.

Praises: Primary cancer gone, successful surgery, lymph nodes removed

Thanks for remembering me always. If you need a bracelet let us know. It seems 2 did not make it again. NH and I think NY


Cindy

The new Savannah and Madison

You all know that I sensitive to hair. They have been begging to get their hair cut. So it was all them and exactly what they wanted.

Its late and your sleeping

Dear Cindy,
Its late and your sleeping and Im thinking about you BIG TIME!!!! Im SOOOO lucky to have found you and was able to start a life with you 18 years ago. You have been my best friend that has always been there for me and our girls no matter what! Im as confussed and concerned as you are now but have peace that you will be ok! You are doing so well with all the test/treatments/surgerys/Dr visits(each one with new news and twist). I couldnt be prouder of you! I know as you are thinking aboout the past and future, you are scared and it must be over whelming! I want you to know that I love,respect, and cherrish you for who you are and who you have been and what its taking you daily to fight off this awfull cancer! emotionaly I try to stay strong,focused and confident.. Sometimes I have taken the trash just to be able to breakdown by myself because I dont want to upset you anymore than you are inside already. I know and the girls know how much you love them! We love you too! Getting my things ready for Charlotte has not been easy, it has just helped me stay busy. I feel so sad yet encouraged for June to get here! We will never have to be seperated again after this final chapter in our Military service!(unless we decide to keep on after feb 2011....) That will be your call at that time! sometimes I have a hard time getting to emotional with you> I want you to be able to feed off my strength and me yours! IM CONFIDENT IN YOUR FIGHT!!!!! you are a good woman and a great friend, and mother and I look forward to growing old with you!!!! As far as your friends, and our families, I want to thank you for being there for us and motivating us and being a support channel. Even though I will be in Charlotte, your always on my mind and never futher than a 4 hr drive! I miss you when your sleeping and Im awake.

Love, Mike

Remember them here...Major changes:)

I will post later today how they look now.

More snow?

They say it may snow again? I wonder...I have been praying for a sign. A sign to let me know where, what or why? Something.

Since I blogged last it has been a few days of confusing and unclear feelings. I did talk to my Dr on Friday. She seem to not be surprised that I had 11 nodes positive. She said since the Dr missed it a year and half ago. She told me that I was not done until radiation and the medicine I have to take is complete. She said that the chemo did work but just did not give me a complete response. It is scary to know that it could be floating around or in the tissue were the lymph nodes were. I did want to make something clear. During my surgery the doctor removed my lymph nodes. I guess I may have not been clear. As far as the surgery I feeling much better. I go back on Thursday to get checked again. Please continue to pray for me by name. I need for this therapy to work. I need radiation to clean up and sterilize my tissue. Please pray for me to be cancer free. Tomorrow I will be going were I will be having radiation. I will be learning what to expect for my next journey.

Thanks so much for leaving me comments. I need to surround myself around Scriptures of healing. Thank you for praying. Praising God for the tumor being gone.

I am trying to stay focused.

Love Cindy
Nicki-thanks for lifting me up on the mountain:)

Rest and Peace

I am too exhausted right now to get too much into my appt. I am asking for lots of prayers. I need you to be believe and while I am resting and praying for peace. I would love to hear from you through scripture. Scripture of healing. I need to be surrounded by strong support. I am asking for help to get me through while I am down. As I am weak. Please pray for me to be completely healed. I believe this can happen, I know this can happen and I need for this to happen. Continue to praise Him for the healing that He has given me so far. Thanks so much for all you support. Until tomorrow...

Cindy
fighting like a girl

Very confused

Here is the poem Alexa wrote me 2 days ago:
The Mom BC Poem

I see you there so scared and frighted. I want to see you smile with light instead of the fright I see in your eyes. I want to scream to heaven for you. But all I need is pray and believe in my heart you will be fine. I know right now you need a hug but I think that I will wait for you to heal. I know this poem does not rhyme but that doesn't matter. This came right from my heart and to heaven it will go too I know. I love you!

Mommy, God will help you if you BELIEVE. Heart of Christ! Love Alexa

It meant the world to me:)

Today one of my friends told me that I need to give my results without doubt. So I am going to give this a shot. My results today were that the primary cancer in my breast was completely gone and the lymph nodes that were removed were positive for cancer. So the removed 14 and 11 of them had cancer. It is confusing for me to understand. As I am typing it is coming out very slow. Lord continue to heal me and I am praising you for the primary being gone. I have a bunch of questions for my Dr tomorrow. Please continue to pray for me. I will update tomorrow on what I find out. Next week I have another appt with the breast surgeon and an appt with where my radiation will take place.

Love you all
Cindy

I am home

Just wanted you to know that I am home. I did not want you to worry. I need to gather my thoughts and rest awhile. I will post later. Thanks for all of your praying.

Cindy

Day 8 RESULTS tomorrow-cancer please be gone

Tomorrow is my dr appt. How am I feeling? Well I am very nervous. I thought a lot about it. Of course when you do not know anything your mind leaves you alone. On the other hand when you have results your mind makes you feel and think everything. Boy has my live changed so much. I wonder if I will ever feel the same. Will I ever feel peace? When I think about this it is disappointing. I went from a happy soldiers wife with three great kids and lots of family and friends in a simple life to a scared, nervous confused girl with a very busy life. I do believe everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it just takes patience while figuring out where you go from here.

Tomorrow are my results! Am I cancer free? Is there anything positive? Oh Lord I want this so much. I want it so bad. I am praying for a miracle. I am praying hard. Please allow me to continue to serve you. Please join with me tonight.

Love you all
Cindy
fighting like a girl

I would like to share a poem from Alexa-be back in a bit

Day 6-details from my surgery

Ok today is the 6th day. You all are getting to know me pretty good. So I do not like taking medicine. Specially strong pain medicine. I take one or two a day. I have these crazy looking drains. Thank goodness my Mom is here. I might be 38 but I like having a Mom that is a nurse and still thinks I am a baby:) She has been emptying them for me. I am still bandaged up and tightly I might add. So I have not seen myself yet. Am I ready?? Not sure??

I would like to back up a little: Wed morning. Blog friends I was so scared that morning. I prayed non-stop. When they called me back. They asked me to take my clothes off and put on these tight stocking and gown. I was like greeeeeat! Stocking so I would not get any clots. Of course nurse #1 could not get an IV on me:( They were sweet though. Can you believe they give your family a blinking pager like you are at Outback LOL. After they got me ready I hear Ms. Summers we cant find your family?? We have paged them 2 times. I was laughing in my head because I figured Mike and my Mom probably thought they could not see again. So they called them on the cell phone. Anyway here comes Mike. I thought well this is my chance to give him one last hard time before I go into surgery (trying not to cry) Where were you?? I am the only one without there fam. I guess you were went to Dennys! I was totally kidding. They both kissed me bye. The transporter to the next holding area was sent from God. She was this tiny older lady who kinda looked scary? One eye sorta shut. Prayed for me the whole long, cold stroll down those hallways. I cried the whole way. I was praying Lord please let me wake up. Please be with me and please heal me. When she got me to where I was she said In Jesus name. Trust Him. I love her. So nurse #2 no IV. By now I am like yuck. She tried again and finally it was a go. Three sticks for this poor chick. She stepped out for a moment. Dr H came in. Now I am starring at him hard looking to see if I see a white angel above his head. He says ok here is the yucky part. He stuck a shot in my breast and moves it around. They most pain I think I have felt since all of this came about. He leaves nurse comes in and says I am going to give you something so you can relax and you may not even remember anything after this. The doctor is going to come in and give you a shot. I said UMMM I just got a shot?? She was like already? I cant believe he gave it to you without anything. Girls I must be a tuff Mamma cuz I thought if i can do that then I can get through this surgery. So I do not remember anything after that until I woke up. Mike and Mom said that they were brought in to see me because I was teary eyed and scared. They said I talked to them and the drs but I do not remember. Mom said she thought that I messed up and that I would not remember. When I woke up I was in recovery. Nurse #3 was worried about me because my heart rate was 150 and moving. So from 1245 until 3 they did not get to see me. Now you all dont know Mike yet but he was about bust the doors down. He loves this little chick. I know this is long but I have a reason. The over all staff was good to me up to this point. I want to thank God for taking good care of me. I remember being so happy to be ALIVE. Off to my room. Nurse#4 he was very good to me. Ms. Summers I have lots of good drugs for you today. Just ask. You can have 4mg of morphine every 4 hrs. Oh my I think I will just take 2 thank you sir! He was great. Nurse #5 you would have thought I was being pranked. She came in to check me and the bed got stuck and every time she pushed the button the bed got worse. By the time I decided I am getting off this bed before I die she had my legs higher then my head. I looked like a hot dog stuck in a bun. Here I am "Mom can you take me to the bathroom"? So while I was in there I told her get me a new bed please maybe a new nurse while you are at it:) When we got out she had rest it. Thank goodness. While she was leaving she knocked over the blood pressure stand and everything went flying. You had to be there. She was good to me. So there ya go. I hope you enjoyed my journey through surgery.

Now I am just letting my body heal and getting ready for Thurs. Please pray for a cancer free report. Doctor could not find the clip or primary cancer in the breast. So I hope that path reports backs it up.

Tonight I would like you give Praise to God for getting me to this point. I would like to thank all of you for praying for me.

Til tomorrow
Cindy
fighting like a girl and loving tank tops(they hold the drains so nice)

First full day home

Hey everyone-I am hanging in there. The surgery seem to go fine. I am still on meds so I am a little off. I am sore and a little swollen. I have a fat lip?? I hope I did not make anyone mad:) I guess when they take the breathing tube out they must have hit me. Oh well.

My Mom and Mike (thank goodness for that) are helping me with my drains. They are interesting. I look like someone that is about to bomb a bank. I will update you more as I feel better. My main reason for blogging is to thank everyone for praying for me.

Results on Thurs! The next big hurtle

Love ya
Cindy
fighting like a girl

Cindys Status

Mike Here,
Cindy had a boring day today! She has just layed around on the sofa and relaxed... The meds are taking care of her pain and discomfort. Shes in good spirits and looking forward to being a little more mobile... She cant use her arms much more than to eat, brush teeth etc. Her mother is taking great care of her too!(shes a nurse) ..... I want to thank you again for being such a great group of friends to Cindy. Im hitting the hay, long couple of days! Take care!

Mike

In the Hospital

Hey everyone!

I just wanted to say hi before I get more pain meds. Thanks for praying for me. I am sore but hanging in there. Please continue to pray.


Fighting like a girl
Cindy

Cindys Status

Cindys Surgeon said the surgery went as planned and no complications! She has been in a private room for about 90 minutes now and is resting(pain meds). She is doing ok and I should be bringing her home sometime thursday. Her mom will stay with her tonight and I will go home with the kids. Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers! Shes a fighter and the strongest person I know! I will update again thursday unless she ask me to add any details later tonight if time permits. thanks again!!!!

PRAY-POST IT EVERY WHERE:)

I have to be at the hospital at 8:30 and surgery is at 10:30. It is suppose to take 2 hrs. Not sure how long in recovery.

Pray that I am calm and relaxed. Pray for my doctor. Pray for my complete healing.

Mike will keep you updated on here and facebook as soon as he can. If you get a text or call please post it on your blog or facebook. I do not want anyone to be missed. Mike is probably going to be overwhelmed.

STILL BELIEVING AND STILL FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL

Love
Cindy

Brynley(friend),Alexa,Savannah and Madison being pulled by the mower

FUN IN THE SNOW

Mike and I having some fun outside!

Relaxing and thinking (Praising for getting this far)

Today I spent most of the day messing around in house while Mike took the girls out on a date. It was some much need time for them. I was going to talk to the girls today but I decided I would do it tomorrow. So I will update you on how they deal with our talk.

What am I worried about? What am I thinking? Today was a great day to just think about everything that I have been through since Aug. It all happened so fast. Well as I thought today I started to get a little nervous about the surgery. Why do we always worry about waking up? I don't know but that is the one thing that I keep worrying about. I am not really worried about the pain or getting use to being without a body part. It is so weird looking at the doctor/nurses and going to sleep and than waking up and it being done. My surgery is suppose to 2 hrs and my stay in the hospital is one night. They get you out fast! I am praying for a successful procedure. I am praying for the cancer to be gone before they get there. I am praying for a healthy recovery so I can continue to raise my beautiful girls.

I was wondering do you think God is sending the snow here tomorrow for a reason? Do you think it is a reminder that He is here and the beautiful white snow that is going to fall will keep me looking up to watch it fall?

Pray tomorrow that the girls will understand this is just another step in our journey that Mommy has to go through. I am looking forward to loving and snuggling them.

Pray that my Mom has a safe a trip tonight. I am lucky that she will be with me for a week. She is going to help me with my drains and whatever else comes along with this surgery. I am having a radical on the left and a mastectomy on the other. Sounds scary to me. Tonight I have to start taking a new medicine. I have to take it for 5 years. I am hoping I will do fine with it.

Thanks for all your comments, calls and facebook visits. I request please:) Mike will be updating my blog and checking my facebook. Encourage him and let him experience the power that I have experienced from all of you.

Pray Pray Pray
Cindy
fighting like a girl

Last weekend before surgery

What was I doing last night? I was at Alexa's last home game. I have been able to attend a lot of her games. It has been so much fun. Sending praises up:)


Calling all prayer warriors!!!
We are finally at the count down for my surgery. I can not believe that chemo is done. I know I keep saying it but it so wonderful to be done. Now it is time to get ready. I pray that my surgery is successful. I am praying for my body to be healed completely. Please pray for Dr. Habal.

More bracelet went out today. If you have not received yours please email me. I remailed 7 of them today.

I am going to spend this cold weekend inside getting my home ready. Thanks in advance for everyone that will be helping with the girls and my house.

Cindy
fighting like a girl

ps: I am going to enjoy the next few days of feeling normal

Standing in the gap

Yes today I want to thank you for standing in the gap. It has been amazing to think back at those days that I thought I could not move. Those days I was so poisoned that I don't even remember if I prayed. Those days I did not spend anytime with the girls because all I did was slept. You were there standing in the gap. You were lifting me up and staying strong for me. You were sending love to my girls. You continued to believe even when I began to fall. You have been there and I am thankful.

To my husband thank you for cooking, cleaning, taking care of the girls, working so hard for the Army,and for loving me. I know it must be so hard to be the Mom and the Dad. I LOVE YOU!

Today I had my EKG and chest x-ray. So now it is the count down for my surgery. so far everything is set for the 21st. I am feeling better. Still trying to kick the bronchitis. Great news thou all my counts are up and in the normal range! Happy girl here.

One week from today I am having a double mastectomy and lymph nodes removed on one side. So many questions. I will have my results on the 29th. I am going to need some major encouragement. Getting ready for part 2 of my journey.

Glad part one is almost over:)

Cindy

So glad no more chemo

I was just thinking how happy it is to say no more chemo. I feel pretty good this go around with the chemo. I just need to knock this bronchitis. So pray hard hard hard. I need to get better so I can get this cancer out (if there is anything left) I go on Wed to get my counts checked. I feel like they are up. I hope so:)

Alexa's appt went the same as last. It is strange. I am waiting to hear from her pediatrician and his take on it. Please keep her in your prayers.

This week I am trying to get everything done so when I have surgery my house will run smooth. We just put our home on craigslist and working hard on selling it. Please pray that our home will sell so Mike wont be away from us too long. The Army is moving him on the 9 of Feb.

The goal: Cancer Free and Home Sold- God you are in control


Sending Love
Cindy
fighting like a girl

Alexa

Quick prayer for Alexa's follow-up ultrasound this morning.

Thank you
Alexa's Mom (Cindy)

Feeling Better

Well I took a few days to think about what everyone said on my last post. I also thought about what 2 of my blog friends said that I talked to over the weekend. I realize that I am going to fall and be scared sometimes but I am ultimately going to have to give it to God. He is in control and when I lay my head down at night I need to Believe. Thank you for letting me journal. I knew when I started this I was not going to hide anything. I knew that I wanted to be true to my feeling. If I help one person who is suffering or needed direction it is worth it. Thank you for helping me find my way through the last few days. As I sat in church today and tears ran down my face I handed it over to God. I asked Him to heal me as He promised. I felt so much better when I walked out of those doors.

Thanks again for all the cards, calls and encouragement. Thank you for praying for me. Thank you for reminding me to Praise Him everyday for getting me this far. I am thankful. As you pray for me please thank Him and give Him all the Glory.

I am feeling better. Still need to get rid of bronchitis so I can have my surgery.

Much Love
Cindy
FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL

Surgery Date Change

I am still feeling kinda a yucky but praying that I get better soon. I went to the breast surgeon today. It really stinks when you are starting to get excited and something knocks you down. When I saw the Dr he wanted to discuss the options of surgery. I knew all along what I wanted. My thought process was if I had a double mastectomy I would have a better chance of not getting cancer again. Well he told me that it really did not matter what I decided to do. That localized breast cancer is no problem. He felt confident that by touch I had a good response. The problem is the cancer showing up in the organs in the next 3 years. I was immediately depressed. I just want to be OK. It is so scary to think that this is part of my life that I will have to worry about all the time. So the rest of the day I had a hard time not crying. I am so mentally exhausted. I am so glad to done with chemo. I am so glad that it seems to have worked. So I am sorry that I seem so down but this can really mess with your mind. Thank you for letting me be open.

Surgery date is changed to the 21st. I go have a chest x-ray and my heart checked Wed. I guess all I can do is rest and get healthy.

Thank you for praying. Lord give me direction and strength. Keep me focused so I can beat this.

Cindy

Day 8-Ordered to Bed

Just got back from the Dr. She said my lungs do not sound too bad. She thinks I have bronchitis. So I received a z-pack. I did not realize they made in a one dose powder. My white counts were 0.8. So they are ordering me to bed for the day. My platelets are the lowest yet but she said they should come up in a week. Getting ready to drink a lot of water:)

Breast Surgeon appt tomorrow morning. Pray for him!

Pray for healing so I can drive on to my 16th surgery. Off to rest.

Love Cindy
Fighting hard

Day 6-specific prayer

This a real bummer. I am not feeling well right now. It seems that I have a lot of yuck in my lungs. It is worrying me a little. Will it delay my surgery? Is it something else? Please pray for my lungs to get clear and feel better. I go get my counts checked on Wed. I have made it this far and want more than anything to finish.

Thanks so much Edie for posting. Just in time when I need it the most. Thank you for praying. I will update you tomorrow on how I am doing. Sending love your way.

Alexa was so happy. Making more bracelets this weekend.

In His arms
Cindy

Day 5-So tired

I know everyone is starting the new year with a lot of exciting things. I look forward to reading your blogs. I have been so blessed by your friendships. I could not imagine getting through all 6 treatments without ARMY BRATS AND ME. It has been an amazing journey. The cards and stories that I heard were encouraging. Everyday was a struggle but I knew I could count on you all. Your commitment was motivating and I do not know how I will ever pay you back.

As I allow my body to gain strength I sit back and think about how lonely life would be without BELIEVING. It is so sweet to think back at my little girl placing that pink bracelet on my wrist the day I told her. I have learned so much in the last 4 months. Thank you for helping me see this world as the wonderful place that it is and thank you for not leaving me alone.

Lord I am giving you all the Glory for getting me through. I am Praising you for my upcoming surgery. I am expecting a Miracle. I want to dance and sing and be cancer free. Lord allow me to continue to serve you. Amen!

Wishing you all well
Cindy

Day 4

I am so tired but wanted to get on and let you know that I am fine. My body is sore but I am hanging in there.

Please pray for me to stay strong and healthy so I can continue with the next journey.

6treatments complete-give Him the Glory

Much love
Cindy

Day 2-No more day 2's!

Here is a picture of the blog ornaments that were sent to me. Thanks so much. I love them. I am tired but feeling ok. Continue to pray as I approach my next journey. Love you all and Happy New Year

Cindy

Sharing my chemo day

Here is my day. This is the back of my pants. I came in ready to celebrate last day of chemo.

Next is me in the chemo bay. Nichole I love my scarf. My shirt says FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL:) Next is my doctors (two ladies) my pharmacist(guy) and the nurses(sorry my eyes are closed) Please do not worry about the red face and the weight gain. Chemo makes you gain and have a lot of water gain. Here is my long and exhausting day. I love you all.

Chemo Treatment #6 Prayer Warriors Wanted

Today is the day. I am getting ready and I started getting excited, nervous, scared, anxious. I can not believe that it is finally here. The day that I have been waiting for.


I want to take a few minutes and tell you how much it has meant to me to have all of my family behind me. You have jumped in and helped with the kids, cooking, cleaning and laundry. You have lived in my house and left yours behind without questioning it. You have sat with me during long chemo visits. You have driven me to doctors appt and to fill scripts. And most of all you have watched me from the beginning hear news and results that have brought me to my knees with screams and tears that have changed my life forever.
THANK YOU
To my friends that have known me for a long time. I know it has been hard. What to say? How to act? What to do? You have been great. I love you and thank you for coming and helping out. You are a true friend.
THANK YOU
To my blog friends. You have been with me since the beginning. You have committed to walk with me in this journey. You have kept me focused. You have prayed when I could not. You knew when I needed you. You have served our God well. You will be blessed. My wish is to meet you all someday. I love you and I am so grateful to all of you.
THANK YOU

Mike, Alexa, Savannah and Madison as I write this I begin to cry. I can not imagine how it must feel to see your Mommy sick. I know it has been scary. I know it is hard to fight the thoughts. I love you all so much it hurts. It is a privilege and honor to hear you call me Mommy. Everyday is a blessing with you. Always remember that I will love you forever. Mike I know it has been hard to work and take over everything that I have been to doing to make our family run. I know that you are exhausted and drained. Even thou I know you are sad but you don't show it. I am OK with it. Thank you for being strong at night when I am falling apart. Thank you for loving me and saying that I am beautiful when I am so vain. I love you!

Wear your pink, wear you bracelets and leave me a comment. It is time to celebrate and start a New Year. If have not left a comment or do not know how it is easy. Click on inspiring words and type away in the box, type verify word and hit anonymous if you do not have an account. I want to here from you and I need it.

Love Cindy
FIGHTING LIKE A GIRL

Last Treatment

Hey I am getting a little nervous. I have a cold so pray that I do not get push back from this appt. I wanted to thank everyone for supporting me during this difficult time. It has been hard but it will be worth it in the end.

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year. I am looking forward to being healthy and cancer free. If anyone would like to added to my text during chemo tomorrow email me your cell micialsa@aol.com

Praying for healing
Cindy
ps lee I wanted to share my letter but it coming strange and will not let me do it?

Day 109-Good Morning

Lots of random catch ups.

We just got home last night. Yes I did say that. We went to Charlotte for a quick trip. We left Friday late morning. The girls were sick off and on all last week and weekend. So we are off to the dr's at 2 today. But anyway we spend Fri with Mike's family and Sat with mine. I will post pictures later my computer is still not working. Everyone had a lot of fun. Sat I had tons of visitors so thanks Stephanie and Jon for opening your house to all my friends. It was fun and tiring all in one to see everyone. People I saw:

Nicki from three girly girls-She came by and sat with me for a while. Thanks Nicki for coming by and look forward to seeing you when I am back. Nicki and I were neighbors which turned into great friends and bible study pals. Love ya girl. Teri came by to see me. We also became friends after living in the same neighborhood. We sat around and ordered tupperware with the girls.She is always there for me. It was tons of fun. Love ya girl! My girlfriend from Miami Keri which now lives in NC. It was great to see her. I know it has been hard for her to see me sick. We have known each other since before school days. So I was happy to see her. Love you. Mary and Nicholas came to see Madison and me. She was Madison's K teacher. We became friends and we love her baby. She has been a huge support to Madison when we moved. She has also been positive and Strong for me when I was falling. We love your family very much. Check out her blog and you will see pictures of our visit. (it is on my sidebar The Camp Fam)I saw my girlfriend Carrie. She was the one that just left here. It was great to see her. My girls love her and got really attached when she was here. Love you girl. Then I met Gayla she has been leaving comments on my blog for a while now. She is a breast cancer survivor for 15 yrs. She was very open with me and shared info and answered lots of questions. So it was great to finally meet. Love ya. Of course it was great to see everyone and I hope I did not forget anyone. Please know that it was fab.

My Savannah was with her best friend for the weekend. She is like our 4th daughter we love her and it was great to see them together. Sharon thanks for loving my family and look forward to building our relationship. Love ya.

Nikki (cousin) thanks for playing with the girls. It was great to see you. Love ya

When my computer is up I want to show you my ornaments. They are treasures so if you are still going to do it please do. They can come anytime. I love them.

Bracelets-I am happy to say that a few more have finally made it after a week or so of mailing. Praise!

Well it was a great time even with the fevers and coughing. It is time for me to get well and ready for Wed. Can you believe it. One more. I am going to pause and I hope you do right here and pray for me to be healed completely.....Amen! I am so happy that I have all of you. Thank you for letting me be honest. It has been a hard road and still a lot to go but I truly BELIEVE I could not have done it with out YOU and the PRINCE OF PEACE! Love all of you.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I love you. My family and Mike's thanks for everything. Breeanna and Carson love you.

Cindy

Everyone is sick in this house but we are excited

Merry Christmas from The Summers'

Wishing you wonderful memories with family

Fighting like a girl

Cindy

Savannah is feeling better

Thanks for all your praying! She is feeling better today. Praise!!


Someone is taking Alexa's bracelets out of the cards. This is very upsetting so let me know if you receive one. We mailed about 15 of them last week. So far one made it. I know of 2 that the card made it with a slit in it. So please pray that the next bunch make it. I need to make a trip to Micheals and I guess I will start paying insurance. Please give us some time. She really wanted you to have them by Christmas. Sorry

Cindy
I am very frustrated

Savannah Noel

Savannah should be feeling better very soon. Thanks for praying for her. The doctor said it was viral. So no medicine for her. (happy girl) She is still has a cough but she seems to be popping up. I think the Bitty Baby we gave her today put a big smile on her face. She has walked around today with a backpack on her back with her baby.

Tomorrow we will celebrate her birthday so I will post her party.

Wishing everyone a wonderful night.
Love Cindy

BRACELETS

Let me know when you get your bracelets. It seems some of you have not received and some received the card but the bracelet was taken out. I guess someone is looking for Christmas gifts in the mail. This makes me very sad. I do not mind sending you another just let me know. I will pray about this and hope that they make it. Sorry

Savannah has a doctor appt this morning. So I will let you know how things are going.

Savannah is sick-

My baby woke up at 5 am with a fever. Please pray for her tonight. She is still feeling bad and her fever is staying at about 102. With Christmas coming and her birthday we just want her well fast. Mike is having to take care of her because I can not get sick before the 31st. So it is hard comforting her from a distance.

Off to the Dr tomorrow.

Savannah will be 10 tomorrow!

Thank you for praying ( I feel awesome today I just feel so bad that Savannah has been so ill)

Day 16 Shop until you drop

I have not been able to shop until today. So I have been out for a long time today shopping. I am so tired but I bet I was the happiest shopper out there. While everyone is flying through the parking lots to find a place to park I am just like no big deal I will park where ever. As I am walking through the stores I am just wondering around enjoying being out while everyone else is rushing and stress out. Life is just to short to get caught up in all the crazy stress. Lets not forget what Christmas is all about. I am not. And yes I am about to drop!

Lots of bracelets are in the mail as of today. Thank you for wearing them. I will give a list of states Monday so we can see what we need to cover. Nicki I saw you have a friend in IN will see if they would like to wear a bracelet for her state? Thanks so much for helping. Also I am receiving the coolest ornaments. They mean the world to me. I will take a picture in the next few days to show them off.

Praising today and everyday. Still BELIEVING!

Love
Cindy
2 days until my blue eyed Savannah is 10

Results are in!

Praise praise praise everything is normal from what they can see with ultrasound. We are off to see Santa and to Mike's Christmas party.


Love you all
Cindy

Day 14-Waiting for results still-PRAY

Today I had my ultrasound. Of course I am still waiting for the results. I hope to be able to update you tomorrow. I am feeling good and hope to feel myself by Christmas. Thank you for praying.

About the She Speaks Conference: I have been waiting for the right time to tell you about my news. I told you about Mike making the promotion list a while back. Well we were told that when it was time to move that we would have to move out of the southeast this time. So we were concerned because of my medical needs. We knew that it would be hard for family to help being too far north or too far west. I just pushed it to the side and said I was not going to worry about it. So not too long after that Mike received a call with a position in Charlotte, but in order to take the position he had to move in Feb with or without me. After talking about it we decided that this is part of the Plan. Most of our family is in Charlotte. So we just put the house up for sale this week. We are not sure with the housing market how long it will take but it is God's hand so I will wait. So I will stay back with the girls and finish treatment, Alexa will finish school and we will wait for the house to sell. I am so excited. What I am extremely excited about is that I will be getting the chance to meet a lot of you who will be attending. I will not be attending but in the same city with all of you. We are just going to have to make the time. Mimi I am not sure if you attend but I know you live close so we should be able to surely meet. Anyway I have been sitting on this because I could not believe we got this offer. It is so neat when things just fall into place. So if you are out there and something is just not going your way. Don't worry just let it go and give it to God and it will fall into place.


Much love
Cindy
4 days Savannah will be 10

Day 13

I have had a wonderful day today. I have my ultrasound done tomorrow. My girlfriend leaves tomorrow too. I have had such a great time with her. Thank you God for allowing her to have this time. We love her.


Hope all is well and will post about my appt tomorrow. Thanks for praying.

Love Cindy
5 days until Savannah birthday

Nichole I am praying for you.

My journey-catching up new viewers

My name is Cindy and I am 38yrs old. I have been married for 14yrs. My husband is an active duty soldier. He is working on 20 yrs of service. We have been able to move around and meet people from all over. I have 3 daughters. Who I love so much. I enjoy everything about them. I am a Christan, a daughter, a sister and a loyal friend of many.

Everything has been going well. I was loving my life. I was excited to start my new journey of homeschooling my two youngest when my life took a huge hit. Over the summer I went to the dr about a lump that I found. I was referred to an imaging center where I had an ultrasound and mammogram. The sad thing to this part of the story I brought this to my dr attention a year ago. He decided that I was fine and I did not need anything. So then I had a biopsy done. The results took forever. It was the longest week. When I finally got the call it was the worst day of my life. How was I going to tell my husband? How was I going to tell my family? Worst of all how was I going to tell my daughters. Next was a MRI to find where the cancer is. Then a biopsy of the cancer. Then waiting for the results. I saw a breast surgeon. He gave me the results. I was told stage 3. I was devastated. I went from the surgeon to the oncologist. After several scans and lots of appts. It was time to start my journey of fighting like a girl. The plan for me: 6 treatments, surgery, radiation and then reconstruction. Before I started chemo I knew I would have to talk to the girls. So I did. I chose to tell the girls at different times. It took everything out of me. This is where the bracelets took life. You can read back for more details on how I talked to them. So I started chemo and I am now on the 5th. It has been up and down. I am doing fine and looking forward to being done with this part.

Thanks for letting me catch up everyone. When I started blogging I never dreamed it would be therapy for me. It has been a way for me to be real and journal about my everyday life living with cancer. I have leaned on my faith to keep me focus. I did not know by choosing to believe and be obedient that I would find all of you. When I requested people to pray for me I did not know how amazing it was going to be. Because of all of you I am making it everyday. Thank you for blessing me everyday.

I am praising God tonight for another great day. I am looking forward to many more. Praying for a miracle and excited to give Him all the Glory!!

Love Cindy
PS-my email is down(if you have emailed in the last day sorry it will be back up on Friday)

Lee=ornaments-I would love to have one that is a reflection of prayergifts if you have time:)

Day 12-Appt changed until Thurs

Frustrating but my appt was changed until Thurs. I was so hoping to get this out of the way. Oh well I will be patient and wait until then.

Today was the first day since I started chemo that I went to the park and walked for 30 mins. I was so happy. It was a bit cold and raining lightly but I did not care. This girl was gonna walk. It wore me out but I have felt wonderful today. So thank you for praying for strength for me. I so can feel what you are praying for me.

I know that there are a lot of new viewers out there. So I wanted to catch everyone up on my journey and who the Summers' are. I know that I said I would do that yesterday but I am going to do it tonight. So I will post a little later.

Til tonight
Cindy
6 days until Savannah will be 10

Day 11 Feeling good-Alexa's basketball game

Carrie and my girls at the game tonight. It was so much fun.













Savannah and Madison wanting a quick picture with their big sis!

Yeah we got spirit!! Get on the Mustang Train....OOOHHH AH(sorry i forgot to do red eye)

Hanging with her friends!

Alexa flying high. Mommy gets a little scared every time she goes up:)

There is my beauty queen. I love getting to go and watch her.

Pray for me I am getting an ultrasound tomorrow or Wednesday to check out and see if there is anything in my mid area. Praying that I am free and clear.

Enjoy and Good Night

Cindy

Day 10-Sweet Surprise by Sweet Savannah

Savannah was back tonight. She had a nice time. She had a party for me today. I ran out to the store for a little bit when I can home she had a dessert table made up of teddy grahams, chocolate covered cherries and pretzels. Then she had appetizers and fruit. My girlfriend made panini's. So when we sat down to eat she wanted to bless us. It was too cute. She had a bowl of water and went around and bless each of us(she went to church this morning with her Catholic friend) Oh did I mention she had a tip jar on the table too. It was a great surprise and a lot of fun.

Today was a good day. It was great weather. I sat outside and watch the girls play around and have fun. Today is probably been my best day yet. So thank you for all you prayers. Hopefully everyday will just get better. It is time for me to get ready for shopping because I know Santa is coming and my little girls have been good!

I am also so thankful for all the bracelets that are wanted out there. So we are busy working on that. Thanks for loving my girls and walking with me on this journey. I love you all.

Praising God for giving me the strength to fight as hard as I have been able to. I want more then anything to continue to be a mom to my girls. It is a privilege and honor to be their mom. So I am going to continue to BELIEVE! Sweet Dreams

Fighting like a girl

Cindy

Day 9-Tired but everyday a little easier

Madison is learning how to knit with my girlfriend. My girlfriend took a week off to come and hang with me. We have known each other since we were 5 yrs old. She has some projects to do with them. She is great with my girls. I am excited that she is here.
Alexa looking at the computer. She is getting tired and ready for bed soon.

My cousin Nikki came to visit today. She is so tired after playing with my girls today. We are so happy that she came.

I have been house bound today trying to stay well. It has been a fun day and I can not complain. It is getting so close to Christmas and I am so far behind. I want to start getting in the mood . I am excited about the ornaments even if they come after the fact. It will mean so much to us.

Alexa is getting some more orders for bracelets. I will post next week what states are being covered.

I also am curious who is attending the She Speaks Conference in Charlotte? I think that is what it is called? I will explain why wants I get dome feedback.

I know that there are viewers that are just know reading in so I am going to chat a little about my journey on Monday. I know it is hard to go back and read 100+ posts. I am follower of God and love you to join me. I am praying for a Miracle and looking to give God all the glory. As my bracelet says I am believing. It is important for me to share how much I am being blessed everyday by bloggers praying for me and taking time to share scripture and love with me. It is my journey and I thank you for letting me share. I thank you for letting me be me through the good and bad.

Have a wonderful night

Fighting like a girl

Cindy

I forgot to post 9 days until Sweet Savannah is 10 yrs old(she is at a friends tonight)

Day 8-Counts low:(

Alexa says thank you!

My white counts are at 1 but I am sure I will be feeling better by the beginning of next week. Thank you so much for all your hard praying and support. I keep telling myself that I am almost done. I am believing that I am going to be OK so that I can continue doing the work that I am suppose to do. I am loving all the beautiful stories that I am hearing. The hearts that are being reached and the souls that are being saved. It makes it all worth it.

I am so excited to see the new states that my daughter is making bracelets for so thank you. It is amazing to see her think that believing and gathering the world to save me. Faith is awesome.

I love you all and look forward to great days.

Cindy

Day 7-Feeling so-so

Sorry I did not blog yesterday. I did so much because I felt pretty good which made me so exhausted. Today I did not feel as good. I am starting to learn the drill and my counts are definitely falling. It just makes you so tired. So tomorrow when I get my white counts checked I am sure they will be low but that is what it is suppose to do.

I will be putting some pictures up this weekend of the girls. They have taken up cooking and baking with Yaya. They are having so much fun. So I am looking forward to cooking with them.

My day yesterday: Madison and I let Daddy sleep in and cook breakfast for him. It was a lot of fun. I homeschooled the girls. I drove for the first time since chemo on Friday and checked my po box. So it was a full day for me. I think Daddy was surprised and enjoyed it.

I am looking forward to catching up on every one's blogs. I sure do miss it. I am also looking forward to seeing all your ornaments. The girls and I will work on ours.

I am thinking off all of you. Thanks for praying and lifting me up. I love you.

Love Cindy

Day 5-Tuff but up

I am sorry my post have been short. I have been resting a lot. It is just a slow process. I did drag myself up today and made pancakes for the girls and myself. I homeschooled the girls this morning without any help too! I have been missing them. By the time we were done I was tired. It is amazing how powerful chemo is. I have been reading my emails, texts and comments. I am blown away. What a wonderful place and wonderful people that are serving. Thank you so much for all your praying. There are so many things that I want to say but I am not strong enough yet. I just want you to know that I am believing.

Thanks Mike, Mom and my inlaws for caring for me without any questions. Thanks for loving the girls. I am very lucky. Thanks to all my blog friends...someday I want to tell you how you have changed my life forever.

I have all the request for bracelets. They are being made. Canada too:)

The girls and I came up with an idea. It has to do with ornaments on our tree. If you would like to make an ornament with your name and/or blog info. It would be a reminder for my girls that you are a part of our lives to celebrate every year. It would be beautiful to see your love on our tree. Peace and love coming your way.


In His Arms
Cindy

Day 4

I am struggling. It is so tuff right now. My body is sore and I am exhausted. I just wanted to check in. I will rest for now.

Much love Cindy

Day 3-#5

Keep praying as I fight to shake this off. I am very tired but trying hard to get up when I can. I will be back soon to catch up. Sending love everywhere.
Cindy

Day 2

I am OK! I am resting a lot. Thanks for praying and please continue. Love everyone:)


Cindy

Pink Pink Pink Pink Pray Pray Pray Pray

Here we go! Getting ready to settle down. The housekeeper comes in the morning. Love when she pulls my bed down so when I walk in the door I can snuggle right in. If you remember I was given this as a gift for a year. When I went to the fundraiser for breast cancer. She wanted to donate her time to a cancer patient. Too sweet.

So you are probably getting to know me and know what I need right now. Thank so much for praying for me. I am going to go in there telling myself that I can do this and walk out knowing I am conquering this terrible disease.

Wear your pink, wear your bracelet and lets shoot for that MIRACLE that I am seeking. Love you so much. It is time for this girl to get her fighting gloves on. Rocking the cancer center tomorrow (steroids sure do make you think you are rocky lol)

LOVE CINDY
Keep sending bracelet request:)
Ps I joined Facebook and it is too fun

More states

OK here are some of the states that I was not sure about but now are wearing bracelets!

Idaho
Hawaii
Connecticut

thanks for requesting from Georgia, Michigan and Canada-Alexa will make this weekend
Be back to close to night Love ya

Quick post and I will post later about tomorrow

Send me an email micialsa@aol.com if you would like a bracelet. Alexa will make them and we will send them out. Thanks for your support.
Love Cindy

bracelets that are coming
Emily-fl
Nicki-nc
Robin-va
Jamie-nc
Sheryl-please email me so you can wear one for your state
Lee-alexa made you a special one it is going out today-sorry it has taken me so long!
Have I forgotten anyone that asked?? Got to go and finish getting ready. Alexa has a game today.

Peace and love-will post my thoughts later:)

PRAYING HARD AND FIGHTING HARDER THAN EVER

Day 20-Praises

Another nice day. I realized that this week that I have done fairly well with my anxiety. I think the biggest thing I worry about is that I need to stay well.

Tomorrow I will start taking my meds to get ready. As I prepare for Friday please pray that I can tolerate the chemos. It scares me each time. You should see me in the chemo room. You all would laugh at me. I never relax like everyone else. I never sleep like everyone else. No way! I ask a million questions. I mean I question everything. I am the baby in there compared to everyone else. I get stares and glances. I know they are saying she is too young to be here. Thank goodness my husband and mom are so good and patient with me. It will never get to be a routine with me. I take each treatment very seriously. So please pray that I will be OK.

I hope that someday that someone out there going through this terrible, scary unbelievable dream can have hope and faith and know that I will walk them through. I want them to know that anything is possible through Him.

Thank you my committed friends for helping, supporting and praying for me. It means so much.

Sweet Dreams
Cindy

States I know:
Florida
South Carolina
North Carolina
Tenn
Virgina
Ohio
Arizona
California
Oregon
Washington
Did I forget any?? Lots to go. If you are a quite reader that is fine. If you would like to wear a bracelet just let me know.
(I have a friend that was covering a handful not sure where I will find out tomorrow, also I will have LA taken care of)

Day 19-Great day

Today was my best day so far this go around. It is interesting how the last week my body gets as close to normal just to get ready for the next treatment. I am starting to get my taste back. So here is what I guess I can expect. Friday is treatment day. The first week I feel drugged and poisoned (the only way I know how to describe) The second week tired, counts are done and weak. The last week gaining my strength and feeling normal. The last three treatments I have ended up on antibiotics but everything has ended up fine. My prayer request for tonight is that I stay healthy and strong. These last two treatments are so important for me to stay on track. Dec 5 and Dec 31 than surgery. Oh I am so ready to be done.

Thank you for all your support. It has meant so much to me. I am hoping everyone is having a great week. I plan on spending the rest of the week getting ready. My mom and my in laws will be here on Thursday night. Wishing them safe travels here. Oh I forgot to mention I am by myself this week. Tonight I cooked too. Loving feeling myself.

Dear God thank you for holding my hand, walking with me when I am scared, carrying me when I could not take another step and covering me with prayer warriors from all over. I am thankful and I am giving you the Glory and Praising you always. Amen


Love Cindy
Praying for a Miracle

Day 18-Good day

I am feeling good. The last week is so nice. I have chemo # 5 on Friday. Sometimes I still can not believe that I am going through this. I really want to this one over with. The colder it gets the more chances for the flu. So pray that I stay healthy through the next month.

Thank you so much for all the support that you continue to send. I love reading and hearing from you. You are serving our God well and I thank you for it.

I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving. Around our table giving thanks was a lot of tears. Mom had all of us crying. Anyway I am thankful for my life and meeting all of you. Thanks to my inlaws and mom for having Thanksgiving here with us.

Alexa still is working on her bracelets. I have not been well enough to find more prayer warriors out there to represent their state. She wants to cover all the states. So let me know where you live and help fulfill her dream.

Happy December! Spread the word. Reach out and tell someone that you love them. If you are missing something don't go another day lonely. God loves you!

Love Cindy